Hi there everyone, not too long ago I found out that I have schizotypal personality disorder through research. I had an incident were I ignored people even though I had the will to try and talk to them. Schizotypal is a personality disorder that characterizes someone who is odd and uncomfortable in social situations due to the extreme social anxiety, and they feel like they have the need to isolate myself. In other words… they feel as though isolation is air and socializing with others would be suffocating (and they are delusional too but saying this would put me off track).
Despite the fact that I feel the need to isolate myself, it doesn't mean that I actually want to. I still want to be able to make friends, but every time I try to I always find myself trying to run or hide. Yes I'm aware that the reason why I'm scared or uncomfortable talking to people is because I'm afraid of rejection and/or embarrassment, but I think the real reason why I have the need to isolate myself is because I don't see any reason why friendship (or just talking to people) that is worth the risk. I only think of friendship as a material thing. Like friends were money and the more you have, the richer and better you seem as a person, but I only think of friends this way because I've never made any real ones.
Note: The only time when I'm not uncomfortable in a social situation, is when I'm flirting with a guy (or talk to my close family members). This is how I knew that the reason why I can't make friends or talk to anyone.
Are friends really like money and the way my family describes friendship is an over statement?:dry:
Over all… can anyone tell me why talking to people and forming friendships is worth risking rejection and/or embarrassment?
Despite the fact that I feel the need to isolate myself, it doesn't mean that I actually want to. I still want to be able to make friends, but every time I try to I always find myself trying to run or hide. Yes I'm aware that the reason why I'm scared or uncomfortable talking to people is because I'm afraid of rejection and/or embarrassment, but I think the real reason why I have the need to isolate myself is because I don't see any reason why friendship (or just talking to people) that is worth the risk. I only think of friendship as a material thing. Like friends were money and the more you have, the richer and better you seem as a person, but I only think of friends this way because I've never made any real ones.
Note: The only time when I'm not uncomfortable in a social situation, is when I'm flirting with a guy (or talk to my close family members). This is how I knew that the reason why I can't make friends or talk to anyone.
Are friends really like money and the way my family describes friendship is an over statement?:dry:
Over all… can anyone tell me why talking to people and forming friendships is worth risking rejection and/or embarrassment?