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I'm not sure if this is the best place for this, but I guess I got to vent somewhere.
Lately, I've been realizing what a messed up world we live in. Strangely enough, I started thinking about this after finishing the anime version Monster. (Excellent series btw.) Without spoiling too much, it seems to promote the idea that despite the flaws of humanity, we are essentially good and can overcome our flaws. Now I have to wonder: Why must we make mistakes? Sure, mistakes can be valuable teachers, but why must we learn? Why can't we be born perfect? Why must we live in an imperfect world? I realize that attaining a "perfect" world is nigh impossible. People's ideas of what's perfect probably vary as much as fingerprints. Everyone has a different view. In addition, our world is so limited. Our knowledge is so limited. Everything about this godforsaken universe is limited. Intellectually, I realize that nothing can be done to change this. But that doesn't keep me from longing for something better.
On an unrelated note, I have also begun to realize what little self-awareness I really have. All of my opinions about myself come from other people. I have no true sense of self outside of that. I came to this site trying to figure out who I really am. But in reality, I'm doing the same thing I've always had-I'm seeking opinions from others. It seems I can't realize the truth about myself...because I fear that everything that comprises my entire self-image could be a lie. I have to wonder...is what I've always thought about myself the real me? Or is it just a facade created to meet my own expectations, which in turn, are drawn from people's opinions of me?
I just feel so lost. Anyone want to try to make me feel better? :crazy:
Lately, I've been realizing what a messed up world we live in. Strangely enough, I started thinking about this after finishing the anime version Monster. (Excellent series btw.) Without spoiling too much, it seems to promote the idea that despite the flaws of humanity, we are essentially good and can overcome our flaws. Now I have to wonder: Why must we make mistakes? Sure, mistakes can be valuable teachers, but why must we learn? Why can't we be born perfect? Why must we live in an imperfect world? I realize that attaining a "perfect" world is nigh impossible. People's ideas of what's perfect probably vary as much as fingerprints. Everyone has a different view. In addition, our world is so limited. Our knowledge is so limited. Everything about this godforsaken universe is limited. Intellectually, I realize that nothing can be done to change this. But that doesn't keep me from longing for something better.
On an unrelated note, I have also begun to realize what little self-awareness I really have. All of my opinions about myself come from other people. I have no true sense of self outside of that. I came to this site trying to figure out who I really am. But in reality, I'm doing the same thing I've always had-I'm seeking opinions from others. It seems I can't realize the truth about myself...because I fear that everything that comprises my entire self-image could be a lie. I have to wonder...is what I've always thought about myself the real me? Or is it just a facade created to meet my own expectations, which in turn, are drawn from people's opinions of me?
I just feel so lost. Anyone want to try to make me feel better? :crazy: