Maybe some of you already know but I posted a long text about me and this other girl that I have a crush on.
But anyways, long story short; I invited her on my birthday today, and she said “She would love to”! So now she just left, and the evening just gave me more questions than answers. I’m literally even more confused than I was before.
She was the first one to arrive at the party (she didn’t even have time to dry her hair before showering), and when she saw me, she basically started to run towards me and almost jumped on me and gave me a long lasting hug. She was so happy, and we talked so much in those 20 min we were alone, and she talked about things that I never ever told her. For example, she started mentioning me going on Karate (but how on earth would she know if she didn’t ask someone). And we basically talked non stop, until the others came. Now I thought it would get even better, but no... It got worse. She didn’t say a world; maybe a few sentences here and there - but that’s it. Me and her were the quiets people at the party. To be honest, she sayd more sentences while talking with me, rather than all of the other 8 combined. I could see on her face that she looked different - if I could judge, I would say maybe disappointed or “not belonging there”. She was laughing (but I could see if was fake) a couple of times when some of the others were saying sth funny, but she always had that sad energy look on her face.
Not only that, but she changed a little towards me; as if she didn’t know me. It just felt so different. But she was always the one sitting closest to me. And I noticed, that everytime I would say sth (not to her), she would turn completely and look at me for a very long time - even if I was not talking to her. She also touched a little of my hand when she asked me where that bathroom was, yet it felt so weird from how she were at the beginning. From the moment my other friends came, it felt as dementors had just sucked out her happiness - and that made me sad too...
I have soms theories of what could have happened and what I should do next, but I need your help
1. She knows that I like girls, and maybe she does too, but is afraid to show the school. I’m an exchange student from Northern Europe, and since I’m currently in a Sourhen country she might don’t wanna show it. She’s 16 btw. She just wanted to do the easiest and less painful way, and since she did against her will, she started to feel more sad.
So what I’m thinking about doing, is being straightforward. Maybe she was expecting sth else. Maybe she wanted us to stay alone. Who knows. But I know I should be honest about how I feel. I was always good at writing long and touchy messages, but not so sure what I shall write here. Any tips?
There’s also gonna be a school party on Friday, and I was thinking about asking her friend, and maybe tell her what I feel for her. She even told me, last week, “if there’s anything you need, or anything to talk about, I’m here”... Maybe she already knows.
I need good advices guys! What would you do if you were in my place ??
But anyways, long story short; I invited her on my birthday today, and she said “She would love to”! So now she just left, and the evening just gave me more questions than answers. I’m literally even more confused than I was before.
She was the first one to arrive at the party (she didn’t even have time to dry her hair before showering), and when she saw me, she basically started to run towards me and almost jumped on me and gave me a long lasting hug. She was so happy, and we talked so much in those 20 min we were alone, and she talked about things that I never ever told her. For example, she started mentioning me going on Karate (but how on earth would she know if she didn’t ask someone). And we basically talked non stop, until the others came. Now I thought it would get even better, but no... It got worse. She didn’t say a world; maybe a few sentences here and there - but that’s it. Me and her were the quiets people at the party. To be honest, she sayd more sentences while talking with me, rather than all of the other 8 combined. I could see on her face that she looked different - if I could judge, I would say maybe disappointed or “not belonging there”. She was laughing (but I could see if was fake) a couple of times when some of the others were saying sth funny, but she always had that sad energy look on her face.
Not only that, but she changed a little towards me; as if she didn’t know me. It just felt so different. But she was always the one sitting closest to me. And I noticed, that everytime I would say sth (not to her), she would turn completely and look at me for a very long time - even if I was not talking to her. She also touched a little of my hand when she asked me where that bathroom was, yet it felt so weird from how she were at the beginning. From the moment my other friends came, it felt as dementors had just sucked out her happiness - and that made me sad too...
I have soms theories of what could have happened and what I should do next, but I need your help
1. She knows that I like girls, and maybe she does too, but is afraid to show the school. I’m an exchange student from Northern Europe, and since I’m currently in a Sourhen country she might don’t wanna show it. She’s 16 btw. She just wanted to do the easiest and less painful way, and since she did against her will, she started to feel more sad.
So what I’m thinking about doing, is being straightforward. Maybe she was expecting sth else. Maybe she wanted us to stay alone. Who knows. But I know I should be honest about how I feel. I was always good at writing long and touchy messages, but not so sure what I shall write here. Any tips?
There’s also gonna be a school party on Friday, and I was thinking about asking her friend, and maybe tell her what I feel for her. She even told me, last week, “if there’s anything you need, or anything to talk about, I’m here”... Maybe she already knows.
I need good advices guys! What would you do if you were in my place ??