Back in 2016, I met a guy online after he made a video about My Little Pony and MBTI. (I can't go into too much detail because I'm gonna talk about a few things that he might not want people to know about.) He had mentioned in one video that he had been in a Fi-Si loop, so I asked him for help figuring out if I was experiencing one (I am), and we became friends. He's nine-and-a-half years older than me, but it doesn't feel like it. We have a lot in common. We have some disagreements because of different religious beliefs (we're both Christians, but he thinks that Harry Potter is against the Bible and homosexuality is wrong while I love Harry Potter and I believe that homosexuality IS NOT a sin), but most of the time we just avoid the topics. But he ships Twilight and Princess Celestia and he feels bad about it, so I decided to try to convince him that it's okay so he wouldn't feel bad anymore. And one of his arguments against it... is that he thinks it's a choice. I tried to explain that it's NOT a choice. I would never have chosen to be bisexual if I had a choice. When I was in eighth grade and realized that I'm bisexual, I felt horrible. (At the time, I thought it was wrong.) I was already very depressed, and realizing that I'm into girls made me feel even worse. I attempted suicide for the first time that year, and a later suicide attempt was triggered by my dad temporarily convincing me that homosexuality is wrong. (I stopped being a Christian in ninth grade. I became a Christian again in November of 2016.) So he seriously thinks that I'm stupid enough to choose something that made me even more depressed! He tried to convince me that something that has caused me A LOT of suffering isn't even real, and I thought he was my friend! (He seems to think that he's suffered just as much as I have, but I've attempted suicide so many times I've lost count while he never acted on his suicidal thoughts, so I'm not sure that's true.) So I blocked him today. But I miss him already... He's one of the few people who I really felt comfortable talking to about all my problems. There are two girls named Brittney and Fiona who I used to talk to about my problems, but I can't anymore. Brittney was overwhelmed by all my problems because she's never had any mental health issues and she felt like she needed to help me but she didn't know how, and Fiona is so busy that she never replies to my text messages anymore. I only talk to her at church. I have a few other friends (sort of), but I can't just suddenly start telling any of them about my problems. I hardly talk to them. I guess they're really more like acquaintances. So now I have no-one. Maybe I should unblock him, but it's really horrible that he told me that something that has caused a lot of suffering for me isn't real. I can think of one other thing that might convince him that I'm not choosing this... But it's really hard to argue with him because he never gives me a chance to respond to anything he says. Should I unblock him and try one last time, or should I just give up? I just can't continue being friends with someone who thinks that I'm choosing to be bisexual when it caused me so much pain when I thought it was wrong. Even though I know he's wrong about me choosing to be bisexual (and about it being wrong), I still feel stupid because he thinks I'm stupid...