A strange paradox is here. Most people find it more comfortable to talk on the computer. I find it more difficult. It feels like throwing myself into a stormy ocean with the unpredictable waves. Well I am posting this to ask, "How many people feels like they wear a mask?" At least that's the way for me at school and home.
As a child, I watched to old cartoons and anime seeing the heroes so full of confidence, I've felt that I must become the hero, but really I'm shy and not confident. Besides just dreaming about being confident, I am often forced to act confident. My family believes me to be confident for my curious actions as a kid. It was never the fact that I was confident, just too full of wonder to stop myself. My friends expect me to help them with their problems, and I do. It's just that there are times when we don't talk, and I'm comfortable like that, I just wonder how they feel. So I place a mask of sorts. One that I never take off. A mask of confidence. When I ask other's if I'm shy, they often say no, because I've learned to hide that fact by replacing it with fake ego.
*Thinks to self* Why in the world am I posting this?
As a child, I watched to old cartoons and anime seeing the heroes so full of confidence, I've felt that I must become the hero, but really I'm shy and not confident. Besides just dreaming about being confident, I am often forced to act confident. My family believes me to be confident for my curious actions as a kid. It was never the fact that I was confident, just too full of wonder to stop myself. My friends expect me to help them with their problems, and I do. It's just that there are times when we don't talk, and I'm comfortable like that, I just wonder how they feel. So I place a mask of sorts. One that I never take off. A mask of confidence. When I ask other's if I'm shy, they often say no, because I've learned to hide that fact by replacing it with fake ego.
*Thinks to self* Why in the world am I posting this?