[Intp -]

I used to not have feelings for anything. I didn't give a sh*t for everything I lived my life without enjoying doing anything I didn't have experience with people I didn't make deep friendships. all of them were benefit me so i didn't have to deal with feelings .
but she was different
.
She was my online friend she loved me, and I loved her (I still do)
She had a hard time with her family, and I'm an idiot when it comes to emotional things, so I couldn't support her so good
One day, she told me that she hates me, and then I asked her, "Why don't you block me?" (Stupid me) she said she doesn't want to and I said yes don't block me then she said but I want to (😭) then she blocked me
(Stupid me again) I was so depressed because of that, and I didn't think so right. I had her password, so I logged in to her account, but I didn't do anything, and I didn't mean to make her feel that way...

She unblocked me to tell me that I broke her trust. At that time, I didn't care. I didn't realise what I did, so I didn't apologise.
She blocked me again from everywhere.
I realised what I did, and I wanted to apologise. But how? I wrote that I'm sorry and everything, and I was waiting for her to unblock me and see my messages.
She unblocked me to say, "Did you login to my account?" And I said no, how can I (she changed the pass) she said that she doesn't believe me and I was trying to make her believe me and forgive me and hardly she did (I was texting her while crying and I told her about it) but she told me "I forgive you but don't talk to me again and go live your life "
I said "thank you okay I'm gonna disappear from your life," she said "I'm going to delete my account " so I sent a lot of messages to her but she came and said "👁👁I'm still here," I said " I'm sorry if I knew I wouldn't bother you " then she said "no don't worry your messages are cute.. nah, I don't wanna give you any hope. Just forget it. I read them because of my curious .... bye"

She blocked me again

After one week, she sent, "But I miss you," she unblocked me, but she didn't see my messages
.........
She used to tell me that she hates intps but not me but I am the most intp I've ever known (😭)

Now, after another week, I'm waiting. Is she gonna come back? Does she think about me? She was the only one, and I had a lot of first times with her. I know how much I'm bad but I wanna be better for her, and I know that my words look silly, but I love her so much, and I want her in my life. I know that I can get over her but I just don't want to I need her


Sorry for my bad English

 

[Intp -]

It doesn't matter anyway I hate myself and I will never forgive myself

 

[LogicallySensitive]

Hey man we all make mistakes here. Now I will say logging in to her stuff wasn't right because you were invading her privacy however, I don't think she should've overreacted the way she did. I mean, didn't she understand that you were an insensitive individual. Lastly, I am glad you are starting to become sensitive to other people and being more aware of the things you say.

 

[secondpassing]

Of course it matters, but you need time and change.

 

[nearmythical]

I used to not have feelings for anything. I didn't give a sh*t for everything I lived my life without enjoying doing anything I didn't have experience with people I didn't make deep friendships. all of them were benefit me so i didn't have to deal with feelings .
but she was different
.
She was my online friend she loved me, and I loved her (I still do)
She had a hard time with her family, and I'm an idiot when it comes to emotional things, so I couldn't support her so good
One day, she told me that she hates me, and then I asked her, "Why don't you block me?" (Stupid me) she said she doesn't want to and I said yes don't block me then she said but I want to (😭) then she blocked me
(Stupid me again) I was so depressed because of that, and I didn't think so right. I had her password, so I logged in to her account, but I didn't do anything, and I didn't mean to make her feel that way...

She unblocked me to tell me that I broke her trust. At that time, I didn't care. I didn't realise what I did, so I didn't apologise.
She blocked me again from everywhere.
I realised what I did, and I wanted to apologise. But how? I wrote that I'm sorry and everything, and I was waiting for her to unblock me and see my messages.
She unblocked me to say, "Did you login to my account?" And I said no, how can I (she changed the pass) she said that she doesn't believe me and I was trying to make her believe me and forgive me and hardly she did (I was texting her while crying and I told her about it) but she told me "I forgive you but don't talk to me again and go live your life "
I said "thank you okay I'm gonna disappear from your life," she said "I'm going to delete my account " so I sent a lot of messages to her but she came and said "👁👁I'm still here," I said " I'm sorry if I knew I wouldn't bother you " then she said "no don't worry your messages are cute.. nah, I don't wanna give you any hope. Just forget it. I read them because of my curious .... bye"

She blocked me again

After one week, she sent, "But I miss you," she unblocked me, but she didn't see my messages
.........
She used to tell me that she hates intps but not me but I am the most intp I've ever known (😭)

Now, after another week, I'm waiting. Is she gonna come back? Does she think about me? She was the only one, and I had a lot of first times with her. I know how much I'm bad but I wanna be better for her, and I know that my words look silly, but I love her so much, and I want her in my life. I know that I can get over her but I just don't want to I need her


Sorry for my bad English

your words aren't silly, they're as genuine as it gets trust me. honestly, this is where you acknowledge your shortcomings, people come and go and that's a crumby thing, in times like these it can get hard to hope whether that person will return or no cause as far as i know about infps if they're gonna ditch a friend they do it with cutthroat precision and never look back, maybe wallow in alternate scenario fantasies and remind themselves again why it was a wise move to do what they did but yeah.

listen maybe it's best to for now at least, think about yourself instead of the person and sort out and find out why it all got to this point, surely there is a significance in the way events turned out this way, it was meant to show that there is something in you yet to fix..a miserable feeling indeed when really it's all about the person but that's pain for you and in this case, maybe try to step out your zone and try to imagine yourself in her shoes based on all you know, maybe that can help you understand what she gone through.

i wish i could tell you to not stress yourself out hoping that she'd return cause usually hope is a snively little runt that drives you nuts, but try to write a long paragraph encompassing just how your rawest emotions just give your all how you feel, maybe a poem? one thing's for sure the effort alone by someone is enough to make us reconsider, and chances are she'll return but if she doesn't....i guess it's probably something that you'll gotta deal with depending on how meaningful that person was. take the time to fix what broke you both, ain't no other way unless there is.

 

[Intp -]

Hey man we all make mistakes here. Now I will say logging in to her stuff wasn't right because you were invading her privacy however, I don't think she should've overreacted the way she did. I mean, didn't she understand that you were an insensitive individual. Lastly, I am glad you are starting to become sensitive to other people and being more aware of the things you say.

Everyone makes mistakes but mine was the worst and do you think that she overreacted? I didn't think like that
However thank you for your reply 🥹

 

[Intp -]

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Time for what?

Of course it matters, but you need time and change.

Of course it matters, but you need time and change.

Of course it matters, but you need time and change.

Time for what? How

your words aren't silly, they're as genuine as it gets trust me. honestly, this is where you acknowledge your shortcomings, people come and go and that's a crumby thing, in times like these it can get hard to hope whether that person will return or no cause as far as i know about infps if they're gonna ditch a friend they do it with cutthroat precision and never look back, maybe wallow in alternate scenario fantasies and remind themselves again why it was a wise move to do what they did but yeah.

listen maybe it's best to for now at least, think about yourself instead of the person and sort out and find out why it all got to this point, surely there is a significance in the way events turned out this way, it was meant to show that there is something in you yet to fix..a miserable feeling indeed when really it's all about the person but that's pain for you and in this case, maybe try to step out your zone and try to imagine yourself in her shoes based on all you know, maybe that can help you understand what she gone through.

i wish i could tell you to not stress yourself out hoping that she'd return cause usually hope is a snively little runt that drives you nuts, but try to write a long paragraph encompassing just how your rawest emotions just give your all how you feel, maybe a poem? one thing's for sure the effort alone by someone is enough to make us reconsider, and chances are she'll return but if she doesn't....i guess it's probably something that you'll gotta deal with depending on how meaningful that person was. take the time to fix what broke you both, ain't no other way unless there is.

Yes I know people come and go. Once she told me "I'm an experience for you " I know that but still, I don't want that to be the end
The messages I sent her were apologises for things that might hurt her but she didn't read them so I deleted them all (i didn't wanna bother her ) now I don't know if I should say something. I don't want her to think that I don't care

 

[nearmythical]

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Time for what? How

Yes I know people come and go. Once she told me "I'm an experience for you " I know that but still, I don't want that to be the end
The messages I sent her were apologises for things that might hurt her but she didn't read them so I deleted them all (i didn't wanna bother her ) now I don't know if I should say something. I don't want her to think that I don't care

She told you that because that's what other people might be to her, as a way to alleviate the loss and think it more rationally and acknowledge the fact that it's all part of life. And listen, you don't know when it's the end until it's the end, till then do all you can to make sure it won't be the end, you don't know how long an experience can last, grow legs and walk with you and hold hands, you'll know what to do when the time comes, don't worry about it ending and stressing yourself you already got a lot on your plate.

sssssss ahh, my usual state of mind, matter of fact I'm dealing with that as well. I were you I'd spend some time thinking what is it that I want, do I want to reconnect with her and accept what's to come or move away? Pick a choice and don't look back, either side is guaranteed to have bumpy roads so don't think too hard on that, what you want you take it, you say you're an idiot when it comes to emotions? Well take this chance to turn it around chum..make it worth it and show her that deep down you got color in your soul and a couple of extra locks for a tighter bond and trust, you'll be fine, do this because you love her and want to be there, way I see it you can teach her how to think logically and she can teach you to think more emotionally, could be the first step towards a fruitful bond perhaps....

 

[Intp -]

Thanks for your words and your time. I don't have anyone to talk to about what I did so I'm grateful for your reply.

 

[WickerDeer]

Hey man we all make mistakes here. Now I will say logging in to her stuff wasn't right because you were invading her privacy however, I don't think she should've overreacted the way she did. I mean, didn't she understand that you were an insensitive individual. Lastly, I am glad you are starting to become sensitive to other people and being more aware of the things you say.

Are you a dupe of the OP?

The op is responsible for their shitty actions. Knowing someone is possibly ...how do I say this nicely...has a propensity towards doing shitty things, doesn't shift the responsibility of their shitty behavior to those who give them a chance.

You sound like you're trying to shift OP's responsibility for his shitty actions onto the target of his actions, which is weird.

OP should move on and learn a lesson about how NOT TO treat people in the future. Maybe think long and hard about how not to do shitty things the next time you meet someone you want to stay in your life. If you always just shift the blame of your own behavior to them, then you're likely not going to learn to be a better person and behave less shitty, and you're just going to keep on ruining relationships in the future.

Let go of her, let her seek her happiness, and try to learn from your shitty behavior and avoid doing it again. You are the only one responsible for your own shit decisions.

 

[Intp -]

Are you a dupe of the OP?

The op is responsible for their shitty actions. Knowing someone is possibly ...how do I say this nicely...has a propensity towards doing shitty things, doesn't shift the responsibility of their shitty behavior to those who give them a chance.

You sound like you're trying to shift OP's responsibility for his shitty actions onto the target of his actions, which is weird.

OP should move on and learn a lesson about how NOT TO treat people in the future. Maybe think long and hard about how not to do shitty things the next time you meet someone you want to stay in your life. If you always just shift the blame of your own behavior to them, then you're likely not going to learn to be a better person and behave less shitty, and you're just going to keep on ruining relationships in the future.

Let go of her, let her seek her happiness, and try to learn from your shitty behavior and avoid doing it again. You are the only one responsible for your own shit decisions.

I know what I did I'm not playing the victim
I know she's better without me and I feel guilty all the time. I was just saying my feelings and how much I felt bad . I don't think I deserved her

 

[WickerDeer]

I know what I did I'm not playing the victim
I know she's better without me and I feel guilty all the time. I was just saying my feelings and how much I felt bad . I don't think I deserved her

Yeah--it's not all about you. Just learn from past mistakes--everyone makes them. And then try to do better the next time and don't do that again to someone in the future.

 

[Intp -]

Yeah--it's not all about you. Just learn from past mistakes--everyone makes them. And then try to do better the next time and don't do that again to someone in the future.

Yeah, she told me the same words. I won't do it again and I think it was really bad to do that mistake with her

 

[secondpassing]

Yeah, she told me the same words. I won't do it again and I think it was really bad to do that mistake with her

You have to live with the consequences of your actions. No matter how sorry you are, you cannot erase the past. So you need time to reflect and change how you act, but they also need time to heal. After a while, maybe they will have forgiven you. Maybe not.

 

[Intp -]

I used to not have feelings for anything. I didn't give a sh*t for everything I lived my life without enjoying doing anything I didn't have experience with people I didn't make deep friendships. all of them were benefit me so i didn't have to deal with feelings .
but she was different
.
She was my online friend she loved me, and I loved her (I still do)
She had a hard time with her family, and I'm an idiot when it comes to emotional things, so I couldn't support her so good
One day, she told me that she hates me, and then I asked her, "Why don't you block me?" (Stupid me) she said she doesn't want to and I said yes don't block me then she said but I want to (😭) then she blocked me
(Stupid me again) I was so depressed because of that, and I didn't think so right. I had her password, so I logged in to her account, but I didn't do anything, and I didn't mean to make her feel that way...

She unblocked me to tell me that I broke her trust. At that time, I didn't care. I didn't realise what I did, so I didn't apologise.
She blocked me again from everywhere.
I realised what I did, and I wanted to apologise. But how? I wrote that I'm sorry and everything, and I was waiting for her to unblock me and see my messages.
She unblocked me to say, "Did you login to my account?" And I said no, how can I (she changed the pass) she said that she doesn't believe me and I was trying to make her believe me and forgive me and hardly she did (I was texting her while crying and I told her about it) but she told me "I forgive you but don't talk to me again and go live your life "
I said "thank you okay I'm gonna disappear from your life," she said "I'm going to delete my account " so I sent a lot of messages to her but she came and said "👁👁I'm still here," I said " I'm sorry if I knew I wouldn't bother you " then she said "no don't worry your messages are cute.. nah, I don't wanna give you any hope. Just forget it. I read them because of my curious .... bye"

She blocked me again

After one week, she sent, "But I miss you," she unblocked me, but she didn't see my messages
.........
She used to tell me that she hates intps but not me but I am the most intp I've ever known (😭)

Now, after another week, I'm waiting. Is she gonna come back? Does she think about me? She was the only one, and I had a lot of first times with her. I know how much I'm bad but I wanna be better for her, and I know that my words look silly, but I love her so much, and I want her in my life. I know that I can get over her but I just don't want to I need her


Sorry for my bad English

I sent her a message with my all feelings and she said "who are you?"

 

[parable]

I used to not have feelings for anything. I didn't give a sh*t for everything I lived my life without enjoying doing anything I didn't have experience with people I didn't make deep friendships. all of them were benefit me so i didn't have to deal with feelings .
but she was different
.
She was my online friend she loved me, and I loved her (I still do)
She had a hard time with her family, and I'm an idiot when it comes to emotional things, so I couldn't support her so good
One day, she told me that she hates me, and then I asked her, "Why don't you block me?" (Stupid me) she said she doesn't want to and I said yes don't block me then she said but I want to (😭) then she blocked me
(Stupid me again) I was so depressed because of that, and I didn't think so right. I had her password, so I logged in to her account, but I didn't do anything, and I didn't mean to make her feel that way...

She unblocked me to tell me that I broke her trust. At that time, I didn't care. I didn't realise what I did, so I didn't apologise.
She blocked me again from everywhere.
I realised what I did, and I wanted to apologise. But how? I wrote that I'm sorry and everything, and I was waiting for her to unblock me and see my messages.
She unblocked me to say, "Did you login to my account?" And I said no, how can I (she changed the pass) she said that she doesn't believe me and I was trying to make her believe me and forgive me and hardly she did (I was texting her while crying and I told her about it) but she told me "I forgive you but don't talk to me again and go live your life "
I said "thank you okay I'm gonna disappear from your life," she said "I'm going to delete my account " so I sent a lot of messages to her but she came and said "👁👁I'm still here," I said " I'm sorry if I knew I wouldn't bother you " then she said "no don't worry your messages are cute.. nah, I don't wanna give you any hope. Just forget it. I read them because of my curious .... bye"

She blocked me again

After one week, she sent, "But I miss you," she unblocked me, but she didn't see my messages
.........
She used to tell me that she hates intps but not me but I am the most intp I've ever known (😭)

Now, after another week, I'm waiting. Is she gonna come back? Does she think about me? She was the only one, and I had a lot of first times with her. I know how much I'm bad but I wanna be better for her, and I know that my words look silly, but I love her so much, and I want her in my life. I know that I can get over her but I just don't want to I need her


Sorry for my bad English

You had her password and logged into her account? She accused you of breaking her trust and you admit you lied when she asked if you logged into her account? Seems like an open and shut case.

I would suggest working on yourself first.

Good luck

 

[Ms. Aligned]

I sent her a message with my all feelings and she said "who are you?"

Don't be too hard on yourself. Frankly, you both sound really dysfunctional.

 

[NoblePleb]

I get the impression that you're very young OP. If that's the case let this be a life lesson and maybe try to use your head more.

I don't agree with your friend lashing out at you for not supporting her good enough emotionally and then her telling you she hates you. Then again if you're young this type of behaviour is not that odd... I think.

 

[Intp -]

You had her password and logged into her account? She accused you of breaking her trust and you admit you lied when she asked if you logged into her account? Seems like an open and shut case.

I would suggest working on yourself first.

Good luck

No, I logged into her account, so she unblocked me to tell me that I broke her trust then she changed the password, and then she unblocked me again to ask me if I logged in to her account again, and I didn't. However, she told me that she forgives me, but yesterday when I talked to her she said, "You're dead to me".
.
Anyway, I'm so depressed more than I was.
.
I feel so bad for her for knowing me so bad that I'm crying.
.
I'm selfish. I don't wanna let her go.
.
This makes me feel like I'm drama queen

 

[Intp -]

I get the impression that you're very young OP. If that's the case let this be a life lesson and maybe try to use your head more.

I don't agree with your friend lashing out at you for not supporting her good enough emotionally and then her telling you she hates you. Then again if you're young this type of behaviour is not that odd... I think.

I'm 19 and she is younger