I'm in a college were my strong Fe doesn't sit well in the environment. My school is very NT/ST and everyone is very ambitious, cutthroat and brilliant in every way. There seems to be a lot of coldness and apathy where I am despite the fact that the majority of these driven kids want careers that require that you are anything but. I'm very good at science and I'm a hard worker but I put no value in my academic achievements( i.e I'm doing all this for the pursuit of knowledge and with the mindset that I need to use my education as a tool to be what I want to be). I value caring for others more than beating them at the whole pre-med game so I'm very much the odd one out. I don't care about being understood but I am extremely frustrated at the fact that this place won't let me be myself. No one seems to get that I naturally want to help people, will listen to your problems, will accept you as you are, and am doing nothing for you out of self interest. I have one friend who hardly speaks to me because she thinks I'm too 'nice' for her which makes her guilty, another who's impossible to do something nice for because she thinks random acts of kindness are mere favors that she is obligated to return in order to be 'fair', and another who gets really upset and helpless by my 'sadness' and 'loneliness' which makes me feel like I'm somehow being a burden to her when I'm having my moments. (<--she hardly sees me and when she does I'm usually sleepy or world weary). This place has made go through a lot of much needed personal growth and I am quite mature in my way of thinking, but still I feel like I'm the one who has to do all the adjusting and accommodation in how I express my personality while everyone can just stay the same. I will never lose my principles or my caring self, but it seems as if I have to appear calculating and apathetic like everyone else. I have no problem with being an INFJ from in the shadows and strike when the time is right but is this normal? Is this the real world for the INFJ in the rational environment? Anyone have a similar experience?