Stop it. Also, take this opportunity to go outside, just to see people. Do things. Say "hi" to random and friendly people.
You are analysing tooooo much. I think us INFP are quite sedate individuals. Cos today, I had a lot of random thoughts in my mind, a lot of it pointing towards my career, but then I realised that, these thoughts came about is because I had some kind of jealously feelings toward another young guy, who is only 23, and is already a manager ? Then the moment of realisation came to me too... That, when I was in my ESTJ mode all those years... I had been overworking, and worked myself to death such that, I never really let my feelings, Fi, come forward and just "be". I realised that, I could have obtained all that I wanted, without working so hard as I have done. It is so simple. I could have just kept quiet about a lot of things, and not to work myself to death. Cos I realised that careers are also about working relationships too. That is, you got to be happy with yourself and not focused too much on your own goals and desires such that you forget to pamper yourself once a while...
Targus, even though you do not have a job right now, and maybe this is worrying for you. I hope that you will take the opportunity to actually go out and DO something just so out of the norm for you. Do not worry about anything at all. Stop surfing online for info. Just go to concerts, go and play. Do something silly, random, things or ideas which came to your mind and amuses you so. BE a child again. Just Do It.
Even though I recently had broken up with an INFP.... I realised I was getting anxiety feelings in my stomach. I realised that, when I "fear" something, then this is the point whereby I needed to do something to remove the fear. Sometimes, it is saying how I feel, and I need to then remove the person out of my life. Sometimes, it is letting go of the feeling, and see it from another perspective. Or to think of the good things from the situation. I find that is how I achieve back this balance...
So, this weekend, I am going to see a friend in Cambridge. She is an ESFJ, at first, I did not wanted to go, but then I thought about things, and I can make the best out of the situation really. So now, I am trying to find a nice card, or to make a card for her birthday, which will be a representation of my Fi, and as well as keeping me creative with Ne.
Play music, make something, go and read about different kind of creative careers. Put yourself and imagine yourself in those roles or something.... Do you "feel" those careers are for you etc ?
[Added] By the way, what is "not" normal ? You are you. Everybody IS themselves. Sometimes, I feel that with the overloaded information from the internet, this does send people a little bit over the top in terms of supposed perfection human beings....