Heh, 548, and I'd regard it more as a Lovecraftian masochism and a related impulse to curse others with the madness knowledge. Lovecraftian sadomasochism.The 458 Scholar is me, it is certainly me. "Studying what makes people tick", "wanting to discover what is innately human and share it with others". wanting to collect and build "maps of reality" to explain things.
"The process of delving into the black abyss is to me the keenest form of fascination."
"The world is indeed comic, but the joke is on mankind."
"The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the deadly light into the peace and safety of a new dark age."