I've been trying to figure out my Enneagram type for a a while, read Helen Palmer's book, read plenty of things on the Internet, took a few tests, but still have no idea, and am also still quite unclear on how the system works, so I thought I'd give a questionnaire here a try. Honestly, I don't know why I've had such a hard time typing myself in this system- I think I am a pretty self aware and healthy person, but every time I come close to feeling identified to a type, I feel like a lot of ego-judgement is getting in my way. So anyway, thank you so much to those who are familiar with this system and hang out to share their insight. It is truly appreciated!
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I am driven by a desire for self-actualization and look for meaningful relationships and opportunities to grow as a person and do good in the world. Self-actualization means doing things that feed my soul, give my life meaning, and allow me to relate to the world as my most honest, true, and deep self. I feel like developing my skills, interests, hobbies and communication for the benefit of self-actualization bring wonderful relationships and meaning to my life.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
I hope to connect deeply to the communities I am a part of and to make a difference in the world around me. I hope to find meaning and spiritual fulfillment from the world. I hope one day to be an amazing mother.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I hope to avoid walking lightly on this earth or living in a shallow way. I want to avoid being unthinking, uncaring, and unimportant, in that order. I want to experience all of life that there is to experience. I value my politics, social justice, my community, the rights and well being of those around me, basic respect and human dignity, and I value the natural environment.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
I have a really hard time identifying fears. On occasion I fear being alone, but then prefer time to myself overall. I suppose I fear being misunderstood, and I fear hurting others unintentionally. I have a tiny bit of social anxiety in large group situations. I fear not recovering from damage or being permanently damaged by others
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
I want others to see me as interesting, clever and intelligent, funny, compassionate, and very authentic. I've also realized that it is important to me that people find me attractive. I see myself as a deep, honest, and caring human being, with a great capacity for joy and a fair amount of melancholy.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
Honestly, I feel my best when I am fully and completely in touch and in sync with my body. I have some minor GI problems, and undiagnosed pain/illness that is quite honestly very unsettling and makes it hard for me to focus on the metaphysical aspects of this question. This doesn't affect me often, but even when I haven't had an attack recently, sometimes I'm just so thankful when I'm not sick or feeling bad to not be feeling bad.
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
a) anger- I avoid conflict at almost any cost, and rarely get angry, though I can get annoyed at people. Seeing other people hurt someone or make someone feel bad is the only sure way to get me angry, and my focus will still be on protecting the hurt party rather than revenge.
b) shame- I have very strong and stuck memories of social/intellectual/personal mistakes I've made in the past. I know logically that most of them are small and no one else involved remembers or thinks of them, but little things like that haunt me. I hate screwing up, saying the wrong thing, the wrong answer, looking stupid, or being accidentally inconsiderate.
c)anxiety- Sometimes social situations with lots of new people make me a bit anxious. I tend to think a lot about things, but I don't consider it worrying or anxiety.
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
a)stress- Life doesn't tend to stress I'm good at dealing with work, was good at dealing with school stress, etc. Feeling like I'm not fulfilling my purpose, I'm not on track, I'm not doing right by myself or by the world can stress me out.
b)unexpected change- I am quite flexible and go with the flow about spontaneous changes to plans/what I'm doing at the moment. Big changes, I tend to face them head on and deal with it.
c) conflict-I avoid conflict as much as I can. See my answer to anger above. I do confront behavior I find inappropriate, disrespectful, or oppressive (street harassment, racist/sexist/homophobic language, etc), but only when I feel safe and supported, or can get away quickly.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
a) authority- if I believe it is just or right I will respect it. If not, I won't- I will disregard it and do what I want/think, or if I think it is hurting other people, I will actively fight against it.
b) power- I do not like it when people try to exert unjust power over other people or over me. I am a strong believer in equality-- just because someone is stronger, can talk louder or has more money doesn't mean they're right.
I tend to ignore or disengage from power structures or systems that I do not like, though I deeply respect my elders, wisdom, and the knowledge of past generations.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
I think people are fundamentally good but that there is a lot of evil in the world. I believe in standing up for the underdog, and don't believe that people should make moral decisions on the behalf of other people-- I think all creatures deserve to thrive and live out themselves most fully.
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I trust individuals rather easily and tend to see the good in people. Once my trust is broken, it is very hard for me to restore it.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
I like that I am open-minded and into things that are weird/different/unique. I don't like that I come off as judgemental to people who are in the "mainstream." I like that people think I am super nice, but I do not like feeling taken advantage of. I like the way I look and my skills and the world I cultivate around myself- I think it is interesting and fun and playful and gets at deep parts of people. I like that most of my relationships are deep, one on one relationships, but I dislike feeling ill at ease in large groups and not identifying well with my family or other groups. I also dislike that I feel as if much of what I wrote in this section and the whole questionnaire is contradictory...
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
I notice others' emotions, desires, and thoughts without them talking. I tend to notice beautiful and sad things, and to look more closely into them that others seem comfortable with doing themselves.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
I hate it when people talk to me on the street, regardless if it is an insult or compliment, most of the time it is just street harassment. Sometimes I have great interactions with strangers, and I enjoy those brief human touchings. If a stranger insulted me I would probably be more upset by it than I would let on, depending on how deep the insult cut me.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
I am so thankful for my loved ones and the communities I have and am in. I wish I could have more of a sense of unity and purpose in my life at the moment. I am just starting out my career, and do not feel very fulfilled by it.
This questionnaire was designed and written by @Spades , @Paradigm , and @Boss , with the help of @Owfin , @madhatter , @listentothemountains , and others.