Hi, all! Hope everyone is doing well. I recently discovered the Enneagram of Personality not too long ago. I have been struggling to find out which Enneatype I am. I have taken several tests but have had different results for each. My results have ranged from 1, 2, 4, 5, 6, and 9. Yikes! Now, if we are taking wings into account, I have scored as 1w2, 2w1, 5w4, and 9w1. I just really want to know which type I am.
I have used the alternate questionnaire from one of the sticky threads. My MBTI type is INFJ if that helps in deciding which type I am.
1. How would an author describe you in a book? Write the paragraph that would introduce you in a novel.
One more minute until class started. AzureMustang and the handicapped girl in a wheelchair came to a stop at the doors of Southern Hall.
“I appreciate your help so much, sir. I will be OK from here. You should get to your class,” said the handicapped girl.
“Are you sure? I can be a little late to class, it’s fine,” said AzureMustang.
“Don’t worry, this building has an elevator I can use,” said the handicapped girl.
“Oh, right. I can’t believe I forgot about that.”
AzureMustang peeked at his watch. 1:00 P.M. He walked, picking up the pace as he ventured upstairs to room 206. Dr. Feller’s had already started. Down the hall, AzureMustang noticed the doors to room 206 were still opened. AzureMustang sighed. He didn’t like to make people wait, whether it be a friend, teacher, or an administrator. AzureMustang hustled through the doorway. Dr. Feller’s face lit up.
“Oh, there he is. I was getting worried something happened to you. You never miss class and you’re usually one of the first people here.”
“Sorry for the hold up, thank you for waiting for me,” said AzureMustang.
AzureMustang walked to his seat and sat down. Reaching into his bag, he slammed his notebook on his desk, unaware of the serious yet worried expression on his face. AzureMustang took his classes, attendance, and time of arrival seriously. He came back from track practice, which was scheduled later than usual. The captains were in charge of organizing practice; AzureMustang compromised with them to ensure that he would make class on time. Things were going smoothly, but he just had to help the sweet girl in the wheelchair cross the road. An open house event was going on campus. There were too many drivers, some lost and careless, AzureMustang took time out of his own priorities to help her.
Dr. Feller raised a piece of chalk at the green board.
“Now then,” said Dr. Fellar. “Shall we begin?”
2. Think over the past day or week and make a mental list (you can also write it here) of ways other people have annoyed, angered, or otherwise bothered you - any situation where people have done one thing, while you wished they would have done another. Look at each of these instances and answer (you can make a list or make note of general patterns - an example is good):
a. How would I characterize the trait that bothered me?
I was irritated. I was playing a video game when my friend criticized me for my rather sub-par abilities to function in a fast-paced platformer game.
b. Why did it bother me?
My hand-eye-coordination and special awareness aren’t the best. I know it’s not my best strength, but I really do wish I was better at it.
c. How did I react?
I repressed my irritation. I like my friend so much, even getting annoyed with him is a no-no in my book. He’s also a sensitive person. I replied by laughing it off and saying in a funny voice: “I’m trying.”
d. How do I wish I would have reacted?
I wouldn’t change the way I reacted. As a side note, my week has been really good that this is really the worst thing I could think of haha.
e. If there was a discrepancy between c. and d., why did it come up?
I’m sensitive towards other’s feelings and opinions about things. He’s just my friend there’s no need to get worked up about a video game, one’s hand-eye-coordination, and special awareness, right?
3. What holds you back in life? This can be an internal or external force. If that thing were gone, what would be different? What would you do?
My high standards for myself, excessive daydreaming, student loan debt, helping others too much.
If I didn’t have these forces, I would definitely be more confident and in pursuit of my goals; I would definitely take more risks.
4. Your deepest secret has just been revealed to the person or people from whom you most wished to keep it. How do you feel? How do you react? What are the results on your life?
I would feel scared that others would think differently about me. Though in a way, I would feel relieved that it finally came out; that secret has been bottling for years. I react by blowing up with rage and/or crying. I would blame systems, people, and myself for not knowing better. No one would truly know the results of what would happen if their secret was out, but I have a hunch about mine. I think some people would say that other people are going through the same trouble as me, although it doesn’t seem that way. Others would also tell me that things are going to be OK and that I have a really strong spirit, much stronger than I realize.
5. You are offered one of three gifts: a bottle filled with water from the Fountain of Life, a crown which will give you peaceful dominion over the world's people for your entire (full) lifetime, and a ring which will unite you with your true love and ensure a happy, passionate marriage. Which do you choose and why? What are your hesitations and motivations?
I would not take the water from the Fountain of Life; too much uncertainty about what it actually is and what would happen. I would not take the ring, because it seems like a selfish goal and the love would feel fake. Finding my soulmate by going the actual/right way is better. With those two options out of the way, I would take the crown. I would love to be a leader, to ensure peace and harmony for people, to watch others grow and be happy with what my leadership has established for them. I usually don’t like leadership positions, but if the calling is there, I will pursue it. Although, this passion of being crowed king is not without it’s (potential) faults. I would hesitate to take the crown because people are corrupted by power. I would be afraid of being cast under power’s horrible spell of corruption. I don’t want people to think I’m some kind of monster. I also don’t want to put too much harm on my people; their safety and feelings are sensitive to me.
6. You are offered one of three houses. The first is located in a big city and has historic and artistic value: it was designed by a great architect and was owned by interesting people in the past. Owning this house is very prestigious and guarantees you social status and a circle of friends, but it also comes with responsibility - you must keep the house up to code, manage the household, and give parties and events. The second house you may design using your imagination - literally your dream house - it is located in a very secluded location and no one is allowed to visit this house except you and your immediate family. The third house is very nice, but has no particular aesthetic appeal - a McMansion in short. It is in an extremely convenient location and is very secure. It is impossible for thieves to break in and it has no danger of natural disasters. You are guaranteed to be able to sell the house for double the price in twenty years. Which do you choose and why? What are your hesitations and motivations?
I am a really imaginative and rather private person, so the second option I think is best. For the first option, I don’t really care about social status; I like to treat everyone as equals. The third option seems too bland for me. My hesitations for this would be that my choice in the dream house is that it seems selfish in a way. However, I have a very idealized belief system and I can apply that to the house with no restrictions! What motivates me to have that house is that I can “dream up” of different sections of the house that can be fitting for different personalities of my family and not just myself. Everyone, myself included, will be happy!
7. You are offered one of three doors. The first opens to a world that is dangerous and demands mental or physical skill to navigate through, but also has great rewards to be gained: think of the worlds portrayed on the shows Game of Thrones or Supernatural. The second opens to a world that is full of wonders, magic, and knowledge, which can be learned or experienced, but there is little solid resting ground - think of the worlds portrayed in the shows Doctor Who or in the multi-media phenomenon A Hitchkiker's Guide to the Galaxy. The third opens to a world where you may experience a life of peaceful, uneventful poverty - think of the hobbits in the series Lord of the Rings or most of the animals living in Narnia. Which do you choose and why? What are your hesitations and motivations?
I would choose the third door, because it’s the most peaceful. Sure, conflict can happen in this third door world, but with the other door worlds have too many instances of betrayal and people acting out their own free-will in malicious ways (or at least that’s what I think). To me, the third door world seems to have the best chance at achieving peace.
8. What do you wish people understood about you? Talk about a time you were misunderstood.
I wish people would understand that if I complain about something, it has been on my mind for a long time. Also, I wish people would know that sometimes I don’t talk to certain people or speak up is because I have mentally disconnected myself from them because they have harmed me in some way in the past. One time I was misunderstood was when I vented about issues that were bothering me for a long time. I used this as a cry for help and comfort, but people instead ridiculed me and started spreading rumors about me (and others) being pessimistic and bringing other people down. They started viewing me differently from before. My intention wasn’t to bring other people down or bring a pessimistic attitude to the group. In fact, other people brought that in before me, but I just let that stuff slide; everyone vents once a while, right? The toxic behavior of these people got so out of hand that I simply cut them out of my life as a way to avoid conflict. I hate admitting it, but I’ve developed a grudge towards them.
9. What do you hope people won't notice about you? What are you uncomfortable being teased about?
I hope people don’t notice how awful I am with sports that require good hand-eye-coordination or how uncomfortable I feel at large parties since I cannot dance. I have no interest in these sorts of things, so I try my best to come up with excuses to avoid these. I hate wearing a mask to dodge myself out of situations. I know I’m good at it, but it irks me the wrong way when I lie to like that.
10. What's worse - to be seen as caring more than you do or less than you do? Why? Do you think you come across one way or the other? Do you typically pretend to care more or to care less?
To be seen as less caring. I actually do care more about others more than myself at times. I have given up my own time for the sake of helping, improving, and listening to others. It may sound crazy, but I just think it’s the right thing to do. I’m not looking for praise or approval.
11. Think about a time that someone else tried to control your actions - to tell you what to do, to manipulate you, or influence you. How did you feel and how did you react? What went through your mind?
I’m going to pass on this. I can’t think of any at the moment.
If anything, I feel as though I would be the one to manipulate others, though I don’t mean it in a harmful way >_< I usually maneuver my way out of situations to avoid conflict.
12. When you first meet someone, what are your first thoughts? What judgments do you make and what kinds of considerations do you have? Are you more concerned with what they think of you or what you think of them? If you are preparing to meet someone new, what do you hope about them and what do you fear about them?
I see people in a positive light when I first meet them. I can be judgmental about their negative qualities, but I like to see their positive as more important. Everyone has flaws. I don’t really have considerations when I meet people, as long as you treat me the way I want to be treated, you’re good with me. However, that can change if the new person is someone is inconsiderate of others or is someone that breaks promises. What I fear most about meeting someone new is if they are someone who questions my integrity as I like to lead by example.
13. Think about the last time you cried (if you've recently lost a loved one or gone through another similarly difficult experience, you can go back further and choose a random instance). What caused this? Who was around? Were you crying out of sadness, joy, frustration, or some other factor? How did you feel afterwards? Did it change anything? Is this typical for you?
The situation I remembered was one out of despair. It happened about a month or two ago. Since graduating college, I have been struggling to find a full-time good paying job. My brother actually noticed the look of sorrow on my face, although I was unaware, I was giving off that look. Anyway, I cried because it seems that so many people seem to have their lives figured out, are in happy relationships, and I’m nowhere where I want to be. I established ambitious goals for myself, but I feel as though my efforts became meaningless. Everyone I know puts faith in me so I hate to let them down. Also, I put very high expectations for myself since I felt I have been self-sufficient for a long time. I try really hard, and am quite good at, masking my problems. I bring optimism to the classroom (I’m currently substitute teacher in a district with a great group of kids) because showing shame and sadness is an idea in my book. I feel more hopeful now that I am getting more credentials to make myself more marketable, but that day I cried, it felt as if my life was doomed.
14. Think about the last time you felt really happy, joyful, or satisfied. What caused this feeling? What was different? What keeps you from feeling this way all the time?
I felt so happy when a teacher at one of the schools I worked at praised me for my classroom management, enthusiasm, and caring nature with the kids. I felt so validated and it made me realize that little actions are meaningful. What was different is that someone else praised me, far too often I compare myself to others and make judgments about me myself. I guess what keeps me from feeling this way all the time is the fact that I have high standards and compare myself to others.
15. If you were a tragic hero, what would be your fatal flaw? If you were a character in a comedy, what would be your distinguishing trait (i.e. stingy with money, fastidious, shallow, pretentious, etc.) Do you think others would agree with these?
Probably that I’m too private about myself. Yes, I am interested in others, and willing to listen to and care for others, but even my friends will admit that I can be too private and cryptic at times haha. Ugh, I find it hard to open up to others.
16. Think over the past day or week and make a mental list (you can also write it here) of ways that you have done badly - by yourself, by others, etc. - any time that you have done something, and wish you would have done better. How would you characterize these instances? What caused you to fail and what was your reaction? Are you more likely to be hard on yourself or to find excuses for yourself?
Can’t think of any moments. I’ll pass.
17. a. Imagine meeting an evil version of yourself - your 'dark side' - and describe this person.
The dark side of me is one who is very manipulative. My dark version of myself is very in-tune with the feelings and lives of others; he would control people with ease almost like a puppet master. My dark side is a nasty plotter; planning ahead to ensure that he would never get backed into a corner. My dark side is hypercritical and angry towards leaders who abuse their power and cause social injustice. My dark half would somehow keep a low-profile and do anything he could to remove corrupt people from power to fix what he sees wrong with the world.
Yikes, I hated writing this.
b. Describe your ideal self.
My ideal self is one who is more confident in pursing his goals, has overcome the anxiety of starting a difficult project, comfortable with his position in life, and is consistently helping others to make sure they are the best they were meant to be.
18. What is your experience with and how do you deal with the following:
a. loneliness = I feel lonely from time to time. I like my alone time, but I feel envious of those who are able to easily form connections with others. I value deep connections, but it’s hard for me to open up.
b. doubt = I experience doubt only if I am pressured to do something, I don’t feel comfortable doing. I usually measure the pros and cons of a project before starting it to ensure I won’t experience doubt.
c. boredom = I don’t get bored often. If I’m bored, I can retreat into my mind and daydream :D
d. laziness = I work my ass off at work, I set high expectations for myself, but sometimes I can become burned out and retreat into my mind as a way of avoiding problems. A lot of people think I work hard, but I feel lazier than what others think of me. I am guilty of putting things off, but I do complete them and with 100% effort.
e. temper = I hold a tight grip on my temper; I’m scared of breaking the peace so I hide it the best I can. To release my temper, I resort to being alone in my room and listening to music.
19. Which of the 'seven deadly sins' - pride, wrath, sloth, envy, lust, gluttony, avarice - do you relate to most and why? Which do you relate to least and why? Feel free to go into depth about these.
I relate to lust the least because I don’t want power nor do I want to indulge in sensual pleasures all the time. Never had problems with gluttony, and never had problems with avarice since I give more than I take.
Pride = I can be hypocritical at times. I give great advice to people even though I may not follow it myself.
Wrath = It takes a lot for me to get angry and for me to hold a grudge on someone. I do experience anger, but I do everything I can to hide it. I’m scared one day I’ll blow up on those I love; I think my rage can be scary.
Sloth = I put things off from time to time, but I work so hard at work and for my friends in need. I daydream so much though to avoid the problems of the real world.
Envy = I like to treat everyone as equals, and I am happy towards those I support, but sometimes I can get really envious towards those that I perceive have it easier and that “destiny” favors. So many people have qualities to them I really wish I had.
20. Link a song you relate to and explain why.
I don’t relate to a specific song; I like too many. I use music as an outlet to express my emotions, as I have a hard time expressing them myself.