In The Spiritual Dimension of the Enneagram, Sandra Maitri says the following of type 5s:
In The Enneagram of Passions and Virtues, she says this:Maitri said:Her inner world feels empty, devoid of the juice of life. This is the particular deficiency state at the core of her personality, her particular hell realm, which she will do everything she can to avoid experiencing. It has a dry, stark, depleted, sterile, and empty feeling to it, filling her soul with a sense of deprivation and inner poverty. Like a vast inner desert with no oasis in sight, she feels barren, thirsty, and desiccated. In contrast to wetter--more emotional--types, she is in no danger of drowning in grief but rather is in danger of evaporating from lack of anything life-giving. She feels very much alone and unreachable here, isolated and separate from the rest of the world, and profoundly ashamed of her inner sense of scarcity. Exposure of it, both to her own awareness and to others, feels utterly humiliating since she believes she should have known what to do about it.
How can we reconcile "Her inner world feels empty, devoid of the juice of life." with "They seem to live in their own inner world, which to them may feel quite rich and deep"? Does a 5s inner world simultaneously feel "empty, devoid of the juice of life" and "rich and deep"? How do those quotes match with your own experience? She does say "their withdrawal, like any psychic process, can never simply be from the outside world without also being from some aspect of their inner world." and that might go some way towards reconciling the two quotes, if it means that a 5s inner world isn't quite as "rich and deep" as it may seem, but I'd still say she's contradicting herself on the specific issue of how the 5s inner world feels, how it is subjectively experienced. I've always found that first quote odd in any case; type 5s are known for living in their inner world and feeling safest there, even though "It has a dry, stark, depleted, sterile, and empty feeling to it" and "she will do everything she can to avoid experiencing" that feeling. It's just strange to say that a type loves solitude so much when their inner world is so unpleasant.Maitri said:They are especially sensitive to intrusion, and prone to be very private, safeguarding and protecting their solitude. It is here that they feel safe, with a minimum of input from others. While some Fives seem quite gregarious on the surface, a part of them always feels withdrawn, kept for themselves alone. Too much exposure seems threatening, and to defend themselves from it, they pull back.
Their withdrawal, originally a defense mechanism to protect the preciousness of their souls, ends up cutting them off not only from outside impingement but also from their very aliveness. They seem to live in their own inner world, which to them may feel quite rich and deep, seemingly without the need to experience that dimensionality interpersonally. But this is a bit of a red herring, since their withdrawal, like any psychic process, can never simply be from the outside world without also being from some aspect of their inner world.