Don't spend time re-hashing over and over what you felt you did wrong (easier said than done I know). Instead, look forward and see all the new possibilities you have to do the right thing. It's kind of exciting in a way because you have a whole different perspective open to you to explore. I have this weird thing I do when self-defeating thoughts plague me. In my mind I say, "hushhhhh" dragging out the "shhhh" until my mind goes blank. Then I think about something positive.
I don't know anything about politics but I did have my own conflict similar to this. I grew up a christian. I was still young enough to go to Sunday school when I started asking people questions that they couldn't answer. "How can God love us and still throw us to the pit of hell for minor infractions?", "Why is God a guy in the sky not a woman?", "If people wrote the bible how can we be so sure it's true?". Yeah, the adults didn't appreciate that very much. As I grew up, I noticed things I didn't like about this whole christian deal. Why is the pastor driving a Mercedes when he doesn't have a job? Why are women flirting with the pastor and talking bad about each other? Why did the pastor say everyone MUST contribute $100 next Sunday? Why are people clapping for that? LOL! It led me to believe that these people are either faking Christianity or they are brainwashed. Either way, I knew that was something I didn't want any part of. I got out. I started teaching my children about the spiritual side without all of the bull they try and scare you with. It never occurred to me that I may be wrong. I'm certain that this is what's right for me.
It looks like your certain about what you don't believe in anymore. So now the fun begins in exploring and finding what you DO believe in.
I don't know anything about politics but I did have my own conflict similar to this. I grew up a christian. I was still young enough to go to Sunday school when I started asking people questions that they couldn't answer. "How can God love us and still throw us to the pit of hell for minor infractions?", "Why is God a guy in the sky not a woman?", "If people wrote the bible how can we be so sure it's true?". Yeah, the adults didn't appreciate that very much. As I grew up, I noticed things I didn't like about this whole christian deal. Why is the pastor driving a Mercedes when he doesn't have a job? Why are women flirting with the pastor and talking bad about each other? Why did the pastor say everyone MUST contribute $100 next Sunday? Why are people clapping for that? LOL! It led me to believe that these people are either faking Christianity or they are brainwashed. Either way, I knew that was something I didn't want any part of. I got out. I started teaching my children about the spiritual side without all of the bull they try and scare you with. It never occurred to me that I may be wrong. I'm certain that this is what's right for me.
It looks like your certain about what you don't believe in anymore. So now the fun begins in exploring and finding what you DO believe in.
