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After a LOT of introspection, I don't think I'm a dom 8. I don't know much more than that, except that I don't see dom 6 fitting either. I'm don't think I'm a dom 3. I also discovered that I'm a slightly introverted ambivert, judging by my entire life.
Main Questions
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I live for the future. Future possibilities and opportunities drive me forward. The present is spent setting up for the future. When the future gets here, it's spent setting up for more future. The only other thing I live for is mental gratification. Learning things is my "porn", and I routinely waste 6 hours at a time doing things other than my online telecom exam (which I should be taking, but this is much more interesting).
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
I hope to reach a point where I have so much wealth and power that I can simply throw money and/or power at all my problems so I can do what I want all the time. That might well be reading for 8 hours a day.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
An idiot. That stupid person that never seems to know what to do with their life, and fails at whatever they do. That's pretty much what I don't want to be.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
Realistically, embarrassment is probably my #1 fear, but not just any kind of embarrassment. I'll get some detail wrong and be slightly embarrassed, but that's not as big of a deal. If I do something incredibly stupid and it becomes well known, that's my greatest fear.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I want others to see me as smart (read "smarter than them"), and I usually succeed at this. If everyone thinks I'm very smart, I have some level of power and influence. To those people that I can't gain power that way, I shift to competency. I try to be so good at something that I can get by on specialized knowledge. I'd also like to be seen as "regular", so I don't stand out too much. I'd be a quiet genius, if I were one. I search for people who might understand me, and the first hurdle they must overcome is seeing that my "normal" facade is not the real me.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel at my best when I shred somebody with logic in debate. That's probably the best feeling; showing the world that this person did not think through their argument, and that I did, thus proving that they don't think as well as I do (logically fallacious conclusion, but it's hard-wired, so I can't help it).
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
I blow up when angry. I'm a major dick when I'm mad. I also have an additional level of angry that's much like Liam Neeson from "Taken"; the kind that burns your house down. During that kind of anger, I disappear for 3 days while I decide how best to ruin the life of whoever I'm angry at.
Shame- I withdraw. I usually never go back to whatever caused the shame.
Anxiety- I study whatever's causing me to be anxious. If I'm anxious, it's usually because I don't know something that I think I should.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
Stress: I try my best to ignore it. I also use it as a shield so I can make everyone else leave me the hell alone. I tell people I'm stressed all the time so I won't have to comply with their norms of social interaction (talking every day, etc). I take even my friends in doses. My family thinks I live in a cave. I just don't want to talk to them all the time; is that such a big deal? lol
Unexpected change is usually bad, but that's not a hard rule. Good change is an unexpected surprise. I try to insulate myself with enough plans that bad change will have been foreseen.
I have a love/hate relationship with conflict. I used to hate it, now I love it. I hated it as a kid because I felt like I was always helpless during conflict. Now I tend to like it because I can shred someone else, which makes me feel good. That's about the long and short of it.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
Authority is not inherently bad. They usually have power, and I'll influence them for my benefit if I can. I don't inherently distrust authority; I see authority figures just like anyone else. They're people; the difference is that whatever they do affects me more than what other people do.
I like power. In fact, this is what I'm really after. Raw power to do whatever I want.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
Life is a great thing. I enjoy living. Humanity is a tad bit irrational, but I suppose they're alright. I wish I could learn more about life and the complexities of human behavior, but there's only so much we know.
Optional Questions
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
I'm going to go with bad breakup/death of father, which both happened at once. This was right before freshman year of college. I entrenched myself in my dorm room for 8 months, only leaving to go to class, shower, and get food. I knew I had to change myself if I was going to make a successful transition to college, so I did. I decided to be more extroverted and to actually use my talents instead of just sitting on them and fearing failure or inadequacy. I got out, started doing things, and became quite successful.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I'm fine with it, I suppose. I know what I can trust others with. I tell people very little while listening a lot, so I try to always have the upper hand in the "secrets" battle in all my relationships. I want the ability to hurt the other person more than they could possibly hurt me if something goes wrong. As far as the statement "just trust me" goes, I don't usually respond well to that statement if there is something serious on the line.
The other thing I do is always be consciously aware that things could happen. I know that a person can screw me over, so I don't let myself become attached to people. I can know them, be very good friends, and still be able to leave tomorrow and never speak to them again. It's pretty normal; I don't feel like my life has suffered because of this. I've always been that way with everyone with a very few exceptions.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
I like my intelligence. I like the fact that I seem to think more deeply about everything than others do (all the time sitting around just thinking has an effect). I like that I'm good at specific things. I like my effectiveness, overall.
I don't like that I'm more insecure than I let on, which is something that's very tough for me to admit. I always bury this insecurity with competence, but it's still there. I just keep shoveling in knowledge and power and being good at things until it's gone. I get insecure because I "don't think I'm as good as I think I am" so to speak, so I strive to be better at what I think I'm good at to cover that insecurity.
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
A lot of things, apparently. I watch a lot of behavior, and I've become good at picking out liars and bad intentions. I can also pick out good intentions. Peoples' actions betray their mind. Edit: This is the reason I've gotten into personality typing. I want to walk into things with the upper hand, and that can be accomplished by knowing more about the other person than the other person knows about me.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
I feel good if I'm complimented. I feel bad if I'm insulted. There's really not much more to it than that. If I get an insult, I try to get to the bottom of whatever caused the insult. If it was the other person, I write it off. If it was me somehow, I try to figure out why my actions/self are drawing negative reactions from others. This usually takes quite a bit of introspection.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
I'm thankful I have my mind. I'm thankful I have the internet. I wish I had a better internet connection. I wish I had infinite money, especially. That'd be nice. lol
So... thoughts?
Main Questions
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I live for the future. Future possibilities and opportunities drive me forward. The present is spent setting up for the future. When the future gets here, it's spent setting up for more future. The only other thing I live for is mental gratification. Learning things is my "porn", and I routinely waste 6 hours at a time doing things other than my online telecom exam (which I should be taking, but this is much more interesting).
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
I hope to reach a point where I have so much wealth and power that I can simply throw money and/or power at all my problems so I can do what I want all the time. That might well be reading for 8 hours a day.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
An idiot. That stupid person that never seems to know what to do with their life, and fails at whatever they do. That's pretty much what I don't want to be.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
Realistically, embarrassment is probably my #1 fear, but not just any kind of embarrassment. I'll get some detail wrong and be slightly embarrassed, but that's not as big of a deal. If I do something incredibly stupid and it becomes well known, that's my greatest fear.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I want others to see me as smart (read "smarter than them"), and I usually succeed at this. If everyone thinks I'm very smart, I have some level of power and influence. To those people that I can't gain power that way, I shift to competency. I try to be so good at something that I can get by on specialized knowledge. I'd also like to be seen as "regular", so I don't stand out too much. I'd be a quiet genius, if I were one. I search for people who might understand me, and the first hurdle they must overcome is seeing that my "normal" facade is not the real me.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel at my best when I shred somebody with logic in debate. That's probably the best feeling; showing the world that this person did not think through their argument, and that I did, thus proving that they don't think as well as I do (logically fallacious conclusion, but it's hard-wired, so I can't help it).
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
I blow up when angry. I'm a major dick when I'm mad. I also have an additional level of angry that's much like Liam Neeson from "Taken"; the kind that burns your house down. During that kind of anger, I disappear for 3 days while I decide how best to ruin the life of whoever I'm angry at.
Shame- I withdraw. I usually never go back to whatever caused the shame.
Anxiety- I study whatever's causing me to be anxious. If I'm anxious, it's usually because I don't know something that I think I should.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
Stress: I try my best to ignore it. I also use it as a shield so I can make everyone else leave me the hell alone. I tell people I'm stressed all the time so I won't have to comply with their norms of social interaction (talking every day, etc). I take even my friends in doses. My family thinks I live in a cave. I just don't want to talk to them all the time; is that such a big deal? lol
Unexpected change is usually bad, but that's not a hard rule. Good change is an unexpected surprise. I try to insulate myself with enough plans that bad change will have been foreseen.
I have a love/hate relationship with conflict. I used to hate it, now I love it. I hated it as a kid because I felt like I was always helpless during conflict. Now I tend to like it because I can shred someone else, which makes me feel good. That's about the long and short of it.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
Authority is not inherently bad. They usually have power, and I'll influence them for my benefit if I can. I don't inherently distrust authority; I see authority figures just like anyone else. They're people; the difference is that whatever they do affects me more than what other people do.
I like power. In fact, this is what I'm really after. Raw power to do whatever I want.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
Life is a great thing. I enjoy living. Humanity is a tad bit irrational, but I suppose they're alright. I wish I could learn more about life and the complexities of human behavior, but there's only so much we know.
Optional Questions
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
I'm going to go with bad breakup/death of father, which both happened at once. This was right before freshman year of college. I entrenched myself in my dorm room for 8 months, only leaving to go to class, shower, and get food. I knew I had to change myself if I was going to make a successful transition to college, so I did. I decided to be more extroverted and to actually use my talents instead of just sitting on them and fearing failure or inadequacy. I got out, started doing things, and became quite successful.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I'm fine with it, I suppose. I know what I can trust others with. I tell people very little while listening a lot, so I try to always have the upper hand in the "secrets" battle in all my relationships. I want the ability to hurt the other person more than they could possibly hurt me if something goes wrong. As far as the statement "just trust me" goes, I don't usually respond well to that statement if there is something serious on the line.
The other thing I do is always be consciously aware that things could happen. I know that a person can screw me over, so I don't let myself become attached to people. I can know them, be very good friends, and still be able to leave tomorrow and never speak to them again. It's pretty normal; I don't feel like my life has suffered because of this. I've always been that way with everyone with a very few exceptions.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
I like my intelligence. I like the fact that I seem to think more deeply about everything than others do (all the time sitting around just thinking has an effect). I like that I'm good at specific things. I like my effectiveness, overall.
I don't like that I'm more insecure than I let on, which is something that's very tough for me to admit. I always bury this insecurity with competence, but it's still there. I just keep shoveling in knowledge and power and being good at things until it's gone. I get insecure because I "don't think I'm as good as I think I am" so to speak, so I strive to be better at what I think I'm good at to cover that insecurity.
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
A lot of things, apparently. I watch a lot of behavior, and I've become good at picking out liars and bad intentions. I can also pick out good intentions. Peoples' actions betray their mind. Edit: This is the reason I've gotten into personality typing. I want to walk into things with the upper hand, and that can be accomplished by knowing more about the other person than the other person knows about me.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
I feel good if I'm complimented. I feel bad if I'm insulted. There's really not much more to it than that. If I get an insult, I try to get to the bottom of whatever caused the insult. If it was the other person, I write it off. If it was me somehow, I try to figure out why my actions/self are drawing negative reactions from others. This usually takes quite a bit of introspection.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
I'm thankful I have my mind. I'm thankful I have the internet. I wish I had a better internet connection. I wish I had infinite money, especially. That'd be nice. lol
So... thoughts?
. I didn't know you had started this thread. I just PM'd a member to discuss faith and morality with you, from an 8 perspective. 
