I get in these really numb moods, or...something, and I cause arguments with those closest to me on purpose, and I have no idea why. In those moments, I don't care about anything. I just become really blunt and cold towards someone so suddenly. Sometimes there's reason for it, but most of the time the smallest thing can tick me off, or nothing I can consciously pin-point can cause the mood. I say hurtful things to people important to me. Then, it's like I can't admit when I've done wrong, or apologise for acting so irrationally. I've lost a lot of friendships due to this, but I force myself to believe that it wasn't my fault and that the friendship wasn't meant to be anyway if they didn't fight for it (blaming the other person is another bad trait). Anyone have any ideas why this may be? I'm not sure if it comes down to my personality type (I'm an INFJ), or if I just have serious underlying issues...which is probably more so the case. I am not a bad person, I just seem to have a few bad traits. Can anyone relate to this, or have any advice?