I'm 95% certain that I'm an sx/so, and have always related to it no matter from what perspective it's described. And even though I don't quite relate to sx/sp (specifically the so-blind part), I'm definitely considering it now. Part of it is because I have a heart 3-fix and apparently that in addition to so-blindness sucks. So, I've been wondering mostly how sx/sp + 3 heart-fix would be like. Because tbh I can see myself being that kind of fcked up.
Also, I'm only considering sx/sp now, when I'm really stressed. I seem more like an sx/so when I'm at ease. But in certain instances I feel like I get stressed because of a feeling of so-blind vs 3-fix value struggle. I like to be really good at what I do and appear to be so, but I really dislike when people talk about it to me. I like it when people like what I do and admire me for it, but not when people start talking about ME to ME. I care about what they think about what I do, but I usually don't give a crap when they're talking about it as if it affects them in some way. Like "your so good at drawing I can't even draw a stick figure". It's like 1) thanks but... good for you? 2) anyone can fucking draw a stick figure, get out of my face, and 3) don't use me as an excuse to bash yourself, I really don't give a flying fudge nugget about you and your petty problems and insecurities. It's like this with literally anything and everything I'm good at. It's annoying me to the point where it's like do I really need to try anymore? I like the results of what I do to be admired, but I don't like to be complimented (unless it's something I didn't do, like my haircut or outfit or something).
Also, I'm only considering sx/sp now, when I'm really stressed. I seem more like an sx/so when I'm at ease. But in certain instances I feel like I get stressed because of a feeling of so-blind vs 3-fix value struggle. I like to be really good at what I do and appear to be so, but I really dislike when people talk about it to me. I like it when people like what I do and admire me for it, but not when people start talking about ME to ME. I care about what they think about what I do, but I usually don't give a crap when they're talking about it as if it affects them in some way. Like "your so good at drawing I can't even draw a stick figure". It's like 1) thanks but... good for you? 2) anyone can fucking draw a stick figure, get out of my face, and 3) don't use me as an excuse to bash yourself, I really don't give a flying fudge nugget about you and your petty problems and insecurities. It's like this with literally anything and everything I'm good at. It's annoying me to the point where it's like do I really need to try anymore? I like the results of what I do to be admired, but I don't like to be complimented (unless it's something I didn't do, like my haircut or outfit or something).