that's not so unusual, not at all. A waste of space maybe, but so are the parasites profiting off of other's work, like landlords or business executives! I myself am useless at the moment I just can't stop watching my favourite sitcom ever Seinfeld but I really need to find me a job.I'm autistic, and I fail at all the important things irl needed for survival.
I have major depressive disorder too.
Totally worthless and useless in the real world.
At least they seem to be happy doing that...that's not so unusual, not at all. A waste of space maybe, but so are the parasites profiting off of other's work, like landlords or business executives! I myself am useless at the moment I just can't stop watching my favourite sitcom ever Seinfeld but I really need to find me a job.
No I think you do have a reason, that's the important thing. Recognising that your situation is not one you want for yourself is probably helpful to overcoming your troubles.At least they seem to be happy doing that...
Being sad for no real reason is a bitch.
Nah, it doesn't really pass. I'd been depressed since the mid-2000s. Therapy and meds didn't help much either. I moved residence once, changed schools at least five times, tried two jobs. Nothing worked.No I think you do have a reason, that's the important thing. Recognising that your situation is not one you want for yourself is probably helpful to overcoming your troubles.
No matter how dumb the reason may be, idk maybe you're just so upset that you're not a walrus but you really want to be one. That would be dumb but a reason nonetheless... We don't get many tries at this life thing so it's important that you live the way you want to live, but I would also argue that it's ok as long as it doesn't harm the environment too much. Being a walrus would be very eco friendly.
And I know that it may not seem like that at all, you're incapacitated by this agonizing feeling you just don't want any of it, there's nothing you want to do. In this case as you have stated yourself you're going through a depressive episode but it will pass, it most certainly will.
Glad you did not retire your account. One of my favorite posters! And you seem to have a really good head on your shoulders, imo. Yeah, I gotta check out of here sometimes, I get too caught up in finding interesting stuff here rather than tasking.Meds are kicking in, finally.
I was thinking of retiring my account. but there is still so much to learn here about typology and psychology in general. I haven't completed my enneagram type, and my MBTI is as debatable as always. It's been hard getting little bits of useful information here but they still exist somewhere. I don't know if digging through hundreds of threads and posts is worth it, though..
I voluntarily climb into a rut during most work days and drudge along through it. And do my best at the end of the day to climb completely back out. It seems that rut has been worn so deep at times. But, outside of the rut is the freedom, the passion, the stuff I love, what makes me feel alive. Its just getting the hang of the daily escape in full that I'm still learning. I've found the world I live in and world I want impossible to blend completely, at least for now. So, I have to do my best to split time in both worlds.I want to learn, I want to improve, but I don't know how to get out of this rut.
May the road rise with you on all your endeavors!Well, I've been thinking that I'm needing to make some life changes, spend my time differently. This format change I suppose is the perfect time for me to check out, at least for a while. Lot of great people on this site. Catch you on the flip side!
Noooooooo! Well, best wishes and when you come to your senses return to show us your new wisdom and such ...Well, I've been thinking that I'm needing to make some life changes, spend my time differently. This format change I suppose is the perfect time for me to check out, at least for a while. Lot of great people on this site. Catch you on the flip side!
I will take this as ... art. Or as a denouement or affective pique. If it is instead a statement and you want to hear the rebuttal, let me know.all of this seeming meaningless. i want to delete everything i write in here, everything on internet, every letter that i ever wrote, every story, every picture that i drew. i'm sick of leaking everywhere. i'm disgusting. i'm so weak and this is my only existance, writing everywhere that no one gives a fuck, that no one in my real life could ever see. i'm sick of all of this. i lived like a blackhole, in all my parts of my life, and i did one mistake, opening up, sharing, and then a supernova! it hurt everyone.. then i go back to be a blackhole, so no one ever see me again, no one ever reach me again. suffering in silence again. obsessions, anxiety. i'm living like a shadow, no more dreams, no more excitement. just this never ending guilt, fears, anxiety and obsessions. it's a nightmare. and no one can help and i don't want to voice myself anymore. everybody thinks its just too much and im making things bigger, that im not even sick. ahahahha so funny. who can know the things that i even not talked about? how are they so sure about who i am? and the pain i lived? i always kept myself in silence, suffer in silence, suffer with a smile. and when i shared a bit, a little piece of it, with a trust. it was too much. what should i do then? living in shadows just for pleasing others, their desires? they want me to love them, they want my deepness and care, yet they don't want to give anything to me. and then put all the blame on my shoulders. i know i'm disgusting but it is just my business. i tried to understand many people, and who tried the same? just wanted to get rid of me. because they were sure that i will be always there to hold them. fuck. im sick of this world. im sick of talking. this is not the right place to write. but whatever. that's it. who cares anyway? just a regular teenager for everyone right? just an another drop in this meaningless ocean. sick of this. fuck everyone. fuck everything.