Main Questions
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I don't really know what drives me. I am just living the days of my life as they come. That sounds very go-with-the-flow but I can't stop thinking about the future, either. I don't like thinking about 'where I'd be 10 years down the line.' I look forward to seeing how things actually work out, attending concerts, filling up psychological questionnaires to assess what I am (because I have started to feel rare now.) I look to improve myself, improve things around me as much as I can and if I did have control over those things. I am almost mostly there to help my friends out but I suck at maintaining relationships of any kind for a long time. I avoid unpleasant things, a lot. I procrastinate easily. I look for peace, and having a good time, which screws me later. I constantly scrutinize a lot of things in life and wonder how they would be if I made them or at least laid down the schematics for making them.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
Hmm, I'd like to start converging my hopes and expectations because my hopes are usually much higher than my expectations. I want to love myself a lot more, and be at peace with everyone around me. I like discussions and debates but those of the peaceful kind. I want to make a change to the society in one way or the other so that there's probably at least some meaning to my existence. I want to be novel in my career field.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I'll not much of the value-driven person but I wouldn't want to be a 'sheep in society', always be open-minded and accept criticism well. I'd like to always look at things from different view-points before coming to conclusions, be independent and self-sufficient as much as I can without secluding myself from society completely. Treat others the way I'd want them to treat me.
I hope to avoid being a failure in whatever I do, and not be overcome by this so-called depression. I want to be as different as I can and fit-in, too (I don't care much for fitting in but as long as people can relate to me in some way.)
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
I am afraid of failing, not doing things as well as I expected myself to do (a little bit of a perfectionist.) My attachment style is 'preoccupied', and so, I am a little anxious in personal relationships, too. I have a vague idea about how I could be in ideal situations and when I cannot meet those high expectations of myself, I detach myself or become fantasy-prone.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
Aaah, see me however you will. Don't misjudge me if you can. I hate 'How do you see yourself' questions. I think I am creative, intelligent, socially awkward, higher than average EQ, unassertive, laid-back, accepting, etc.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
When things just work out. When I am 'pleasantly surprised.' I feel good when I think I have been able to help someone significantly (relative term.) Minimum effort, maximum outcome.
When things seem to go out of hand, and you can refer to question 4.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
I am slow to anger but when I do, I'm pretty furious. I get irritated easily and I hate everything. I calm down pretty quick.
When I am in shame, I contemplate things a lot, and feel pathetic. Again, I don't feel shame for long.
When I'm anxious, I tend to do something completely unrelated, think of worst-case scenarios and ready myself for the worst.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
When I am stressed, I look pretty calm and laid-back. Subconsciously, it's probably pretty bad. I act a little different. I get irritated easily.
I am quite accepting in that regard but if it's something I dislike, I'll try to go back to how things were or simply go, "meh."
I do not like conflict but I take criticism well. I try to avoid them as much as I can maybe even go out of my way to, a little.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
I don't have a problem with authority as long as they're doing their work properly and are doing as they promised to do so. As long as the rules are reasonable and well thought-out.
"Absolute power corrupts absolutely."
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
People exist in various shades of grey. One must approach humanity with both logic and emotion. Life is alright, as long as you have something to work towards. I don't have that something. If it helps, my D&D Alignment is "True Neutral."
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
Not applicable. Whatever little has happened made me realize I should work harder and actually work rather than think about it into nothingness. I should stop rationalizing my procrastination and lack-of-care.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I trust easily but I am quite the cynic. I am pessimistic, but I give people the benefit of doubt.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
I am a good listener, flexible, mostly composed, I care for people as opposed to what my 'NT'-ness would suggest, open-minded, etc.
I procrastinate, suck at time management, unassertive, reserved around strangers.
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
What most people will notice once they've been part of a psychology/typology forum. I notice little things and read between the lines.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
"What?" I'd feel confused and not really care. I'd wonder what made them insult me in the first place and if it is justified. In rare cases, I'd ask them to "Fuck off."
I'd definitely feel good and compliment them back if I knew how to or what to say. I don't like untruthful flattery. People say I blush. What the fuck? I like pleasing people I like.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
I'm thankful for those things I have taken for granted. My parents being okay-ish with how unconventional and difficult I am.
Will-power, focus, perseverance, etc. Self explanatory. I want to complete things that I start, and actually start things, too.
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I don't really know what drives me. I am just living the days of my life as they come. That sounds very go-with-the-flow but I can't stop thinking about the future, either. I don't like thinking about 'where I'd be 10 years down the line.' I look forward to seeing how things actually work out, attending concerts, filling up psychological questionnaires to assess what I am (because I have started to feel rare now.) I look to improve myself, improve things around me as much as I can and if I did have control over those things. I am almost mostly there to help my friends out but I suck at maintaining relationships of any kind for a long time. I avoid unpleasant things, a lot. I procrastinate easily. I look for peace, and having a good time, which screws me later. I constantly scrutinize a lot of things in life and wonder how they would be if I made them or at least laid down the schematics for making them.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
Hmm, I'd like to start converging my hopes and expectations because my hopes are usually much higher than my expectations. I want to love myself a lot more, and be at peace with everyone around me. I like discussions and debates but those of the peaceful kind. I want to make a change to the society in one way or the other so that there's probably at least some meaning to my existence. I want to be novel in my career field.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I'll not much of the value-driven person but I wouldn't want to be a 'sheep in society', always be open-minded and accept criticism well. I'd like to always look at things from different view-points before coming to conclusions, be independent and self-sufficient as much as I can without secluding myself from society completely. Treat others the way I'd want them to treat me.
I hope to avoid being a failure in whatever I do, and not be overcome by this so-called depression. I want to be as different as I can and fit-in, too (I don't care much for fitting in but as long as people can relate to me in some way.)
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
I am afraid of failing, not doing things as well as I expected myself to do (a little bit of a perfectionist.) My attachment style is 'preoccupied', and so, I am a little anxious in personal relationships, too. I have a vague idea about how I could be in ideal situations and when I cannot meet those high expectations of myself, I detach myself or become fantasy-prone.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
Aaah, see me however you will. Don't misjudge me if you can. I hate 'How do you see yourself' questions. I think I am creative, intelligent, socially awkward, higher than average EQ, unassertive, laid-back, accepting, etc.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
When things just work out. When I am 'pleasantly surprised.' I feel good when I think I have been able to help someone significantly (relative term.) Minimum effort, maximum outcome.
When things seem to go out of hand, and you can refer to question 4.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
I am slow to anger but when I do, I'm pretty furious. I get irritated easily and I hate everything. I calm down pretty quick.
When I am in shame, I contemplate things a lot, and feel pathetic. Again, I don't feel shame for long.
When I'm anxious, I tend to do something completely unrelated, think of worst-case scenarios and ready myself for the worst.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
When I am stressed, I look pretty calm and laid-back. Subconsciously, it's probably pretty bad. I act a little different. I get irritated easily.
I am quite accepting in that regard but if it's something I dislike, I'll try to go back to how things were or simply go, "meh."
I do not like conflict but I take criticism well. I try to avoid them as much as I can maybe even go out of my way to, a little.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
I don't have a problem with authority as long as they're doing their work properly and are doing as they promised to do so. As long as the rules are reasonable and well thought-out.
"Absolute power corrupts absolutely."
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
People exist in various shades of grey. One must approach humanity with both logic and emotion. Life is alright, as long as you have something to work towards. I don't have that something. If it helps, my D&D Alignment is "True Neutral."
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
Not applicable. Whatever little has happened made me realize I should work harder and actually work rather than think about it into nothingness. I should stop rationalizing my procrastination and lack-of-care.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I trust easily but I am quite the cynic. I am pessimistic, but I give people the benefit of doubt.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
I am a good listener, flexible, mostly composed, I care for people as opposed to what my 'NT'-ness would suggest, open-minded, etc.
I procrastinate, suck at time management, unassertive, reserved around strangers.
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
What most people will notice once they've been part of a psychology/typology forum. I notice little things and read between the lines.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
"What?" I'd feel confused and not really care. I'd wonder what made them insult me in the first place and if it is justified. In rare cases, I'd ask them to "Fuck off."
I'd definitely feel good and compliment them back if I knew how to or what to say. I don't like untruthful flattery. People say I blush. What the fuck? I like pleasing people I like.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
I'm thankful for those things I have taken for granted. My parents being okay-ish with how unconventional and difficult I am.
Will-power, focus, perseverance, etc. Self explanatory. I want to complete things that I start, and actually start things, too.