"this begins to strike him only when he discovers that his sensations are totally different from reality. If he has any aptitude for objective reason, he will sense this difference as morbid; but if he remains faithful to his irrationality, and is ready to grant his sensations reality value, the objective world will appear a mere make-believe and a comedy."The OP reminds me of this:
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Arthur Fleck is typed as SiFi (ISFP) in Jungian types. Maybe some people could relate and understand why he said so.
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