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I really wanted to title this thread 'OH GOD WHAT AM I DOING?!?' but it seemed a bit overdramatic.
Anywho, what am I doing? I have been seeing this guy, whom I've met at a bar for a quickie one night, and somehow that led to him actually liking me as a person and wanting to know me better.
I knew him a little better, and at the time, I started liking him as a person as well. We've been going on 'dates' frequently, and he's probably the best thing that has come into my life. He goes out of the way for me, pays for dinners, and is possibly one of the most generous men I have ever met. It almost seems perfect, but it's far from perfection, mostly because of me.
The fact is, I'm almost turned off by the fact that this guy seems too perfect for me. Honestly, I'm in a rut between whether I want to start a relationship with him or if I still just want to fuck around and have fun while I'm still young. Because if this relationship was to last for a long time, and we broke up, I'd be in my late 20s sitting at a bar watching everyone I know starting families and whatnot, and I'd be stuck being 21 in my mind just wanting to have some more fun while I can.
In short, I have no idea what I want, and if I'm even attracted to this guy anymore. I feel like I almost should pursue the relationship just to try it out, but this guy is madly in love with me, and I don't want to be a heart-breaker. I've even shown him the worst of me, and it hasn't done me any good warding him off.
Anywho, what am I doing? I have been seeing this guy, whom I've met at a bar for a quickie one night, and somehow that led to him actually liking me as a person and wanting to know me better.
I knew him a little better, and at the time, I started liking him as a person as well. We've been going on 'dates' frequently, and he's probably the best thing that has come into my life. He goes out of the way for me, pays for dinners, and is possibly one of the most generous men I have ever met. It almost seems perfect, but it's far from perfection, mostly because of me.
The fact is, I'm almost turned off by the fact that this guy seems too perfect for me. Honestly, I'm in a rut between whether I want to start a relationship with him or if I still just want to fuck around and have fun while I'm still young. Because if this relationship was to last for a long time, and we broke up, I'd be in my late 20s sitting at a bar watching everyone I know starting families and whatnot, and I'd be stuck being 21 in my mind just wanting to have some more fun while I can.
In short, I have no idea what I want, and if I'm even attracted to this guy anymore. I feel like I almost should pursue the relationship just to try it out, but this guy is madly in love with me, and I don't want to be a heart-breaker. I've even shown him the worst of me, and it hasn't done me any good warding him off.