I am just getting going on this Enneagram stuff, and I'm having a really tricky time of it. Both of the free tests I've done gave me the highest scores in 4, 9, and 7. I've been reading up on each of them, and they are all only partially me. When I figured out my Myers-Briggs type (INFP), I felt a VERY strong connection to it, so I guess I am looking for that here too and not getting it. So far I know nothing about the wings or the S-stuff, and I was planning on looking that up once I determined my number.
YES: create and surround themselves with beauty, value individuality
NO: feel like no one can understand them or love them adequately, prone to melancholy, moody
YES: scattered, curious, excitable, look forward to things, trouble finishing projects before moving onto the next, favoring activities that stimulate their minds—which in turn generate more things to do and think about, easily bored
NO: extroverted, spontaneous, always on the go
YES: avoid conflict, go along with others' ideas to keep the peace
NO: putting others before themselves, Basic Fear: Of loss and separation
I feel like I am too introverted to be a 7 (although that's the one I want to be), too optimistic to be a 4, and too selfish to be a 9.
Some more tidbits:
I am restless and hungry for adventure in my life, but also crave comfort and stability and alone time to think and have my hobbies. I find things like cooking and chores to be so boring, and I procrastinate on them. I like thinking through problems.
At the moment I am caught in a search for my perfect career. The one I have now is DULL! I am sick of the routines and lack of thinking involved. I'd love nothing more than for each day to bring a different challenge. At the same time, I need stability and safety in my employer, so I guess I don't want THAT much day-to-day change. But variety is definitely something that is missing in my life.
I tend to bounce around from idea to idea in my personal time. I often start projects and don't finish them.
I LOVE to travel to new countries. I try to visit a new place 1-2 times a year, and I love just wandering around and photographing it and learning about culture.
I also love to stay at home, watch TV, read, go antiquing, paint, etc.
So. Can anyone help point me to any resources that may help me figure this out? I'm having an identity crisis! Some people don't like to be labeled, but I find comfort in being able to research it and think "Wow, that's so me!"