Wish I was never born, so others wouldn't have to worry about me, or suffer because of the things I can't seem to do for myself. People ask why I am always so distant, the reason is because I don't want to drag someone into my life so I can some how ruin there's. People seem to think I am being selfish when I "put up a wall" but the walls not for me, its for them. I feel like if i let someone in its going to cause them more pain and stress then is worth. And for the people I have let in and see my feelings, it didn't makes things better for me or for them. I don't know if it's just me or if it's them, but I'd rather just stop existing and not have to deal with hurting people any more, or having others even worry about me.