so. I have decided that the state of Colorado blows. Actually I decided this a few years ago. So I moved to Washington state. LOOOVEDD the Northwest. Then I moved to Wisconsin to be with my exxxx Fiance. Needless to say, i hated Wisconsin and my fiance a fairly equal amount, and it was -20 the entire time I was there. So thats a lot of hatred. Then I moved back to Colorado to be with my family. Family is EVERYTHING to me. Without it, you lose who you are, where you come from, the morals that were taught to you to live life by, and the reasons for every word and action you create. Family is a persons roots. I stayed here for a year, dated and lived with another ass, who I ironically think of with such high admiration and humor. That didnt work out, thank God. I restarted my life here in another part of town. Found a new car, new house, new job, new boyfriend.
The boyfriend loves me. i mean this man actually sees my constant neurotic behavior, my intense emotion, my HUGE flaws, my ridiculously high sex drive, my obsessiveness with a high GPA, and my total absolute uncomfortable attitude with myself, and he takes it all and loves everything about me. So much so, that when I tald him I wanted to sell everything except my laptop and clothes and move to Idaho, he supported me fully and begged to stay together long distance until he can make it out there himself. So I am going and Im leaving in ten days...
A few months ago we had talked about moving out to the west coast of washington when i finished school next year. We had created serious future plans with each other, and truth be told, im not even in love with him....
he knows this yet is so incredibly devoted that i just cant help but be constantly impressed. BUUUUUT im kind of more interested with going out there, NOT WITH A BOYFRIEND, and seeing what can happen with Joe. Joe is a big, manly hunk of wilderness haha. Rough, rugged, has a 5 o clock shadow to die for, rides horses, races speed crotch rockets (dont know what its called but i know its sexy!), strips logs to build log homes, and is so close to my family that he lives with them and my dad has offered to give Joe part af his mountain property to build a cabin on. My dad has already told me that he would prefer if I married Joe. I wouldnt mind. And apparently Joe has been in love with me for about 7 years and never said anything because he was waiting for the right time. awesome.
so..... what would you do? after hearing this story, knowing that I have had awful experiences in the past? I now have two men completely devoted to me, madly in love with me, and I get to choose. One has loved me for seven years and waited patiently for me to know what i want (as if that'll ever happen) and is very very close to my family. The other is in the same career path as me, super sexy, and wants to follow me to the end of the earth, even if I push him off the edge out of pure neurotic curiosity.
help??
The boyfriend loves me. i mean this man actually sees my constant neurotic behavior, my intense emotion, my HUGE flaws, my ridiculously high sex drive, my obsessiveness with a high GPA, and my total absolute uncomfortable attitude with myself, and he takes it all and loves everything about me. So much so, that when I tald him I wanted to sell everything except my laptop and clothes and move to Idaho, he supported me fully and begged to stay together long distance until he can make it out there himself. So I am going and Im leaving in ten days...
A few months ago we had talked about moving out to the west coast of washington when i finished school next year. We had created serious future plans with each other, and truth be told, im not even in love with him....
he knows this yet is so incredibly devoted that i just cant help but be constantly impressed. BUUUUUT im kind of more interested with going out there, NOT WITH A BOYFRIEND, and seeing what can happen with Joe. Joe is a big, manly hunk of wilderness haha. Rough, rugged, has a 5 o clock shadow to die for, rides horses, races speed crotch rockets (dont know what its called but i know its sexy!), strips logs to build log homes, and is so close to my family that he lives with them and my dad has offered to give Joe part af his mountain property to build a cabin on. My dad has already told me that he would prefer if I married Joe. I wouldnt mind. And apparently Joe has been in love with me for about 7 years and never said anything because he was waiting for the right time. awesome.
so..... what would you do? after hearing this story, knowing that I have had awful experiences in the past? I now have two men completely devoted to me, madly in love with me, and I get to choose. One has loved me for seven years and waited patiently for me to know what i want (as if that'll ever happen) and is very very close to my family. The other is in the same career path as me, super sexy, and wants to follow me to the end of the earth, even if I push him off the edge out of pure neurotic curiosity.
help??