i've been in the same situation for the most part of my life (if not entire) i guess
i am south korean and the only valid mold that this country's dark negative oppressive force is constantly trying to either trap or fit me into is insensitive, military, macho, mediocre, negative, resentful, soul-less, un-specific, complicated, confused, hazed, washed out, thinned out, cultureless, unemotive, thin, unexpressive, math-book bashing, unsexual, sour, meaningless, impotent, shallow, superficial, ugly, tasteless, snobbish, infertile, unfocsued, dirty, aesthetically ignorant, crappish game playing, oppressed, dishonest, haphazardly extrovert, servile spirited, third class citizen, inferior (and so on) model basically.
and i've deliberately ended existing friendships or human relationships or influences here that meant nothing to me or negative to the development of my individuality and took the difficult road to stay truthful to myself, to cut out impure influences.
my military issue still has effects on my passport and i've been feeling like i'm in the prison since i was born. i don't know why. and i've been to the opposite side of the earth trying to get out of this mold and find myself it definately worked but my only gripe is that i once again had to come back because this country had effects on my passports and i limited my beliefs to that i was tied down to military duty. which i don't agree with anymore. to my absolute core, i hate this place. patriotism is not something that can be forced, it has to naturally raise, and i am afraid my heart's truth has not a single fragment of it this country's gravity is still sucking the life and soul out of me and i literally feel sick both mentally and physically when i think about the destructive gap between the emotional model that i truly empathise, resonate with, am trying to manifest, secure and maintain and the so called group consciousness, so called reality of this place- downright mediocre but i still ain't giving up. one day i will live this sordid place. how always this country actually got in the way of my own version of flourishment but i am not going to have my mind, visions or individuality limited by some thin far-eastern group consciousness. before all of those craps, before all of such 'words' i am just an animal with a spirit that's walking on this earth, and nothing can really take away the freshness of my states. if i want to access certain emotion some country cannot take it away from me with its pretentious words. only actual experience matters.
just stay true to yourself and defend your world and be aggressive in creating opportunities to manifest it using either tactics of passive aggression and rock hard resistance. or sometimes it helps to emotionally mask out the whole thing into oblivion and create something new too. cut the crappish details out, and prepare yourself both financially, emotionally, tactically so that it is smooth for you to relocate.. but when you feel too stuck, and if it feels like there's no room for change, sometimes it requires courage just to walk out of any stuck situations, just go to a new place and see how it works out for you. after all, life's short.