What age range are you in?
Any disorders or conditions we should know about?
None that have been professionally diagnosed.
1. What do you think your life is about? What drives you in life? This can be something like a goal or a purpose, or anything else that comes to mind.
I don't think that my life is about anything. I just pass the time and try to have fun. Nothing really "drives" me. Meaning isn't very close to me.
2. What were you like as a kid?
My friends called me a mad scientist :P I was enrolled in a gifted program, which was more interesting than the current school that I'm in. I was quiet, curious, and prideful. I got in a few fist fights. People said that I had a god complex, even though that does not apply to the current me. I was also infamous for making bombs, playing with fire, and doing other things that kept people away from me. In everything that I participated in, I had to either be the best, or not try at all.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents. Does anything stand out about the way you interacted?
There isn't a lot of tension. I don't reveal much about myself to my parents. I'm very restrained around them compared to when I'm with friends. They have only seen one half of me.
4. What values are important to you? What do you hope to avoid doing or being?
Strength, humility, and equal treatment to others are important to me. I can't stand animal abuse/bullying. I am nice to people that I know nothing of, and I never judge people based on superficial qualities. I avoid purporting my worth in front of others, and I would never want to hurt those close to me.
5. Aside from phobias, are there any fears that characterized your childhood? Have they continued into the present day, or not, and if not, how have you dealt with them?
I have always been afraid of my friends sharing personal details about myself/feelings with others. I am very afraid of betrayal, because several of my friends have done that to me in the past. I may or may not have SAD.
6. a.) How do you see yourself?
...I don't know. Reserved?
b.) How do you want others to see you?
I want others to think that I'm interesting/kind, and that my ideas count.
c.) What do you dislike the most in other people?
People trying to boost their ego by suggesting that others are worth less than them.
7. Which habit do you most automatically act on? Rank the following habits from most to least automatic, on a scale of 1 (most) to 3 (least).
a.) Work for personal gain with more concern for self than for others. - 2
b.) Strive for a sense of tranquility in yourself and the world around you - 1
c.) Decide what is right for the betterment of something or someone else. - 3
8. Where does the wandering mind take you? What provokes this?
Nowadays, every time that my mind wanders, it always leads back to typology. I am also constantly living out actions in my head. This is provoked by aggravating social tension most of the time.
9.What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel my best when I can talk to people without judgement. I am at my worst when people are too set in their ways to consider my views.
10. Let's talk about emotions. Explain what might make you feel the following, how they feel to you or how you react to the emotion:
a.) anger - Someone is hindering my group's progress (happened today.) Stare them down, get in their face, and put them in their place.
b.) shame - I get something wrong that I was certain of. I retreat into my head.
c.) anxiety - First day of class. I assume a stern, upright, or a relaxed posture, and overanalyze what others are thinking.
11. Describe how you respond to the following:
a.) stress - I bite my nails
b.) negative unexpected change - Confusion, thinking about it.
c.) conflict - I get very jittery and aggressive, unless I'm being watched by an authority figure.
12. a.) What kind of role are you naturally inclined to take in a group? Why? The clown/occasionally very serious person.
b.) If put in power, how do you behave? Why? I try to be fair, but I don't let people use me as a doormat.
c.) Do you tend to struggle with others who have authority over you? Why? Yes. It's harder to tell them that they're wrong, or that I don't like them, since they (teachers) have control of my grades.
13. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
I notice people's motives/reasons behind how they act.
14. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I don't trust people.
15. Briefly: What religious and/or political beliefs do you have? Do you think they influenced your responses in this questionnaire?
I am not religious, and I don't care for politics.
Optional Question (due to personal nature)
Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
I left a candle burning overnight, and it burned down my house with a family member inside. I did not cry once, although I wanted to die. People were always asking if I was okay, and I would get pissed off and say yes. I would think about it every night, and I still do. I have a lot of nightmares. I do not communicate my distress about this, even though it's been three years. This is my first time saying anything about it since it happened.
Which of the following temptations do you find yourself acting upon the most? (And briefly state why)
- To constantly push yourself to be “the best”: Not so much anymore. I was like this.
- To be without needs, well-intentioned: Yes.
- To replace direct experience with concepts: ehhhhh idk
- To have an extreme sense of personal moral obligation: Sometimes I let loose, but I try to be virtuous.
- To think that fulfillment is somewhere else: I often fall for this.
- To cyclically become indecisive and seek others for reassurance: I am somewhat like this.
- To overuse imagination in searching for yourself: THIS ONE. I change my type every week.
- To avoid conflicts and asserting yourself: I avoid conflict by remaining neutral to most people.
- To ideconsr yourself entirely self-sufficient: Not so much
What's something you are: a.) thankful you have: My dog. b.) wish you could have? An outlet friend. Why? I don't speak/write about what's closest to me.