I have always been fairly unsure of myself. I hesitate a lot before I say things. Because of that I sometimes miss the opportunity to say it - or I may decide not to say it. I over analyse things I have said (not so much now than I did when I was younger) and sometimes regret having spoken at all. I don't worry too much any more, but I do consistantly worry that I may have been insensitive or hurt another person inadvertantly. Saying that, I can be very cold and cut people off without warning if they piss me off - but it's usually because they are insensitive and pushy and won't leave me alone/take a hint. I can't stand pushy people.
I think a lot about how people work, and what makes them tick. It's what I want to know more than anything else - to understand others and also to be understood. I want others to know me, and to be willing to work at that in the way that I am - like peeling the layers of an onion, but at the same time I want to hide and remain unknown.
I love music, art and beautiful ways that people express themselves subtly. I like subtlety. I want life to be always sensuous, rich and full of meaning. I need to connect to others, and feel lonely if I feel no one understands me or doesn't care. I hate being taken for granted or treated like a fool.
I find people fascinating.
I think a lot about how people work, and what makes them tick. It's what I want to know more than anything else - to understand others and also to be understood. I want others to know me, and to be willing to work at that in the way that I am - like peeling the layers of an onion, but at the same time I want to hide and remain unknown.
I love music, art and beautiful ways that people express themselves subtly. I like subtlety. I want life to be always sensuous, rich and full of meaning. I need to connect to others, and feel lonely if I feel no one understands me or doesn't care. I hate being taken for granted or treated like a fool.
I find people fascinating.
