I live your frustration--though I'm not an altruist, rather an activist, and struggle to make our country a better place. At times it saddens me that my way of approaching the world, through compassion, empathy and love, often is seen as a sign of weakness, and I find myself taken advantage of both in my personal and activist life.I just don't understand why INFP's are here. I'm one, and life is extremely difficult. Every single altruistic thing I try to do is met with blank, cold, unempathsizing stares. Plus, I read somewhere how supposedly INFP's are defenders of the realm, white warriors or something that stand up for what is right. Well if that is the case, and we're assuming there is a God why doesn't God or the universe or the force make things a little bit easier for INFP's? I mean if we're already doing altruistic things that should be done, why so much resistance on the part of the Universe? Sorry I'm venting a bit.
I ask God the same questions you do. I don't know if there is a God, and why God would make me so intelligent but able to feel so deeply. Nowadays I am at a truce with God, but I have spent a lot of time being very angry with God for making me the way I am. I think I may have finally moved past loathing myself, but when will I learn to love myself?