1. What do you think your life is about? What drives you in life? This can be something like a goal or a purpose, or anything else that comes to mind.
I think that my life is unimportant as long as I can't prolong it in some way. My goal is to explain the unexplained and discover the unknown, in other words, to fully understand how the universe works. Learning and gaining more knowledge about the world drives me in life.
2. What were you like as a kid?
As a kid I was very quiet, you could say I was shy, but I generally didn't like to talk to other children simply because I thought they where inferior and immature.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents. Does anything stand out about the way you interacted?
My mother is very annoying to me, I do not like her at all except that she supports me as her child. I have no comment on my father, he did not interact with my life in any impactful ways. I like my privacy and to live in piece, my mother ruins this with her paranoia that I'm doing something potentially bad.
4. What values are important to you? What do you hope to avoid doing or being?
I only value my existence and people who are very important to me. I hope to avoid hurting those who are very important to me and to avoid causing myself to go into a dead end.
5. Aside from phobias, are there any fears that characterized your childhood? Have they continued into the present day, or not, and if not, how have you dealt with them?
I fear things that are unknown and that I cannot understand.
6. a.) How do you see yourself?
I see myself as distant, generally cold-hearted, and different from what is considered normal. I try to differentiate myself to give me a sense of special existence and to not be common.
b.) How do you want others to see you?
I want others to see me as a capable person who shouldn't be questioned on topics I am well knowledgeable on. I want other people to see me as smarter and better than them when it comes to knowledge and wisdom. I want close friends or people who I love to see me as a loving and caring person who constantly looks out for their future.
c.) What do you dislike the most in other people?
I dislike how people who are important to me forget important things such as promises, ideas and me. I dislike regular people how they are lazy, incapable and helpless on their own.
7. Which habit do you most automatically act on? Rank the following habits from most to least automatic, on a scale of 1 (most) to 3 (least).
a.) Work for personal gain with more concern for self than for others.
b.) Strive for a sense of tranquility in yourself and the world around you
c.) Decide what is right for the betterment of something or someone else.
8. Where does the wandering mind take you? What provokes you?
The wandering mind takes me into the vast world of possibilities where the walls and ceiling of reality do not exist. I am provoked by ignorance, wastefulness, inefficiency and those who deliberately provoke me physically.
9.What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel best when I know everything about the current situation and am in control. I feel worst when I have no information, plans or when there is no consistency.
10. Let's talk about emotions. Explain what might make you feel the following, how they feel to you or how you react to the emotion:
People who I do not like and cannot avoid or ignore. I do not like people when they are useless and cannot change.
Failure. When I fail because of myself I feel ashamed.
Not having all of the information that I need makes me anxious.
11. Describe how you respond to the following:
I generally don't notice it, although when it is fast paced, I tend to freeze up or feel nervous.
b.) negative unexpected change
Saw it coming, I generally expect them.
If it doesn't involve me, I'll just watch. If it does, I'll play along for laughs and giggles.
12. a.) What kind of role are you naturally inclined to take in a group? Why?
I can take a leader position best, since I'd prefer not to work under an incompetent leader. If they are better then me, then I am okay with following.
b.) If put in power, how do you behave? Why?
I behave the same way I do with myself. I try to make everything efficient and sacrifice unnecessary things. Everyone needs to follow orders exactly as they are given, and if anyone has any questions and advice, it better be good questions and advice and not a waste of my time.
c.) Do you tend to struggle with others who have authority over you? Why?
Yes, if the authority is incompetent and cannot complete their duty then they are not fit to lead or have authority. If they are capable and know what they are doing, then I am fine with authority.
13. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
I notice weakness, inability to think properly, and laziness.
14. Comment on your relationship with trust.
Trust has to be achieved at 100%. 99% is not good enough and I must be thinking on the same lines as the other person, as they should in return. If trust is broken, it may never be repaired, although it will be forgiven.
15. Briefly: What religious and/or political beliefs do you have? Do you think they influenced your responses in this questionnaire?
I do not have any religious beliefs, I cannot believe in something that does not have undeniable proof that can be studied. I am not a very political person since politics is generally a game where nothing gets done and goes through a long process of opinion, arguments and bribery. So no, no religious beliefs influenced me, although my way of thinking about politics may have.