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erm.... so lately, i've been buying small things here and there. and it seems like i am getting addicting to this small pleasure of having something for myself. it started really small -- i had been going through a rough patch since january, so i started buying you know... a beautiful journal to write in.... nice-smelling lotion.... a scarf to keep me warm, in my favorite color.... a nice sweater... another one....a nother journal... another sweater...another... etc..... and i keep spending money despite all the effort i've put in in the past to save up this money. i'm really stressed lately and i think this is part of a reason. i'm buying things impulsively, and i'm THINKing "i should return this..." but inside i'm saying, "NooO, you deserve this stuff. after all that stuff you are going through. you need to be selfish and just bask in some hedonism." And does anyone relate? i am driving myself crazy. starting today. NOTHING. I am hiding all my money and cards. Aksja;dj;3