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Fiel
It's time to consolidate my blog! I've been off the platform for years so I've had a little learning curve, but being that I enjoy writing so much and with the way blogs are set up it seems to me that replying to my own thread is the way to go, so this will be my blog.

Went dancing last night!

I met one man whose name means "innovative", another, Jay* who is an aspiring r&b artist and music producer, and one man, Vic* whose grandfather wrote a popular song about a city I lived in for a while in Mexico!

On the subject of name meanings, my innovative friend asked for mine and I told him, but I actually go by a nickname of my nickname which I just happened to look up and it means "life" or "woman who enjoys life", which is certainly more fitting for me! Someone pointed out to me just the other day that my screen name on here can be rearranged to "Life" and how about that little synchronicity. I love it 🤩 My middle name is Joy, so my name is something like "Joyful Life". I will claim that :)

My dear friend, O, showed up last night and I was surprised to see another old friend from my early performing days arrive as well! Dances with O are smooth as butter. I've never clicked with anyone quite the same way, it's like we are so in sync when we dance I feel like I'm gliding!!

The highlight for me though was dancing with Vic, wowza! He is such an amazing lead and so freaking fun to dance with. It was full of energy and perfectly paced. He really feels the music and doesn't miss a step! He's got a band he performs with at the venue sometimes so I'm waiting to hear from him about his next performance. I'm excited to show my support and enjoy some live music!

My lover and I haven't talked since a brief message after our phone call last week... it's refreshing. I feel that he is confident and relaxed about this budding new thing we've started and it eases my mind. He and O are headed to Cancun for a few weeks before they return here and I'm sure they'll have a great time :) O just moved back from there around the new year and he is excited to show off his old stomping grounds. He invited me to go, but I'm poor as shit lol I don't like to say I "can't" do things, because I feel the universe arranges opportunities, but I don't even want to try on this one. I'm wanting to focus on other things at the moment, like finishing this deep clean of my house I started, for one!

Friendships are coming into my life so quickly and at one time it would have felt like too much pressure for me, but now that I've eased into myself I can be there for everyone in my own way and time. It takes a minute for new friends to adjust to my turtle's pace, but once they get that I am slow but steady most choose to stick around. After keeping people at arms length for years this newness feels so busy and full of life and activity.

I feel good though, I feel steady and balanced. I'm not afraid of hurting others anymore and I'm not afraid of being hurt, embarrassed, etc... I CAN be hurt and I CAN hurt others, I'm just not scared of the pain or the conflict. I deal with each as they arrive, and having spent a significant amount of time in what I'd consider a "hell" perspective I'm certainly aware I can climb out of any pit now. What a fucking divine treasure.

Life is beautiful, and a lot of that is in risk and reward, pain and pleasure, joy and despair. The kaleidoscope of emotions are life giving and awe inspiring.

On that note, Hogwarts is calling as is my coffee :)

Until next time...
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Fiel
I've got to come up with a name for him on here, but nothing feels right! Maybe I should just call him ESTJ for now since I'm blogging on this platform...

I think he is an ESTJ but the silliest thing is that I typed him as INTP over a decade ago. Nothing about this man is introverted for one thing, and he's about the most sensory focused person I've ever met. I don't know if he is trying to fit himself into "TJ" because he feels he must as a man, or if he truly is. He seems to have certain incomplete ideas about masculinity still I think... I'm not positive on that, but that's my impression.

He called again today :) He and O will be taking off for Cancun shortly and I was invited again to go. Mmm, not this time. I'm ecstatic that I developed my core values and boundaries over the last several years or there is absolutely no way I could hold my own in this relationship. I currently feel that I would just be completely consumed by it and lose all of my independence of thought and will around him. He is a bit intense. Not to be mysterious about it or anything, he is very persuasive. He's also very focused and determined.

I have a feeling that we would have some insane arguments if we spent enough time together. I'm not sure if he could handle my stubbornness when I am fired up about something that matters to my core. He wanted to see what I'm like when I'm not "happy" 😂 apparently he sees me as this Pollyanna type that represses difficult emotions, but he just hasn't seen me handle the difficult emotions yet aside from fear. I think he's in for it already... He, wants a few things from me that I'm not sure I feel like giving and if he tries to push it rather than let me decide for myself then he'll get his wish of seeing my "dark side" 😈

I think he is not so much "confident and relaxed" as I thought. He seems to be puzzled by me and I don't know why, really. I'll share anything about myself, I have absolutely nothing to hide. I think perhaps he struggles with trust, trust in others and perhaps himself. I think he is on unstable ground and he's used to being comfortable. Since he can't place me in a box or control me, he seems unsettled to a small degree. He makes flippant jokes about me moving on to the "next" person, he told me he struggles to "figure me out", and he in general seems to think this is too good to be true... That something's got to give, that I must be hiding something. Well I don't know what to say except how I feel and what I think, I mean... You believe me or you don't, but only actions tell the truth of the story and while waiting to see them it can get uncomfortable!

Hmmm... So yes, we will see. This is me being in my uncomfortable feelings. It can feel fun :) it's sort of like, somehow anticipating something that is still unexpected. I don't know what's next for us in this little journey together, but I'll see him in a few weeks and it will be an adventure.
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I'm apparently all about action lately. Oh no, I exercised my protective 8 wing didn't I? Maybe that's a good thing? Yes, yeah it's a good thing.

I didn't want to leave him so uncomfortable if I could do anything about it. There's the discomfort I feel facing into the unknown, which is exhilarating to me, then there's the discomfort of not being able to see something clearly. That always feels like a bee in my bonnet. (lol how did that expression even come to me? There's gotta be a modern way to say it. Omg.)

But yeah, I could help him out so I did. I just typed up a quick little something so he could better understand my motivations, fears, and desires. There, now he can make informed choices regarding us and he doesn't have to wonder who I am and what I'm about. I don't need a mystery to stoke passion... If the passion is the "real deal" in the way that matters to me then it will simply go on existing. If it dies then I can be at peace with it, and so very thankful it has burned so brightly, even if it was just for a moment :)
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Ugh, what a tough conversation.

I have been wanting to gain some perspective in order to practice empathy over a situation and wow, did I get it. Karma GOT me. She's such a sour patch. Give me some of that "sweet", karma! I've had all the sour I care to take!

I guess the great thing here is that I'm already able to joke about it... even though I know I've got some tears yet to shed.

I got uno reversed. I had to feel the pain of not being enough for someone, and so very suddenly. I don't give myself fully to anyone so no one can give themselves fully to me, and if they do it will always be a power imbalance and I'll continue hurting people. It doesn't make the situation easier to feel my way through to know it, but it's something I needed to know.

I've told ESTJ that I won't make any decisions without talking it out with him, but damn if I'm not leaning hard into finding a hole to lick my wounds and re-focus. Yes, what we've had will be treasured in my heart for eternity, it was life changing... but I think it was meant to be a striking of a match. Not making decisions, not making decisions... I need to re-evaluate at least and be prepared to adapt without closing off my heart.

This is so similar to when we dated in '10 it's uncanny. Same feelings, same pain. This time I'll do something new or at least with a new perspective.

If I keep writing, I'll just make a decision on my own and that's not fair. All that's left for tonight is to feel my feelings and think about how we are both going through this together. Then I can just discuss my feelings with him, listen to his feelings, and we can decide. My heart just wants to run for the hills! Heart, please bear with me, you can handle the pain and I'll hold you and cry with you. You're not alone in this! Eat your humble pie and regroup when you're ready. Then we'll take action, whatever it's to be.
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I worked through my feelings and I understand them! Yay!

I still haven't made any decisions, but I know the feeling I needed to have in order to let go with him fully is gone right now. I've got deep love for him, but no attraction or attachment. So brief, so big and beautiful!! Maybe something that burns so brightly is only meant to be admired in the moment. No more chasing that high for me, I have lived it and now I know that I was never missing anything. It added to my life, but there was no missing place for it to fit into.

I'm happy about it, oddly enough, and I hope he is too.

I asked him to call me when I got up this morning. Still no word. I feel he is putting this off. He guessed I was saying goodbye and even though I haven't, I've got to be honest with myself and say I don't see a chance to continue this the way it was. I hope he finds what he's looking for, and maybe gets a refund on his upcoming flight back to me if what he's looking for cannot be found here.

I feel lighter and yet concerned for his emotional well-being. We never made promises, but I wanted to give him everything he wanted and I cannot.
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I let him know that I'm ready to talk if he wants to talk, just go with the flow and see how things go, or accept that what we had was beautiful and move on as friends.

I don't doubt that he has genuine feelings for me, but I do wonder about their depth. He felt hurt when I would have to leave in the early morning to go back to my house and partner who I'm in an open marriage with, and which he knew about from the start. I understand the feelings, but he knows I haven't so much as dated in the past 6 years (not from lack of opportunity or invitation) and that I haven't felt or acted on any sexual attraction with anyone, including with my partner, in 3 years!

I think he may have wanted to hurt me back, even if it wasn't consciously... So he asked how I'd feel if he dated while in town and had sex with someone else he met while he was here last month... while continuing to connect with me. Not only that, but what if it was someone from our dance community and what if I happened to be there on a night he was focused on someone else. Could he introduce us, how would I react, etc...

I was caught so off guard and told him I just couldn't answer that right then, that I felt very emotional that he would even consider that when he's only in town for a few weeks and he and I have had 13 years of waiting for this. He asked me if it would help if he told me why it's different and more special with me... L.O.L.

No, Drangus, no. That doesn't "help" me feel, experience, and work through my complex emotions around this. Why on earth would I want anyone to rank their sexual partners in order of specialness??

I want to believe that he has only kind and loving intentions, but I can't help but pick up on the pattern of our past and begin to wonder. My intuition is telling me that he is attempting a kind of domination, especially due to some clues from our interactions... some things he has said and done. I don't mind "play domination" in the bedroom but this feels like a soul, heart, mind domination attempt with some gaslighting thrown in for good measure.

Why would I want someone to tell me I'm so special when their very actions say otherwise? If someone cannot focus solely on me for a few short weeks of our lives then what, really, is the point? Physical gratification? That is not a good enough reason for me to engage in that with anyone.

I want to just tell him to go ahead, date away, and I will not be an obstacle. He told me I was why he was coming back in town... That may be true, but it's his motivation that concerns me. Also I will not feel guilty about any of this, not a bit, this was all of his own making.

So I don't know. I did basically tell him to do what he wanted and that I had no idea where we stand. There is not a single ounce of me that feels willing to open up fully with him again, and I doubt it will return, especially when he arrives in just a few weeks. No, no thank you. I will keep my heart open to him and treat him with care and kindness, but I won't be manipulated into doing anything that feels like I'm compromising my feelings.

Oh and he had recently asked if I'd be willing to use plan b so that we wouldn't have anything between us... I actually looked that shit up, then he talks about having sex with me while hooking up with someone else too?!? Omg. I cannot make this shit up. 😅😂😭🧐🤯😐😶🤣🙃

It doesn't change how great it was when we did get the timing right though :)
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Well... we talked.

After I wrote out the last bit I read it, then I read it again and again. I just wanted to see if I could be mistaken about anything and I talked myself down quite a bit.

For one thing, why should he change himself and what he wants to be doing for me? I thought this was more special than it was, but to be fair... he did share his feelings for me. Ugh, sleeping around is so common for so many people and it is most definitely extremely common for him. I am just so glad we acted on our feelings immediately lol... I am really unsure if they'll come back for me.

So I just told him all of that. Asked him if he wanted to be friends... He said he'd prefer if we didn't limit ourselves to the label and asked if that was alright. Yes, it's fine with me to keep an open mind.

I did share with him everything I felt about this possibly being our only opportunity ever for this and that we clearly weren't on the same page if he's wanting to focus on anyone but me (romantically) when we are at the same place, same time... especially amongst all of our friends and community! Like... Really.

I didn't make anything an ultimatum or conditional though... That feels dishonest to me. I don't want someone to do something in order to get anything with me... Rather I'd like to notice someone doing what they truly want to do and determine how I feel then. So that's what I'll do.

He says he wants to call me while he's in Cancun... He "loves" to hear my voice. Hmmm... Maybe I've got some past religious bs messing with my ability to connect with more people with more ease. Sex shouldn't be this... this... waves hands around head

I don't know. Right?

Oh whatever.

I'm going to listen to some Qveen Herby and sip this wine while I watch my partner conquer the wild west in his vidya game.
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My 6 year old just called me "Buttface McGillicuddy".

I find myself feeling a sense of pride. Nice one 😂
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Dancing tonight!! Woop Woop!

Hoping Vic shows up, but I'm not sure there's even been one time in the past several months he hasn't been there. He sent me that song, written by his grandpa, sung in a few different styles 😍 It brought me back. Someday, I feel I will live in Mexico again.

Today I've got some house cleaning on my shhhhhejool. I started deep cleaning last week and I've knocked out the kitchen, living room, and one of the bathrooms. Today I'm finishing the other bathroom that I started on yesterday. Oh man. It's beyond time for this.

I guess after 10 years of marriage I just thought ... I really thought I'd have more help with life stuff. I actually feel I just have more work. I don't know... I just, sigh

Can't get stuck in that though. I don't want to ignore reality, but that includes my actions in it too. I am actively choosing this life every day, so what I take in or on is fully my responsibility. I guess I'm mainly done with "waiting". I have decided to be a rock in this family, giving love, care, support, and a LOT of mediation. I want all of them to feel safe and secure as much as I can provide that anyway. I love to build them up so that they see their perfection as they are and so that they will feel encouraged in actively pursuing their unique interests. Seeing them thrive brings me so much joy it's absolutely UNREAL.

The flip side of that is that I feel overwhelmed with responsibility regularly, so... I'm taking action. I'm doing everything I want to do in order to live my full life.

First priority, make sure family feels the love.

Second, make my house my "own". Partner doesn't like my style so we've "compromised" lol
...

No. Just, nah. It's not for me, dog. If I'm the one doing 95% of house upkeep, and I'm the one who spends the most time here, it's going to start reflecting my taste. 10 years is long enough living in a man cave.

Ooh, I need to bring it back down a notch lol

My partner is flawed sure, and so am I!!! It doesn't mean we're not perfect as we are or that we won't change. We're just both giving what we want to give, and it really seems as though neither of us is actually... that compatible?

Argh.

Anyway, gonna finish cleaning the house and then I can already see I'll likely need to step up with directing everyone to keep it up until it becomes habitual. They are clearly putting in effort though, since I did the other rooms, and I massively appreciate it.

I honestly don't know why this is all on me, but I suspect it's because I'm the only one who needs to live in a clean space. They act all excited and like they love it when it's clean, but they won't do what it takes to get it there. Jeeeeesuuuuuuus. Ok. Ok ok. I'm not going to lose my mind again, I'm going to work within what I've got going on.

I'm stepping it up with dancing. I'm going more, I'm enhancing my style, I'm meeting amazing people, and I'm giving myself absolute freedom to go where I like and do whatever I enjoy with whomever I'm with.

So... I'm making my choices. If I continue choosing to be where I am, then I'm choosing to deal with the difficulty too and I won't blame anyone for my struggles to adapt. It's not on them to change anything, it's on me if I want it.

Just needed some mental clarity on that. I feel a bit more balanced :)

Now, an old video featuring Tanja, one of my favorite salseras. Her personal style is 😍🤩🔥


Think I'll listen to a little salsa to get me in the mood for tonight, and do a little dancing while cleaning 💃🧹
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Lyrics:
Surrender your mind, because now your body belongs to me!

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Billions of these humans (Humans)
Spinning on a ball of confusion (Confusion)
Some kids I went to school with (School with)
Gave up on their dreams, they said screw it (Screw it)
I said ''Ooh I'ma make some music'' (I'ma make some music)
Even if they tell me it won't do shit (I gotta do it)
Damn, I fucking knew it (I fucking knew it)
I'm blowing up quick, I said boom bitch

I can give a few tips
Gotta get the roots 'for you get the fruit
Then ignore the suits they don't got a clue
You just gotta move bitch and that's the truth
I'm the living proof you can have it too

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Travel 'cross the stars on a beam of light
As I venture forth keep my circle tight
You not on my vibe I'm not polite
You not leveled up I ain't got the time
Meditate on edibles and try to eat your vegetables
Eventually you'll realize reality is bendable
It's only hypothetical, but really is pathetical
If you don't get a tarot deck you never get the pentacles

I can give a few tips
Gotta get the roots 'for you get the fruit
Then ignore the suits they don't got a clue
You just gotta move bitch and that's the truth
I'm the living proof you can have it too
(Ooh Ooh) Uh oh! I like that let's go!

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Initiating take off in three, two...


Lyrics:
I′m amazing, bitch, and you know it
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it (Ahh, yeah)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"

Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin' ′bout me last night (Hey)

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I′m all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin' ′bout me last night

People ask me why I gotta slay? (Gotta slay)
Santa Claus to these bitches, give away (Give away)
Gas it up for these bitches, Bobby Flay (Bobby Flay)
I got bops lined up like a buffet (Line 'em up)
Self aware, goddamn, I'm amazing (Woo)
Wrote a hit again and it don′t even phase me
Improvised it, like I′m Wayne Brady
"Whose line?" bitch it's mine
You can pay me

Popping through fresh off the flight right now
Sleepy ass brotha tearing EPSL
I′ma keep on smoking while I'm giving you these vocals
Best believe I never left, but the key stay right

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (Hey) (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it) (Hey)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right (Right, right)
That explains why you dreamin′ ′bout me last night (Night)

I'm amazing, bitch, and you know it (And you know it)
I don′t have to say shit, 'cause I show it (′Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right (Right)
That explains why you dreamin′ 'bout me last night (Sheesh)

Singing on key, what you know about?
Oh, you ain't know I was from these parts
(Melodyne is your best friend, baby
How you flat and sharp all up in your gravy?)
Cool as a fan, finer than your man
I′m the freedom that you wish he had
(Only really fuck with sports, unless in slow-mo
Dirty nails, dirty dick: no bueno)

Popping through fresh off the flight right now (Ooh)
Silly, little bitch make you laugh out loud
I′ma keep on smoking while I'm giving you these vocals
Best believe I never left, but the key stay right

I′m aware, so aware
I'm aware

I′ma-I'ma-I′ma-I'm amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it (′Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin′ 'bout me last night

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin′ ′bout me last night

I'm aware, so aware (I′m amazing, bitch)
(Bitch) I'm aware


Lyrics:
Warning
We are no longer accepting negative energies in our space
(Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh)
It's very simple
Let me break it down for you

[Chorus]
Danger coming at me, bitch, I see it all the time
Better fix your vibe if you wanna be in my life
No one can fuck with me when my chakras are aligned
I protect my energy 'cause, bitch, I gotta shine
[Verse 1]
Something feels off each time you come around
Like, oh my, something died and it just can't be found
Tell me, what good would I be to anyone with no boundaries?
Trust me, when I need to lock it down, I need it

[Pre-Chorus]
Friends that you keep (Do they)
Respect you deep (Do they)
Suck like a leech
Not the right behavior (Just say)
I'm sorry, love (Okay)
You're breaking up (Too late)
I've heard enough
Have to catch you later

[Chorus]
Danger coming at me, bitch, I see it all the time
Better fix your vibe if you wanna be in my life
No one can fuck with me when my chakras are aligned (Yeah)
I protect my energy 'cause, bitch, I gotta shine

[Refrain]
Get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five
Get it right
[Verse 2]
It was hard, but I had to let you go
Said I'm no friend, you've never been so right before (Woo)
Hope you don't move along to someone else (Don't do that)
Without taking time to love up on your mental health, ah-ha

[Pre-Chorus]
Friends that you keep (Do they)
Respect you deep (Do they)
Suck like a leech
Not the right behavior (Just say)
I'm sorry, love (Okay)
You're breaking up (Too late)
I've heard enough
Have to catch you later

[Refrain]
Get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five (With you, fight with you)
Take a five and get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five
Get it right
[Outro]
Would you change your whole vibe?
I don't wanna fight


***The rhyming skills in this one are INSANE

Lyrics:
They want the juice

[Chorus]
They love my juice (Woo)
I'm a whole mood
No can, no concentrate, I’m fresh (Fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (What? Fresher than you, oh)

[Verse 1]
Orange Jag, got a heavy tag
You need a bop, I need a bag
I been on fire and I lit the match
Soon as they love you, the sooner they drag
That's on my mama, they cut you off like it's a penalty
I just keep listenin’, learnin' to better me
Fruits of my labor still movin' respectfully
That's how I'm keepin' my juices on
Even when I hit a wall, I'm always gonna find a way to
Pivot and see through it all, I keep it optimistic
Ain't nobody gotta trip at all, they know I got insurance
If you tell me what I’m missin’, I'ma listеn, my endurance
Start a farm in California, got no limits, got no middle man
Thеm asses I was kissin’ got no business, now I make the plan
They got no pot to piss in when my oranges nutritious
I don't need you other bitches, I got sun and I got vitamins (Ahem)
[Chorus]
They love my juice (Woah, woah; juice, juice, juice)
I'm a whole mood (Oh; mood, mood, mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh (Fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (I’m fresher than you, yeah, oh; fresher than you)
They love my juice (Juice, juice, juice)
I'm a whole mood (Yeah; mood, mood, mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh (Yeah, yeah; fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (Fresher than you)

[Verse 2]
Ooh
"One hit wonder," but I been on your radar
Three, four times now
Got no label, read my natal chart
That Leo bite down
Ooh, I had to pause
Drop the "babe," I'm just the boss (Uh)
Fruit the sweetest at the top
And when opportunity knocks (Go)
I'ma make a bigger, better banger on a budget
I don't need to overdo it when I do it how I want it (Ooh-wee)
Doesn't matter how I'm aimin', I be shootin' when I gun it
Doesn't matter if I'm losin', I'll be learnin' somethin' from it (Yeah, yeah)
Never basic and they hate it, wanna overcomplicate it (What?)
With the music that I make, I build a life that's elevated (What?)
Must be crazy, no I'm zen again, at least not overrated
Once you see the situation, then you get it, no debatin' (Ayy)
And it's funny when it happens
I be walkin' down the street and all a sudden see the damage
'Cause they know my face and talent (Wow), been around since twenty-eleven
While some other artists out here fuck around and cause a famine
Better drop it like it's hot 'cause I been squeezin' out the gallons
So much flowin', I forgot this shit was supposed to be a challenge
Honey, put a little back into it, make 'em feel the balance (Ooh)
Otherwise, they goin' thirsty, gonna flounder in your absence
[Bridge]
Natural sweet, it's gotta be Qveen
Inside and out, goodness me
Grove to the glass, keep sippin' dreams
They only hate 'cause my produce is mean

[Breakdown]
They want the juice
They want the juice (Ayy, ayy)
They want the juice (Woah)

[Verse 3]
I'm a bad bitch on the loose (Loose)
Hoppin' these hoes, kangaroos (Kangaroos)
Hundred mill' streams, on the move (Ooh)
So I had to drop my debut (Drop it)
Once you vibe with it, can't lose (Can't lose)
Recognize that it's in you (It's in you)
Master your shit, Kung Fu (Ayy, ayy)
All my bad bitches got juice (Oh)

[Chorus]
They love my juice (They love my juice)
I'm a whole a mood (I'm a whole mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh
Fresher than you (Fresher than, fresher than you)
They love my juice (Ooh, they love my juice)
I'm a whole mood (Ooh, I'm a whole mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh, yeah, yeah (I'm fresh, I'm fresh, I'm fresh, I'm fresh, yeah, yeah)
Fresher than you (Fresher)
Fresher, fresher than you


Lyrics:
Usually I would just stay in my house (But I'm)
In the mood to spread some magic around (Like the)
Palo Santo on my vintage mantle
Light a candle
Put my ass up on my pretty man
He grab a handful

Aw damn, now I'm braless
Push inside my coffin
Nails, that's the nail in the coffin
Goddess energy is flawless
Enemies get off me, I'm vibing
Can't you see me smiling?

Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (Love)
Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (Love)

My angels know that I'm a magical bitch ('Cause they)
Talk to me, all telepathic and shit (When I'm)
Struggling and seeing harder times
They send me signs
Bitch, you know that shit be working out, every time

Aw damn, bust it open
Feeling my emotions
Tears like a drop in the ocean (Drop in the ocean)
Chosen, my soul can't be broken
Enemies get off me, I'm vibing
Can't you see me smiling?

Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go (Scene)
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (I can't contain my love, love)
Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene with my)
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love)

Chucky Cheese

Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go
(On the scene) On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene)
(Smoking weed) Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love)
Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go (I'm at peace, baby)
(On the scene) On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene)
(I'm smoking weed) Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love, can't contain my love)

Gotta stop thinking I was stressed but I do, baby (Contain my love)
Got no ceiling, healing, I'm living good now (Baby, I'm)
You keep clearing trauma out, making room, wow
Watch it turn around, fill your goals, oh

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AURORA - Cure For Me (Official Video)

Aurora's brand-new album The Gods We Can Touch is out now! Order here: https://Aurora.lnk.to/TGWCTID 🩸⚔️🩸Listen to Cure For Me: https://aurora.lnk.to/curef...
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Lyrics:
I run from the liars
The fuel on the fire
I know I created myself
I know I can't fight
The sad days and bad nights
But I never asked for your help

You got hurt
No, we don't belong together
So you took the love from my arms
Into the arms of yours

But I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me

I don't like the tension
The misapprehensions
About our nature in love
The glorious teachers
Are no use for creatures
Who knows how to play with the gods?

You got nerves but they never show
Unless they hurt, so you blamed it all
On my love, the moving
Heart I got

But I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
I don't need it

Please, no cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Cure for me

(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
I don't need a cure for me
(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me

(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me
(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me
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I'm angry. I know it's a symptom of sadness but here it sits, screaming within me and raging into the void. I'm tired again, so tired of all of this doing, so tired of all of the effort... I tell myself that I'm doing what I do because I want to, but if that was the case then I wouldn't be angry.

Sometimes I want to be supported. Sometimes I want to feel like people don't just want me but that they believe in my vision and want to walk with me. I love being beautiful... I hate feeling used. Who wants to walk beside me? Maybe just me. Maybe I'll just walk with me and that will be enough. I'm so tired. I'm so sad. I'm so angry. At least I'm not alone... I've got me.

It's time for a fucking fight.
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I'm angry. I know it's a symptom of sadness but here it sits, screaming within me and raging into the void. I'm tired again, so tired of all of this doing, so tired of all of the effort... I tell myself that I'm doing what I do because I want to, but if that was the case then I wouldn't be angry.

Sometimes I want to be supported. Sometimes I want to feel like people don't just want me but that they believe in my vision and want to walk with me. I love being beautiful... I hate feeling used. Who wants to walk beside me? Maybe just me. Maybe I'll just walk with me and that will be enough. I'm so tired. I'm so sad. I'm so angry. At least I'm not alone... I've got me.

It's time for a fucking fight.
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I feel this. hugs Hard place to sit. It will get better. At least, I hope. If not, I am F**
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Lyrics:
Surrender your mind, because now your body belongs to me!

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Billions of these humans (Humans)
Spinning on a ball of confusion (Confusion)
Some kids I went to school with (School with)
Gave up on their dreams, they said screw it (Screw it)
I said ''Ooh I'ma make some music'' (I'ma make some music)
Even if they tell me it won't do shit (I gotta do it)
Damn, I fucking knew it (I fucking knew it)
I'm blowing up quick, I said boom bitch

I can give a few tips
Gotta get the roots 'for you get the fruit
Then ignore the suits they don't got a clue
You just gotta move bitch and that's the truth
I'm the living proof you can have it too

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Travel 'cross the stars on a beam of light
As I venture forth keep my circle tight
You not on my vibe I'm not polite
You not leveled up I ain't got the time
Meditate on edibles and try to eat your vegetables
Eventually you'll realize reality is bendable
It's only hypothetical, but really is pathetical
If you don't get a tarot deck you never get the pentacles

I can give a few tips
Gotta get the roots 'for you get the fruit
Then ignore the suits they don't got a clue
You just gotta move bitch and that's the truth
I'm the living proof you can have it too
(Ooh Ooh) Uh oh! I like that let's go!

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Initiating take off in three, two...


Lyrics:
I′m amazing, bitch, and you know it
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it (Ahh, yeah)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"

Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin' ′bout me last night (Hey)

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I′m all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin' ′bout me last night

People ask me why I gotta slay? (Gotta slay)
Santa Claus to these bitches, give away (Give away)
Gas it up for these bitches, Bobby Flay (Bobby Flay)
I got bops lined up like a buffet (Line 'em up)
Self aware, goddamn, I'm amazing (Woo)
Wrote a hit again and it don′t even phase me
Improvised it, like I′m Wayne Brady
"Whose line?" bitch it's mine
You can pay me

Popping through fresh off the flight right now
Sleepy ass brotha tearing EPSL
I′ma keep on smoking while I'm giving you these vocals
Best believe I never left, but the key stay right

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (Hey) (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it) (Hey)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right (Right, right)
That explains why you dreamin′ ′bout me last night (Night)

I'm amazing, bitch, and you know it (And you know it)
I don′t have to say shit, 'cause I show it (′Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right (Right)
That explains why you dreamin′ 'bout me last night (Sheesh)

Singing on key, what you know about?
Oh, you ain't know I was from these parts
(Melodyne is your best friend, baby
How you flat and sharp all up in your gravy?)
Cool as a fan, finer than your man
I′m the freedom that you wish he had
(Only really fuck with sports, unless in slow-mo
Dirty nails, dirty dick: no bueno)

Popping through fresh off the flight right now (Ooh)
Silly, little bitch make you laugh out loud
I′ma keep on smoking while I'm giving you these vocals
Best believe I never left, but the key stay right

I′m aware, so aware
I'm aware

I′ma-I'ma-I′ma-I'm amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it (′Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin′ 'bout me last night

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin′ ′bout me last night

I'm aware, so aware (I′m amazing, bitch)
(Bitch) I'm aware



Lyrics:
Warning
We are no longer accepting negative energies in our space
(Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh)
It's very simple
Let me break it down for you

[Chorus]
Danger coming at me, bitch, I see it all the time
Better fix your vibe if you wanna be in my life
No one can fuck with me when my chakras are aligned
I protect my energy 'cause, bitch, I gotta shine
[Verse 1]
Something feels off each time you come around
Like, oh my, something died and it just can't be found
Tell me, what good would I be to anyone with no boundaries?
Trust me, when I need to lock it down, I need it

[Pre-Chorus]
Friends that you keep (Do they)
Respect you deep (Do they)
Suck like a leech
Not the right behavior (Just say)
I'm sorry, love (Okay)
You're breaking up (Too late)
I've heard enough
Have to catch you later

[Chorus]
Danger coming at me, bitch, I see it all the time
Better fix your vibe if you wanna be in my life
No one can fuck with me when my chakras are aligned (Yeah)
I protect my energy 'cause, bitch, I gotta shine

[Refrain]
Get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five
Get it right
[Verse 2]
It was hard, but I had to let you go
Said I'm no friend, you've never been so right before (Woo)
Hope you don't move along to someone else (Don't do that)
Without taking time to love up on your mental health, ah-ha

[Pre-Chorus]
Friends that you keep (Do they)
Respect you deep (Do they)
Suck like a leech
Not the right behavior (Just say)
I'm sorry, love (Okay)
You're breaking up (Too late)
I've heard enough
Have to catch you later

[Refrain]
Get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five (With you, fight with you)
Take a five and get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five
Get it right
[Outro]
Would you change your whole vibe?
I don't wanna fight


***The rhyming skills in this one are INSANE

Lyrics:
They want the juice

[Chorus]
They love my juice (Woo)
I'm a whole mood
No can, no concentrate, I’m fresh (Fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (What? Fresher than you, oh)

[Verse 1]
Orange Jag, got a heavy tag
You need a bop, I need a bag
I been on fire and I lit the match
Soon as they love you, the sooner they drag
That's on my mama, they cut you off like it's a penalty
I just keep listenin’, learnin' to better me
Fruits of my labor still movin' respectfully
That's how I'm keepin' my juices on
Even when I hit a wall, I'm always gonna find a way to
Pivot and see through it all, I keep it optimistic
Ain't nobody gotta trip at all, they know I got insurance
If you tell me what I’m missin’, I'ma listеn, my endurance
Start a farm in California, got no limits, got no middle man
Thеm asses I was kissin’ got no business, now I make the plan
They got no pot to piss in when my oranges nutritious
I don't need you other bitches, I got sun and I got vitamins (Ahem)
[Chorus]
They love my juice (Woah, woah; juice, juice, juice)
I'm a whole mood (Oh; mood, mood, mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh (Fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (I’m fresher than you, yeah, oh; fresher than you)
They love my juice (Juice, juice, juice)
I'm a whole mood (Yeah; mood, mood, mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh (Yeah, yeah; fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (Fresher than you)

[Verse 2]
Ooh
"One hit wonder," but I been on your radar
Three, four times now
Got no label, read my natal chart
That Leo bite down
Ooh, I had to pause
Drop the "babe," I'm just the boss (Uh)
Fruit the sweetest at the top
And when opportunity knocks (Go)
I'ma make a bigger, better banger on a budget
I don't need to overdo it when I do it how I want it (Ooh-wee)
Doesn't matter how I'm aimin', I be shootin' when I gun it
Doesn't matter if I'm losin', I'll be learnin' somethin' from it (Yeah, yeah)
Never basic and they hate it, wanna overcomplicate it (What?)
With the music that I make, I build a life that's elevated (What?)
Must be crazy, no I'm zen again, at least not overrated
Once you see the situation, then you get it, no debatin' (Ayy)
And it's funny when it happens
I be walkin' down the street and all a sudden see the damage
'Cause they know my face and talent (Wow), been around since twenty-eleven
While some other artists out here fuck around and cause a famine
Better drop it like it's hot 'cause I been squeezin' out the gallons
So much flowin', I forgot this shit was supposed to be a challenge
Honey, put a little back into it, make 'em feel the balance (Ooh)
Otherwise, they goin' thirsty, gonna flounder in your absence
[Bridge]
Natural sweet, it's gotta be Qveen
Inside and out, goodness me
Grove to the glass, keep sippin' dreams
They only hate 'cause my produce is mean

[Breakdown]
They want the juice
They want the juice (Ayy, ayy)
They want the juice (Woah)

[Verse 3]
I'm a bad bitch on the loose (Loose)
Hoppin' these hoes, kangaroos (Kangaroos)
Hundred mill' streams, on the move (Ooh)
So I had to drop my debut (Drop it)
Once you vibe with it, can't lose (Can't lose)
Recognize that it's in you (It's in you)
Master your shit, Kung Fu (Ayy, ayy)
All my bad bitches got juice (Oh)

[Chorus]
They love my juice (They love my juice)
I'm a whole a mood (I'm a whole mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh
Fresher than you (Fresher than, fresher than you)
They love my juice (Ooh, they love my juice)
I'm a whole mood (Ooh, I'm a whole mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh, yeah, yeah (I'm fresh, I'm fresh, I'm fresh, I'm fresh, yeah, yeah)
Fresher than you (Fresher)
Fresher, fresher than you


Lyrics:
Usually I would just stay in my house (But I'm)
In the mood to spread some magic around (Like the)
Palo Santo on my vintage mantle
Light a candle
Put my ass up on my pretty man
He grab a handful

Aw damn, now I'm braless
Push inside my coffin
Nails, that's the nail in the coffin
Goddess energy is flawless
Enemies get off me, I'm vibing
Can't you see me smiling?

Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (Love)
Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (Love)

My angels know that I'm a magical bitch ('Cause they)
Talk to me, all telepathic and shit (When I'm)
Struggling and seeing harder times
They send me signs
Bitch, you know that shit be working out, every time

Aw damn, bust it open
Feeling my emotions
Tears like a drop in the ocean (Drop in the ocean)
Chosen, my soul can't be broken
Enemies get off me, I'm vibing
Can't you see me smiling?

Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go (Scene)
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (I can't contain my love, love)
Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene with my)
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love)

Chucky Cheese

Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go
(On the scene) On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene)
(Smoking weed) Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love)
Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go (I'm at peace, baby)
(On the scene) On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene)
(I'm smoking weed) Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love, can't contain my love)

Gotta stop thinking I was stressed but I do, baby (Contain my love)
Got no ceiling, healing, I'm living good now (Baby, I'm)
You keep clearing trauma out, making room, wow
Watch it turn around, fill your goals, oh

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AURORA - Cure For Me (Official Video)

Aurora's brand-new album The Gods We Can Touch is out now! Order here: https://Aurora.lnk.to/TGWCTID 🩸⚔️🩸Listen to Cure For Me: https://aurora.lnk.to/curef...
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Lyrics:
I run from the liars
The fuel on the fire
I know I created myself
I know I can't fight
The sad days and bad nights
But I never asked for your help

You got hurt
No, we don't belong together
So you took the love from my arms
Into the arms of yours

But I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me

I don't like the tension
The misapprehensions
About our nature in love
The glorious teachers
Are no use for creatures
Who knows how to play with the gods?

You got nerves but they never show
Unless they hurt, so you blamed it all
On my love, the moving
Heart I got

But I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
I don't need it

Please, no cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Cure for me

(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
I don't need a cure for me
(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me

(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me
(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me
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Great taste in music. Never heard that one by Aurora. Qveen Herby is great too.
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I feel this. hugs Hard place to sit. It will get better. At least, I hope. If not, I am F**
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Thank you. 💜

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Great taste in music. Never heard that one by Aurora. Qveen Herby is great too.
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AURORA - Running With The Wolves

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I'm so glad you enjoyed them!!! I love them both so much. I fell in love with Aurora when I saw her with Sub Urban in the video PARAMOUR:


I went searching for her and found a live performance which inspired me so much:


Aurora led me to Heilung...


and my favorite Sub Urban just for fun :)


What are you listening to these days?
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Lyrics:
Surrender your mind, because now your body belongs to me!

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Billions of these humans (Humans)
Spinning on a ball of confusion (Confusion)
Some kids I went to school with (School with)
Gave up on their dreams, they said screw it (Screw it)
I said ''Ooh I'ma make some music'' (I'ma make some music)
Even if they tell me it won't do shit (I gotta do it)
Damn, I fucking knew it (I fucking knew it)
I'm blowing up quick, I said boom bitch

I can give a few tips
Gotta get the roots 'for you get the fruit
Then ignore the suits they don't got a clue
You just gotta move bitch and that's the truth
I'm the living proof you can have it too

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Travel 'cross the stars on a beam of light
As I venture forth keep my circle tight
You not on my vibe I'm not polite
You not leveled up I ain't got the time
Meditate on edibles and try to eat your vegetables
Eventually you'll realize reality is bendable
It's only hypothetical, but really is pathetical
If you don't get a tarot deck you never get the pentacles

I can give a few tips
Gotta get the roots 'for you get the fruit
Then ignore the suits they don't got a clue
You just gotta move bitch and that's the truth
I'm the living proof you can have it too
(Ooh Ooh) Uh oh! I like that let's go!

Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million (That's what what what)
Listen I'm on a mission, I never been the one to fit in
I do it different, I find a spaceship and I get in
I got ignition, I got that 20/20 vision
One in a million that's why I'm winning

Initiating take off in three, two...


Lyrics:
I′m amazing, bitch, and you know it
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it (Ahh, yeah)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"

Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin' ′bout me last night (Hey)

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I′m all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin' ′bout me last night

People ask me why I gotta slay? (Gotta slay)
Santa Claus to these bitches, give away (Give away)
Gas it up for these bitches, Bobby Flay (Bobby Flay)
I got bops lined up like a buffet (Line 'em up)
Self aware, goddamn, I'm amazing (Woo)
Wrote a hit again and it don′t even phase me
Improvised it, like I′m Wayne Brady
"Whose line?" bitch it's mine
You can pay me

Popping through fresh off the flight right now
Sleepy ass brotha tearing EPSL
I′ma keep on smoking while I'm giving you these vocals
Best believe I never left, but the key stay right

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (Hey) (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it) (Hey)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right (Right, right)
That explains why you dreamin′ ′bout me last night (Night)

I'm amazing, bitch, and you know it (And you know it)
I don′t have to say shit, 'cause I show it (′Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right (Right)
That explains why you dreamin′ 'bout me last night (Sheesh)

Singing on key, what you know about?
Oh, you ain't know I was from these parts
(Melodyne is your best friend, baby
How you flat and sharp all up in your gravy?)
Cool as a fan, finer than your man
I′m the freedom that you wish he had
(Only really fuck with sports, unless in slow-mo
Dirty nails, dirty dick: no bueno)

Popping through fresh off the flight right now (Ooh)
Silly, little bitch make you laugh out loud
I′ma keep on smoking while I'm giving you these vocals
Best believe I never left, but the key stay right

I′m aware, so aware
I'm aware

I′ma-I'ma-I′ma-I'm amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it (′Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin′ 'bout me last night

I′m amazing, bitch (Bitch), and you know it (And you know it)
I don't have to say shit, ′cause I show it ('Cause I show it)
You said, "I think I'm all that,"
Well, you thought right
That explains why you dreamin′ ′bout me last night

I'm aware, so aware (I′m amazing, bitch)
(Bitch) I'm aware


Lyrics:
Warning
We are no longer accepting negative energies in our space
(Ooh, ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh)
It's very simple
Let me break it down for you

[Chorus]
Danger coming at me, bitch, I see it all the time
Better fix your vibe if you wanna be in my life
No one can fuck with me when my chakras are aligned
I protect my energy 'cause, bitch, I gotta shine
[Verse 1]
Something feels off each time you come around
Like, oh my, something died and it just can't be found
Tell me, what good would I be to anyone with no boundaries?
Trust me, when I need to lock it down, I need it

[Pre-Chorus]
Friends that you keep (Do they)
Respect you deep (Do they)
Suck like a leech
Not the right behavior (Just say)
I'm sorry, love (Okay)
You're breaking up (Too late)
I've heard enough
Have to catch you later

[Chorus]
Danger coming at me, bitch, I see it all the time
Better fix your vibe if you wanna be in my life
No one can fuck with me when my chakras are aligned (Yeah)
I protect my energy 'cause, bitch, I gotta shine

[Refrain]
Get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five
Get it right
[Verse 2]
It was hard, but I had to let you go
Said I'm no friend, you've never been so right before (Woo)
Hope you don't move along to someone else (Don't do that)
Without taking time to love up on your mental health, ah-ha

[Pre-Chorus]
Friends that you keep (Do they)
Respect you deep (Do they)
Suck like a leech
Not the right behavior (Just say)
I'm sorry, love (Okay)
You're breaking up (Too late)
I've heard enough
Have to catch you later

[Refrain]
Get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five (With you, fight with you)
Take a five and get it right
Do the right thing, baby, get it right
Fix your whole vibe, I don't wanna fight
Know you mean well, baby, take a five
Get it right
[Outro]
Would you change your whole vibe?
I don't wanna fight


***The rhyming skills in this one are INSANE

Lyrics:
They want the juice

[Chorus]
They love my juice (Woo)
I'm a whole mood
No can, no concentrate, I’m fresh (Fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (What? Fresher than you, oh)

[Verse 1]
Orange Jag, got a heavy tag
You need a bop, I need a bag
I been on fire and I lit the match
Soon as they love you, the sooner they drag
That's on my mama, they cut you off like it's a penalty
I just keep listenin’, learnin' to better me
Fruits of my labor still movin' respectfully
That's how I'm keepin' my juices on
Even when I hit a wall, I'm always gonna find a way to
Pivot and see through it all, I keep it optimistic
Ain't nobody gotta trip at all, they know I got insurance
If you tell me what I’m missin’, I'ma listеn, my endurance
Start a farm in California, got no limits, got no middle man
Thеm asses I was kissin’ got no business, now I make the plan
They got no pot to piss in when my oranges nutritious
I don't need you other bitches, I got sun and I got vitamins (Ahem)
[Chorus]
They love my juice (Woah, woah; juice, juice, juice)
I'm a whole mood (Oh; mood, mood, mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh (Fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (I’m fresher than you, yeah, oh; fresher than you)
They love my juice (Juice, juice, juice)
I'm a whole mood (Yeah; mood, mood, mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh (Yeah, yeah; fresh, fresh)
Fresher than you (Fresher than you)

[Verse 2]
Ooh
"One hit wonder," but I been on your radar
Three, four times now
Got no label, read my natal chart
That Leo bite down
Ooh, I had to pause
Drop the "babe," I'm just the boss (Uh)
Fruit the sweetest at the top
And when opportunity knocks (Go)
I'ma make a bigger, better banger on a budget
I don't need to overdo it when I do it how I want it (Ooh-wee)
Doesn't matter how I'm aimin', I be shootin' when I gun it
Doesn't matter if I'm losin', I'll be learnin' somethin' from it (Yeah, yeah)
Never basic and they hate it, wanna overcomplicate it (What?)
With the music that I make, I build a life that's elevated (What?)
Must be crazy, no I'm zen again, at least not overrated
Once you see the situation, then you get it, no debatin' (Ayy)
And it's funny when it happens
I be walkin' down the street and all a sudden see the damage
'Cause they know my face and talent (Wow), been around since twenty-eleven
While some other artists out here fuck around and cause a famine
Better drop it like it's hot 'cause I been squeezin' out the gallons
So much flowin', I forgot this shit was supposed to be a challenge
Honey, put a little back into it, make 'em feel the balance (Ooh)
Otherwise, they goin' thirsty, gonna flounder in your absence
[Bridge]
Natural sweet, it's gotta be Qveen
Inside and out, goodness me
Grove to the glass, keep sippin' dreams
They only hate 'cause my produce is mean

[Breakdown]
They want the juice
They want the juice (Ayy, ayy)
They want the juice (Woah)

[Verse 3]
I'm a bad bitch on the loose (Loose)
Hoppin' these hoes, kangaroos (Kangaroos)
Hundred mill' streams, on the move (Ooh)
So I had to drop my debut (Drop it)
Once you vibe with it, can't lose (Can't lose)
Recognize that it's in you (It's in you)
Master your shit, Kung Fu (Ayy, ayy)
All my bad bitches got juice (Oh)

[Chorus]
They love my juice (They love my juice)
I'm a whole a mood (I'm a whole mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh
Fresher than you (Fresher than, fresher than you)
They love my juice (Ooh, they love my juice)
I'm a whole mood (Ooh, I'm a whole mood)
No can, no concentrate, I'm fresh, yeah, yeah (I'm fresh, I'm fresh, I'm fresh, I'm fresh, yeah, yeah)
Fresher than you (Fresher)
Fresher, fresher than you


Lyrics:
Usually I would just stay in my house (But I'm)
In the mood to spread some magic around (Like the)
Palo Santo on my vintage mantle
Light a candle
Put my ass up on my pretty man
He grab a handful

Aw damn, now I'm braless
Push inside my coffin
Nails, that's the nail in the coffin
Goddess energy is flawless
Enemies get off me, I'm vibing
Can't you see me smiling?

Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (Love)
Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (Love)

My angels know that I'm a magical bitch ('Cause they)
Talk to me, all telepathic and shit (When I'm)
Struggling and seeing harder times
They send me signs
Bitch, you know that shit be working out, every time

Aw damn, bust it open
Feeling my emotions
Tears like a drop in the ocean (Drop in the ocean)
Chosen, my soul can't be broken
Enemies get off me, I'm vibing
Can't you see me smiling?

Chucky Cheese
I'm at peace everywhere I go (Scene)
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio
I can't contain my love (I can't contain my love, love)
Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go
On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene with my)
Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love)

Chucky Cheese

Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go
(On the scene) On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene)
(Smoking weed) Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love)
Chucky Cheese (Chucky Cheese)
I'm at peace everywhere I go (I'm at peace, baby)
(On the scene) On the scene, aura clean even with my flaws (On the scene)
(I'm smoking weed) Smoking weed with my peeps on the patio (Smoking weed)
I can't contain my love (My love, love, can't contain my love)

Gotta stop thinking I was stressed but I do, baby (Contain my love)
Got no ceiling, healing, I'm living good now (Baby, I'm)
You keep clearing trauma out, making room, wow
Watch it turn around, fill your goals, oh

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AURORA - Cure For Me (Official Video)

Aurora's brand-new album The Gods We Can Touch is out now! Order here: https://Aurora.lnk.to/TGWCTID 🩸⚔️🩸Listen to Cure For Me: https://aurora.lnk.to/curef...
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Lyrics:
I run from the liars
The fuel on the fire
I know I created myself
I know I can't fight
The sad days and bad nights
But I never asked for your help

You got hurt
No, we don't belong together
So you took the love from my arms
Into the arms of yours

But I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me

I don't like the tension
The misapprehensions
About our nature in love
The glorious teachers
Are no use for creatures
Who knows how to play with the gods?

You got nerves but they never show
Unless they hurt, so you blamed it all
On my love, the moving
Heart I got

But I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
No, I don't need a cure for me
I don't need it
I don't need it

Please, no cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Please, no cure for me
Cure for me
Cure for me

(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
I don't need a cure for me
(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me

(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me
(And you need to know I don't need it)
I don't need it
(And you should know)
No, I don't need a cure for me
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I love Qveen Herby! I like her aura cleansing videos too--where she gives you a aura treatement. So cute and lovely!
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I didn't notice at first that this was a different one than what I posted. So beautiful and powerful. Timely. Thank you for sending it :)
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Fiel said:
Thank you. 💜



I'm so glad you enjoyed them!!! I love them both so much. I fell in love with Aurora when I saw her with Sub Urban in the video PARAMOUR:



I went searching for her and found a live performance which inspired me so much:



Aurora led me to Heilung...


and my favorite Sub Urban just for fun :)


What are you listening to these days?
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I am jealous. Both of those would be awesome to see in concert imo I listen to everything. Aurora atm. I have always loved her music. I will not spam your thread with all of her music I :love: I am about to listen to a few of the Sub Urban you posted. The ones that come to mind by them right off hand
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I love Qveen Herby! I like her aura cleansing videos too--where she gives you a aura treatement. So cute and lovely!
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I'm glad to meet more of her fan base! Her music has such an uplifting message and with a beat I can dance to! She's also such a work of art in herself. I adore her 😍
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I didn't notice at first that this was a different one than what I posted. So beautiful and powerful. Timely. Thank you for sending it :)
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Did you post this one yet? Sorry, I have not made it through your thread.
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I am jealous. Both of those would be awesome to see in concert imo I listen to everything. Aurora atm. I have always loved her music. I will not spam your thread with all of her music I :love: I am about to listen to a few of the Sub Urban you posted. The ones that come to mind by them right off hand
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I don't think Sub Urban can do any wrong. His music is so unique to him and enticingly dark. I love the bass, and the melodies he chooses.

Another one of my favorites of his with
Bella Poarch:


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Did you post this one yet? Sorry, I have not made it through your thread.
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That was one of the first I saw after Cirque!! It is hard to say any of them are my favorites because I haven't heard anything from her that I haven't just loved!
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