The world is getting too weird and I'm just kinda not into the same person as I once was anymore. I think it was a bunch of bunk tbh. I mean I can turn into/apologize to whoever and not care. To be forced to do so is unnecessary. My boyfriend/love interest is situationally abusive.. and hard to see him as caring. He went and morphed his body to my liking but like I just don't care about that. He never said I love you nor showed any reciprocation. I'm trying to move on. If I have to go through learning cycles, then so be it. I just don't care. I tried all these dating apps.. Idk how people meet people anymore. I clearly need to find a place outside of a job to just be me.