I do have conversations and lots of secenarios with people in my mind. I'm very often contemplating making a big impact on the world, or on someone, being a famous novelist, becomning an actress, making movies, on the interpersonal front, romantic scenarios, or imagining myself in a victim possition and someone saving me/becoming connected to them/possibly saving them and then them saving me. I have...technical thoughts...not sure how to phrase it, like getting down to the root of something (Though 'getting to the root of' feels wrong, it's working through it to find satisfaction in my 'feel' for it I guess), weird inconsequential things like how best to tie up a series of wires so that none go in the same direction, or how a U-bend works, or imagining how the bits in a house I can't see fit together/are, which maybe turns into the fantastical. This 'techincal' thinking is kind've automatic to me, and very visual, kind've relaxing, because it's sort've away from the world, and away from the intensity of some of my own wmind when I get into it/it happens. I like to understand how things work in a general sense, everything from people, to things like literature and religion, to science and the universe, and past the universe. I will think about these things in a one track focused way mostly - one issue at a time, and only as and when they come up.
The thoughts more at the start are more scenarios which bring me a particular emotion - very 4ish - I return to particular scenarios are feelings to probably a somewhat unhealthy degree, it's like I want to consume/become merged with this emotion/make it my forever womb of sorts (a womb around me), at the sacrafice of experiencing real life. It can be a distraction of my own pain - I often won't realise something's not right in my own feelings, but will feel restless about not being able to get to that place, whatever the particular place is. I find I am rather less capable of socialising with people/dealing with other situations if I get into the clung to, comfortable safe zone/headspace, sometimes outside reality/the people in it can feel a little otherworldly if I get caught up in the other bubble/safe world. I've had the same mp3player since I was 15 through not wanting to get rid of this one, as it is not possible to put the tracks onto another mp3 player/ipod, but even if that wasn't the casel I definately relate to getting obsessive about particular songs.
I also ruminated alot about interections, and worry/negatively forecast future interactions.