Nottie,
Thank you :] Your reply made me smile. Actually I mailed him a my little pony figurine in the mail (he loves it), and he got it and was so happy. His mom told him, "You have such a good friend." Sometimes I think that I'm just being weird or creepy (as being labeled this at my school), but when people say things like this it reminds me I'm not.
When we hung out in person for the first time, we were alone (very bad decision.) We were both so awkward and uncomfortable. I think partly from being nervous, and he said just being around me makes him uncomfortable. I don't quite understand this, but it's a really bad thing. I've been trying to fix this ever since. I REALLY need to fix this. A big problem is that he hardly ever says how he's feeling or what he's thinking. But we talk almost every day, and he has stated that he wants to be friends with me. It's quite a mess, actually. However the thing is my favorite person in the whole world to be around is a female ENFP. At first I thought it was just her, and then I met someone else and I realized how much I loved being around them, and they adored me, and then I asked a few questions and figured out they were also an ENFP. So I know that me and him could get along together really well.
My friend is actually a bit younger than me, he's transitioning into high school right now. He's a freshman, I'm going to be a senior. He's told me certain things about himself, but nothing too drastic has happened in his life.
However he's constantly changing and contradicting himself. At first I thought this was immaturity but then realized that he's an ENFP and also an aquarius -_- perfect.
He holds VERY high standards for friends, and sometimes people don't like him because of that. Actually, most people don't. I'm his friend and have been nothing but caring towards him (even though he has hurt me a lot because of his indecisiveness). I don't understand why the reason people may not like him is in his control, so why doesn't he just change it?
And if I do one thing wrong, he considers not being friends with me anymore.
I want to do things right now, and get him to trust me a bit more. I wish there was something I could just say to him to let him know I understand.
Also I don't think it's one thing that's bothering him. I want to be able to affect him, all the way around. I want him to see what he really is, and not beat himself up so much sometimes.
He said he's not sure about his feelings much as ever. "I don't know, 50 masks or so are in the way."
I don't understand what there is to be afraid of. I'm such an open person and tell my friends everything. I was actually really surprised at how accepting he was compared to other people. I am so accepting, he could tell me anything and it'd be okay.
Oh, and wait! Actually yes!
He told me his darkest, deepest secret. He was so hesitant to also. He left me guessing and then I finally figured it out. I told him, "You know, it's okay. I understand, you shouldn't worry about something like that."
And then he said, "Where have you been all my life?" I think I freed him of some guilt.
"Looking for you."
"Then I'm lucky."
After the first few days of talking to him, he told me, "You know it's funny. I feel closer to you than friends I've known for so much longer."
But his indecisiveness wore off, and his infatuation with me is no more.
He seems uncomfortable that I like him at all, really. But he used to like me back.
I don't understand.