So I've had some really powerful intuitive experiences and I thought of sharing them with you because I wonder if you can relate to them or ever go through the same things.
There is this person in my life whom I feel spiritually and intuitively connected to, beyond all the logic and reason you could throw at me from this universe. It's still a connection I'm not used to, even for many years, but it's there nevertheless.
These past couple of days, from time to time, I've been feeling powerful waves of sadness and anger from him out of nowhere. It's not anger directed towards me, but I think it's anger directed towards himself. Yesterday/earlier today I was suddenly hit by a wave of thoughts, something like,'' I am sorry for what you have gone through. I am sorry for all the pains I inflicted in you.'' I can't explain but I was overcome by an unexplainable calmness when that happened. I was calm although I was worried at the same time, because he is someone I really care about.
Then, without warning, I felt a sadness so powerful and overwhelming, but I ''just knew'' those feelings weren't mine. I suddenly cried, and I couldn't stop the tears from flowing. It was weird, because I wasn't particularly sad at that time. I just felt like comforting him and so I metaphorically held his hand through my thoughts.
I feel that he is upset over finding about my depression, my studies and that I want to shut out the world for now. I feel that he wishes he can see me again and I feel that he is beating up on himself internally for everything that happened. I feel that he is going through sadness, loneliness, hopelessness for some time..I don't want to think about it. I usually like tapping into his energy, but for some reason I couldn't take this one so for less than an hour, I shut it out. I never felt a sadness that powerful from him before in my entire few years that I know of him. It makes me quite unstable. Maybe it's the time in life when he finally realizes, finds out about what I've gone through all along.
I'm sorry for being deep. I'm sorry, boy.
Anyway... nevermind that...
Also, I do read ''vibes'' that I get in this INFP forum. To be honest, I sense that a number of INFP's here have pure, warm and exploring lights. I feel that they are hidden strengths even when they talk about their dark sides. I feel that they find that this forum has helped them significantly with the issues that used to cause them depression. I sense a few friendships here that are very genuine, which surpass the whole superficial internet barriers. I sense people who seek to escape from the material superficialness of everyday life and try to find a deeper meaning, and they somehow just ''pick up'' this is the place to start.
I sense that from this forum, I will get quite close to a few INFP's who might change my life forever. They might change my life through providing unique insights I've never thought of before. I'm not sure if I've already talked to them, but I think I already have. I think they find me interesting, amusing and they probably secretly laugh at me behind the computer screens. So I might teach them something as well. I feel that through time, my connections with them will grow until it's time for us to find complete security in our next phases of life. Although we might never forget each other.
I'm sorry, I'm trying out being honest for once about how I really feel. I get a lot from ''these vibes.'' Sorry if it freaks anyone out..Am I correct or being weird? :blushed:
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