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I don't think I've ever posted this on here, but when I was really young, I had a lisp. I've fixed the lisp since childhood, but when I am very tired, it comes out... I didn't even realize that this happens until recently. i sent a video message to some relatives while they were on vacation, and that's when i realized that it comes out when im tired. (in the video messages from when im not tired though, the lisp is gone again).
most people I've met, though, have been really understanding and kind about it. Even friends that know me fairly well haven't mentioned this to me, even though i've never even told them about my lisp. They don't treat me any differently than when I speak without a lisp, and they always treat me as ME, which is probably a big reason I didn't realize this had been coming out until recently.
So today.... we had a social networking session in my department. I hate these.... and we were assigned as a group to some people to work together with at this event coming up over the weekend. Today was a long day so I already knew I was lisping (i'm more aware of this now), and this girl was really uncivil about it. She was a newer transfer and before she met the rest of our group, she had asked me for a lot of help getting to know the department, etc. Later in the evening though (basically after i opened my mouth to talk a bit), every time we had to talk, she kept giving me a dirty look, and when I lisped a word (again, i was even more aware of this) she would lean the other direction with a VERY disgusted expression. At first, i thought that was her facial expression, but with the rest of the group, she was completely fine. And if there's one thing i'm good at is observing facial expressions unnoticeably.
At the end of the session, we were advised to get each other's contact info. to talk in advance. She pretty much kept brushing me off and only wanted the others. And this is the same person that was insecurely following me around and asking for help at first. I didn't feel offended, but i felt it was really rude how she acted. Ookay, maybe i was a bit offended. My lisp isn't that noticeable, and it's limited to a few consonants, that sound "shorter" but otherwise, my speech is very articulate (i was in speech and debate in h/s, and won many awards as well). I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm not upset right now, or discouraged, but I do feel something, though I'm not sure how to describe it. My brain is dead right now, but the main feeling in my mind right now is just "Are you serious? Really?" (i dont know how that would translate as a feeling though). I just don't feel this is right
I'm posting this on the ISTJ thread... because I feel like ISTJ advice helps me kind of get my thoughts around things i'm having a hard time with. I hope you guys don't mind that i'm posting so often here lol...
most people I've met, though, have been really understanding and kind about it. Even friends that know me fairly well haven't mentioned this to me, even though i've never even told them about my lisp. They don't treat me any differently than when I speak without a lisp, and they always treat me as ME, which is probably a big reason I didn't realize this had been coming out until recently.
So today.... we had a social networking session in my department. I hate these.... and we were assigned as a group to some people to work together with at this event coming up over the weekend. Today was a long day so I already knew I was lisping (i'm more aware of this now), and this girl was really uncivil about it. She was a newer transfer and before she met the rest of our group, she had asked me for a lot of help getting to know the department, etc. Later in the evening though (basically after i opened my mouth to talk a bit), every time we had to talk, she kept giving me a dirty look, and when I lisped a word (again, i was even more aware of this) she would lean the other direction with a VERY disgusted expression. At first, i thought that was her facial expression, but with the rest of the group, she was completely fine. And if there's one thing i'm good at is observing facial expressions unnoticeably.
At the end of the session, we were advised to get each other's contact info. to talk in advance. She pretty much kept brushing me off and only wanted the others. And this is the same person that was insecurely following me around and asking for help at first. I didn't feel offended, but i felt it was really rude how she acted. Ookay, maybe i was a bit offended. My lisp isn't that noticeable, and it's limited to a few consonants, that sound "shorter" but otherwise, my speech is very articulate (i was in speech and debate in h/s, and won many awards as well). I'm not going to let this get to me. I'm not upset right now, or discouraged, but I do feel something, though I'm not sure how to describe it. My brain is dead right now, but the main feeling in my mind right now is just "Are you serious? Really?" (i dont know how that would translate as a feeling though). I just don't feel this is right
I'm posting this on the ISTJ thread... because I feel like ISTJ advice helps me kind of get my thoughts around things i'm having a hard time with. I hope you guys don't mind that i'm posting so often here lol...