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It was in the fourth grade. A few of my classmates, myself included, were leaving the school, so my teacher decided we should go around and have a little farewell circle, and allow everyone to share something they liked/would miss about us. I had a bit of an unofficial falling out with most of friends. I don't remember what they said they would miss about me, but it must've not been all that special. But I do remember what this one kid said about me, and we weren't even friends. We weren't not friends, but we also weren't close. He was kind of the class clown and I didn't expect much. He recalled a memory of me sitting at lunch with my friends and laughing and basically said,' that's what I'll miss or remember about Princess and the INFP the most'. I dunno why that touched me so much. I was feeling really depressed, again because of those aforementioned reasons, and I didn't have the best home life, so I was often this depressed, sensitive, taciturn kid(my father is a narcissist), but I guess when he mentioned me laughing, it reminded me how joyful I could be, and how joyful life could be, and all of these qualities about myself that I think people miss or don't see in me, even my own friends. I wish I could back and tell that little ENFP how much he warmed my heart. I don't know if any other INFPs agree, but when someone notices my special qualities, it makes me feel so warm and fuzzy inside. Like I can fly, or something. That's why I think ENFPs are so special. They have no filter, but they always want to encourage good vibes. They'll tease you in one moment and then make you feel like royalty in the next. And I definitely value comments directed at my looks because I feel kind of insecure about them. I am a very awkward person and while I think I'm personally feminine, I don't obsess over makeup and fads like other girls. I don't judge girls who do, it's just for me personally, the whole caked on makeup look gives me anxiety and feels disgenuine. I like how I look with just some lip gloss and mascara and a cute top and some jeans. And even though I like myself, there are some things about my body that I think some or even most people would consider flaws(my gummy smile, for instance) so when someone says something about my appearance is beautiful(and this pertains to style too. I am a dangly earrings girl) I do feel good. I wish it happened more.