My dad died a week ago...
Starting a new chapter in my life, I guess...
He was an ISTJ, and we really had a rough time most of my life.
When I was 12, I saw someone stand up to him for the first time in my life (before that, he was like a god)... it was my brother... My brother is 9 years older than me, and he was home from college for the summer...
I was in the kitchen, washing some dishes... and it occured outside the window in the back yard...
We spent the next 9 years at ends with each other... it wasn't until I moved out that I was able to start rebuilding a relationship with him...
6 years ago, he was told he wouldn't make it until Christmas... the stubborn old boot proved them wrong!
But I am truly thankful for the last 6 years I had... I was able to finally accept him back in my life fully, spend time with him... learn from him... (I do have to thank MBTI a bit for that as well... I learned about MBTI shortly before the whole 6 months thing, and I was able to start understanding why we clashed so much)... Back in June, I moved back to town... I had been living 2 hours away in another city... We got very close in June... He started telling me stories about his past... and I started listening to them...
I miss him so much... I don't think anyone knows just how much... being my INTP self and all around others... but I do... so much... dispite all the shit we went through... he was ALWAYS there for me... driving me across the country for a job opportunity... buying me my first car for the same trip... $100 to make it until payday... grocery trip when having no money for food... all of those little things... I really do hope that I can be even a fraction of the man he was...
Take it from someone who knows... any of the shit in your past with your parents... its not worth it... don't wait for that wake up call to start building your relationship with your loved ones... suck it up... take the lumps... and let them know you love them...
Starting a new chapter in my life, I guess...
He was an ISTJ, and we really had a rough time most of my life.
When I was 12, I saw someone stand up to him for the first time in my life (before that, he was like a god)... it was my brother... My brother is 9 years older than me, and he was home from college for the summer...
I was in the kitchen, washing some dishes... and it occured outside the window in the back yard...
We spent the next 9 years at ends with each other... it wasn't until I moved out that I was able to start rebuilding a relationship with him...
6 years ago, he was told he wouldn't make it until Christmas... the stubborn old boot proved them wrong!
But I am truly thankful for the last 6 years I had... I was able to finally accept him back in my life fully, spend time with him... learn from him... (I do have to thank MBTI a bit for that as well... I learned about MBTI shortly before the whole 6 months thing, and I was able to start understanding why we clashed so much)... Back in June, I moved back to town... I had been living 2 hours away in another city... We got very close in June... He started telling me stories about his past... and I started listening to them...
I miss him so much... I don't think anyone knows just how much... being my INTP self and all around others... but I do... so much... dispite all the shit we went through... he was ALWAYS there for me... driving me across the country for a job opportunity... buying me my first car for the same trip... $100 to make it until payday... grocery trip when having no money for food... all of those little things... I really do hope that I can be even a fraction of the man he was...
Take it from someone who knows... any of the shit in your past with your parents... its not worth it... don't wait for that wake up call to start building your relationship with your loved ones... suck it up... take the lumps... and let them know you love them...