I was doing so well...but this week abusing benzos, painkillers, and smoking a fuck ton of weed. I have schizoaffective disorder and my hallucinations are coming back. Delusions too? Possibly? I don't know my therapist says so but she could be lying to me. My drug of choice is usually alcohol and issues with that were what made me want to be sober in the first place last year. This streak started with a couple shots of tequila but that's it as far as alcohol goes so far. I feel bad, but I don't want to end this. Am I going to have to destroy my life again and nearly end it again or is there a way to avoid that? I'm in therapy but she's kinda worthless, and I go to group but lately haven't been talking about much. Just looking for some advice here.