Hi there! I am fairly new to the enneagram and I am having some real struggles with typing myself. I've known from the first time I read about it that I am either a 5w4 or a 4w5. I am a very solid INFP, if that helps anything. Here are my thoughts currently:
Looking at myself, I display a whole lot of the characteristics of a 4 outwardly. I am artsy and individualistic. However, I really struggle with the "emotional" aspect of a 4. I am not an emotional person, but I do feel deeply. I am not dramatic and I certainly do not make feelings based on emotion. Until taking the enneagram, I had often described myself as someone who feels deeply, but suppresses my emotions and has to think them through. I am minimalistic as well, which 4's don't tend to be. However, I don't think I come off as "aloof" as 5's often do. Like a 4, I am incredibly introspective, eloquent with words, and always seeking the deeper meaning of myself and life.
I had somewhat settled on being a 4w5, but still was unsure enough to take the RHETI, which typed me as scoring a 25 for 5 and 17 for 4. So now, I am all kinds of baffled.
Does anyone have any insight?