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You made my day@Llyralen
Only "Psychological Types" I think can be meaningfully applied as it attempts to explain psyche.
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You made my day@Llyralen
Only "Psychological Types" I think can be meaningfully applied as it attempts to explain psyche.
Care to explain what is so funny in that? I wanna laugh too.You made my day
thanks
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the idea that a book is the only one that can explain something.Care to explain what is so funny in that? I wanna laugh too.
So, in other words, you failed to understand the context and ended up laughing at the idea of your own making, I see.the idea that a book is the only one that can explain something.
ok, I will probably add as I become aware of other stuff. And go back to answer the questions more directly. But I will give you some of my own observations…bc I’m very introspective.Yes, please! Because I very much want to hear about your experience!
I have a ton of questions, I hope you don’t mind.ok, I will probably add as I become aware of other stuff. And go back to answer the questions more directly. But I will give you some of my own observations…bc I’m very introspective.
so, i do have thoughts but not in words. No inner voice. I can hear music in my head, tho, not singing but can hear a tune in my head…and that’s as close to an inner sound I have.
I prefer to listen to music with no singing…and I always have music on.
I see my thoughts/feelings or feel my feelings/thoughts.
bc I can’t just reason/analysis with myself unless I’m in a safe place where no one can hear me or see me…I tend to have a very low tolerance of fear. I can’t stay in fear mode very long. Bc I can only FEEL the fear. I can’t talk myself down, etc…and it will just get stronger until I can’t stand the feeling of it….it very intense. So, I react fairly intensely When fear/danger is present…not suspicions…Now suspicions comes in feeling too. ( something thru actually sounds in other ppl’s voices)…I actually reply to this post already, like on the first page, and I did describe the sound/gut instinct stuff…I don’t know how detail I went…but I can detect sounds/tone in ppl voices a lot of time, kinda like body language but with tones…it’s funny I have great almost phenomenal hearing but no inner voice.
Anyway, when I get the feeling of suspicions it’s not something I react to, just keep my eye on them and become very aware of my emotions surrounding that moment and how my physical body reacts, cues something is wrong….which I notice ppl notice I do that (they notice that I notices them) and when ppl think im “on to them” they back off. Like once i was on vacation and I kept getting this very uncomfortable feeling, (usually feel it physically in my hands first, then my heart beat) and then I noticed this guy taken interest in me and my dad like I would catch him staring at us, always staying a little ways behind us, following us and I just knew he was going to try and rob us…we kept slightly making eye contact but I couldn’t stand it anymore and turn around and stared him down ….my dad was completely oblivious until he started to realize i was being “strange”..realized that I kept looking behind us and I would start to turn down streets opposite to where we were going…walking, to see if this guy was really following us. As my dad was starting to see I was getting visibly upset, walking fast, breathing harder…I finally couldn’t stand it and I turn around and look straight at the guy, facing him with my whole body and just stared at him..then my dad turn around and look to see who I was staring at and then the guy and my dad saw each other, connect, and he just left…I didn’t stop staring at him until he was completely out of sight. Other ppl on the sidewalk (very tourist) we’re walking around me, I could feel my dad tugging me, but I wouldn’t move, just stared until he was completely gone. I do, scary things like that, all the time. I’m not a brave person or physically scary. I can only handle so much fear bc of how much I feel it, I have to face it, if I can’t immediately get away. There’s no thinking about it
also, bc I do feel more than others, I believe, bc I don’t have the inner ear…I feel I have a very good understanding of feelings/emotions…..I can pin point my feelings very well…like you can think in your head. It’s naturally for me to think in feeling. I’m very self aware and self control, even emotionally or especially emotionally.
just imagine every thought you had (where you hear your inner voice like reading this sentence to yourself) you must say out loud.
imagine:
if a little kid at the grocery store runs right into you and you drop a bottle of wine…and it goes crashes onto the floor and stains your clothes….for me, I feel the emotion not talk to myself about this kid and what they did. I feel it… I don’t think in my head “you little shit”… if I do I have to said it out loud ..or mumble to myself, but I have to always know or keep my thought/feelings/emotion in check bc I don’t want to cuss at a little kid…even if they are a little ____still just a kid. So, I always have to be aware of myself which may of cause me to be very self control and aware of my moods, when possible…unless it’s fear, definite fear I react.
also, with emotions sometimes I don’t know my immediate feelings like listening to someone, I purely listen…so for example if they are saying something I find upsetting it won’t hit me until my body reacts…not until I physically start to feel it. I will suddenly feel a reaction and I won’t know why….Like I will suddenly notices my hands are shaking or my heart is beating really fast, …..I have these things I called “checkpoints” to get me on track, you start to see lots of patterns in everything …so the checkpoints help. So, when I start to feel these things…I have to go thru my checklist…I understand what, why my body is reacting…what am I reacting to followed by why am I reacting to….it doesn’t come on words…but a picture of a checklist with words on it or symbols.
also, if I do have dialog with myself, I must be alone bc I don’t want others to hear all my thoughts sometimes I don’t want to know them either. But I’m very guarded with my personal space. I don’t like living around others, even family. I just feel I have strange habits like talking to myself.
like I said I will try to answer the questions more directly, but if there is anything certain you like to know, just ask
I must read sentences out loud. Kinda mumble to myself. I see the images in my head. Also I got like this automatic “emotion” set to every word. Meaning every word has an emotion tied to it.1. what happens when you’re reading? For instance, reading dialogue? Reading that there was a band playing?
yes and no. I’m dyslexic so it’s all hard.2. Does writing help you?
Yes, but not until way later, but they knew I was dyslexicDoes your family know this about you?