I'm pretty certain I am core 9. I relate strongly to the integration and disintegration points, I'm easygoing and conflict avoidant. But tritype is tough. People have suggested 974/794, 962/296, 963, 973, and 964 for me, but I just can't pin one down. I like being unique like a 4 but don't like melancholy. I relate to lots of 6 things but mostly negative ones. It's confusing, help!
1. How would an author describe you in a book? Write the paragraph that would introduce you in a novel.
This curly haired girl was said to march to the beat of her own drum. She loves putting her own creative twists on everything, she likes anything wacky and unique. She quite literally marches too, putting on her headphones and getting lost in her own fantasy world. She's on the quiet side, but give her a chance, and you'll find a gentle heart and a secret goofball. She enjoys good food and drink, road trips, time with animals, and art of all kinds.
2. Think over the past day or week and make a mental list (you can also write it here) of ways other people have annoyed, angered, or otherwise bothered you - any situation where people have done one thing, while you wished they would have done another. Look at each of these instances and answer (you can make a list or make note of general patterns - an example is good):
a. How would I characterize the trait that bothered me?
Being left out
b. Why did it bother me?
I want to be able to do more, and that was an opportunity to do so
c. How did I react?
Inside: Feeling lonely, sad, also worried about being ungrateful.
d. How do I wish I would have reacted?
Honestly I don't, cause there was a surprise afterwards
e. If there was a discrepancy between c. and d., why did it come up?
Doesn't seem like there was
3. What holds you back in life? This can be an internal or external force. If that thing were gone, what would be different? What would you do?
No sense of belonging, I think. Like I don't want to blend in, but I've never felt like I've quite belonged anywhere. I'm the ultimate 3rd wheel. If I had more steady relationships in my life, I'd just feel confident. Ready to express myself, ready to share what I have to offer. I've also unassertive and don't ask for help much. I usually try to help myself.
4. Your deepest secret has just been revealed to the person or people from whom you most wished to keep it. How do you feel? How do you react? What are the results on your life?
Broken, fearful that I will be rejected and judged, wanting to isolate myself, feeling remorseful and lost.
5. You are offered one of three gifts: a bottle filled with water from the Fountain of Life, a crown which will give you peaceful dominion over the world's people for your entire (full) lifetime, and a ring which will unite you with your true love and ensure a happy, passionate marriage. Which do you choose and why? What are your hesitations and motivations?
Ruler. This was tricky, cause I'm not much of a leader in general. I'm not super large and in charge. But it's a peaceful dominion, I'll probably be rich, and I'll get to make a difference in my world. More equality, getting rid of hunger. The fountain was also appealing because I'd get to see technology and science evolve. But think about it; what happens when everyone goes extinct and there's hardly anything to do? Wandering around in space might be fun, but will I assimilate into alien culture? Love is good, but it's much easier to find love than to become a ruler or become immortal.
6. You are offered one of three houses. The first is located in a big city and has historic and artistic value: it was designed by a great architect and was owned by interesting people in the past. Owning this house is very prestigious and guarantees you social status and a circle of friends, but it also comes with responsibility - you must keep the house up to code, manage the household, and give parties and events. The second house you may design using your imagination - literally your dream house - it is located in a very secluded location and no one is allowed to visit this house except you and your immediate family. The third house is very nice, but has no particular aesthetic appeal - a McMansion in short. It is in an extremely convenient location and is very secure. It is impossible for thieves to break in and it has no danger of natural disasters. You are guaranteed to be able to sell the house for double the price in twenty years. Which do you choose and why? What are your hesitations and motivations?
McMansion. In theory, I could paint it, right? Would be cheap enough. But yeah, it would be nice to have lots of money when I can sell it, and I just like feeling safe. The first one interested me because I am a history buff, but I'm not a party person. Second one I almost chose because it would be really cool creating something with my own imagination. But the seclusion, ehhh. It sounds quiet and peaceful, but a bit impractical if I want to travel or something. I don't mind too much that only family's only coming over though. Would be nice to have a friend over, but I can visit them.
7. You are offered one of three doors. The first opens to a world that is dangerous and demands mental or physical skill to navigate through, but also has great rewards to be gained: think of the worlds portrayed on the shows Game of Thrones or Supernatural. The second opens to a world that is full of wonders, magic, and knowledge, which can be learned or experienced, but there is little solid resting ground - think of the worlds portrayed in the shows Doctor Who or in the multi-media phenomenon A Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. The third opens to a world where you may experience a life of peaceful, uneventful poverty - think of the hobbits in the series Lord of the Rings or most of the animals living in Narnia. Which do you choose and why? What are your hesitations and motivations?
Probably the second one. As long as I get to go to bed at night, I don't mind being active. I'm very curious and would love to see what sort of knowledge this world has to share. Plus, it's just really neat being able to experience magic. The first one, I am not physically skilled in the first place, and it's just dangerous. Sure there are rewards, but idk what kind. Is it worth it? The third one I almost chose, it sounds cozy. The whole fantasy aesthetic is beautiful and peaceful. But, it's simply uneventful.
8. What do you wish people understood about you? Talk about a time you were misunderstood.
I feel that way a lot. People just don't seem to look beyond my quietness. I'm seen as unopinionated, and while I often think in gray, if I'm passionate about something, I have lots of opinions. I have lots of ideas! I don't show my feelings a lot, so people often assume I'm ok. I've got a lot going on inside!
9. What do you hope people won't notice about you? What are you uncomfortable being teased about?
While I like knowledge, I'm quite scatterbrained. My memory is good long term but not short- term. My attention span is short and I am easily distracted. I don't like being seen as incompetent.
10. What's worse - to be seen as caring more than you do or less than you do? Why? Do you think you come across one way or the other? Do you typically pretend to care more or to care less?
I lean towards the latter. Yes, I do pretend to care less a lot. I don't want to get riled up over and argue about silly things. But generally, I do care. I want my feelings to be acknowledged more.
11. Think about a time that someone else tried to control your actions - to tell you what to do, to manipulate you, or influence you. How did you feel and how did you react? What went through your mind?
"I can try this by myself thank you. Please don't criticize me, I'm just trying out my own thing."
12. When you first meet someone, what are your first thoughts? What judgments do you make and what kinds of considerations do you have? Are you more concerned with what they think of you or what you think of them? If you are preparing to meet someone new, what do you hope about them and what do you fear about them?
I guess it depends on the person, but usually it's along the lines of, "What do this person and I have in common? What interests do they have? What's their background(like where they are from?)". I am often nervous around strangers, but I try to be polite. When I'm fearful, it's because I worry they'll be too touchy/mushy or disloyal.
13. Think about the last time you cried (if you've recently lost a loved one or gone through another similarly difficult experience, you can go back further and choose a random instance). What caused this? Who was around? Were you crying out of sadness, joy, frustration, or some other factor? How did you feel afterwards? Did it change anything? Is this typical for you?
Sad shows! I am an empathetic person. Probably corny, but yeah, I can't help but cry at people getting hurt. Even if I see people in real life just arguing, well, it just makes me sad! I'll imagine the same thing happening to myself. I usually try to avoid these though
14. Think about the last time you felt really happy, joyful, or satisfied. What caused this feeling? What was different? What keeps you from feeling this way all the time?
The last time I went out with my 2 best friends. I just felt appreciated and had lots of fun doing a variety of things. From eating Denny's to checking out silly Barnes and Noble books. What keeps me feeling this way? I just don't have the opportunity to get out much. Yeah, I like Netflix and gaming, but I'm happiest getting out and exploring.
15. If you were a tragic hero, what would be your fatal flaw? If you were a character in a comedy, what would be your distinguishing trait (i.e. stingy with money, fastidious, shallow, pretentious, etc.) Do you think others would agree with these?
I feel like this one can go either way: I'm super indecisive! People would agree because they've said it! Sometimes I'm just getting ice cream and want to try everything because I'm not picky. I find myself accommodating others, and I just see so many possibilities, good or bad.
16. Think over the past day or week and make a mental list (you can also write it here) of ways that you have done badly - by yourself, by others, etc. - any time that you have done something, and wish you would have done better. How would you characterize these instances? What caused you to fail and what was your reaction? Are you more likely to be hard on yourself or to find excuses for yourself?
It's a mix of both. I feel hard on myself but find excuses to make me feel better. But then I remember they're excuses and go back to feeling bad again. I think what caused me to fail lately is trying to deal with problems by myself too much and barely reaching out to anyone. I'm also very disorganized. I was not proud of myself and I didn't think I was living up to my potential.
17. a. Imagine meeting an evil version of yourself - your 'dark side' - and describe this person.
Vengeful, getting crafty and sneaky. Temperamental, ready to snap at any moment. Fearful to the point of paranoia, highly suspicious of people and isolating myself.
b. Describe your ideal self.
Being able to share my creative, innovative visions. Kinda famous; don't want to be swamped with too much attention, but becoming an entrepeneur, selling a book, or just having a famous blog would be nice. Being full of energy and inspiration. Respected, confident, and just overall at peace and happy.
18. What is your experience with and how do you deal with the following:
a. loneliness: I feel lonely a lot. Alone time is very refreshing, but I also feel lonely by having trouble relating to people. My interests are so varied that I've rarely had a group. I might almost fit in a clique, but lack a certain trait. But eh, it's nicer to have a couple close friends than a big group. And there's the third wheel thing.
b. doubt: I have this weird conflict with optimism and pessimism. I'm usually the one to see the best in situations, the best in people. But, I'm often suspicious of peoples' actions and have the worst case scenario in the back of my head. I have a bunch of self doubt too.
c. boredom: I get bored easily unfortunately, whether that's being tired of routine or soaking up a subject and dropping it almost cold.
d. laziness: Check out my sins
e. temper-Something you don't see. I get angry a fair amount, but I don't like expressing it, at least to the person I'm getting angry at. Don't like making them feel bad, and I don't want to argue. Even if I'm not telling anyone, I don't think anyone sees it? Unless you notice me pacing around angrily. It's mostly annoyance, but also people being obnoxious, controlling, misunderstanding me, and hurting others. I don't remember the last time I blew up at a person though. I calm myself down with a drink or drown myself out with music.
19. Which of the 'seven deadly sins' - pride, wrath, sloth, envy, lust, gluttony, avarice - do you relate to most and why? Which do you relate to least and why? Feel free to go into depth about these.
Most: Sloth. I'm full of ideas, but either they don't come to life or I'll try something for a bit and then move on(I guess the second part could be gluttony). I take things slow in life and I'm a procrastinator. I'm actually kinda hyper though.
Least: This is hard. Greed?? It's weird, I'm really attracted to new and novel things. But I'm actually a bit of a simpleton. I minimize my needs a lot and I prefer experiences to material goods. I don't need a fancy car, I just need it to run well. I like having money, but generally to feel safe. Or is this greed? O.o There are a lot of things I want, but they are mostly intangible. And there's pride because my self confidence is a fluctuating mess.
20. Link a song you relate to and explain why.
Good old Offspring. Don't relate to it in a romantic way, but I literally have low self esteem and I often feel used. I may feel dumb sometimes, but I'm not a dweeb