In my twenties.
My friend told me the 549 tritype description described me most accurately and I agreed but then read that INFP correlates to 549 enneatypes so I was like well, do I seem like a 549 or is it just my MBTI? I get inconsistent results on enneagram tests. i thought for sure that I was a 592 and I remember when I first discovered enneagram everyone thought I was a counterphobic 6 but well, whatever. At any rate, I filled out a questionnaire please don't be too rough when typing me. And thank you for your help!
1. What do you think your life is about? What drives you in life? This can be something like a goal or a purpose, or anything else that comes to mind.
I think the point of my life is to cultivate yourself. In addition to developing a skill set that makes you able to contribute to society, I think we have to develop an appreciation for the arts and cultivate our minds by keeping up with trends in science, architecture, and generally strive to appreciate not just what we do and contribute but what everyone else does, too. This means love! Live! Follow your passion! Help people if you can if only by smiling at a stranger on the bus! :)
2. What were you like as a kid?
Shy, secretive, imaginative, curious, independent, strong-willed. I mainly tried to keep to myself: drawing, painting, biking, leading expeditions behind houses to collect sweet grasses (when I was very little). I taught myself to read and within a few years found myself reading every book I could get my hands on. I loved reading about nature, art, philosophy, foreign countries, religions, mythology, cultures and psychology.
3. Describe your relationship with your parents. Does anything stand out about the way you interacted?
Unspoken rules sporadically enforced through violently angry outbursts followed up by belittling criticism and snide jokes at my expense. Occasionally throughout my childhood I would stand up for myself or try to demonstrate my value to no avail. Nothing made them happy. Nothing ever changed. But lots and lots of love. ;) lol.
4. What values are important to you? What do you hope to avoid doing or being?
Values: altruism, love, kindness, empathy, respect for truth and the natural world. I try to avoid being egotistical, biased, or prejudice. I try to be authentic, competent, sincere, thoughtful, well-read, and as honest as possible.
5. Aside from phobias, are there any fears that characterized your childhood? Have they continued into the present day, or not, and if not, how have you dealt with them?
I struggled all throughout childhood with a fear of angering my parents. I try to focus on what I want to do rather than focus on pleasing them at this point although it took me a long time to think like that and I still get upset sometimes when they express unhappiness with me.
6. a.) How do you see yourself?
Someone who thinks a lot and is constantly striving to be better and to understand the world around her.
b.) How do you want others to see you?
Trustworthy, competent, kind, thoughtful, refined, and intelligent.
c.) What do you dislike the most in other people?
I don't like meanness and hostility. I don't understand violence or people who are all about pure personal gain. Selfishness and violence I guess are my biggest pet peeves. But I mean playful aggression is fine it's all about intent and whether people understand that intent. There are honestly, lots of little things that will irritate me slightly like if I feel like someone needs to stand up for themselves I will say it. But it's really only with people that I think can handle those kinds of truth bombs enough to realize what they need to do and only when I really feel it's a detriment to their lives.
Also very annoying are people who can't see people's potential. I think it's important to have faith in people and their potential. People don't believe in themselves or others enough. They give up before they even start or say that someone can't do things because they haven't tried it yet. I don't believe in that.
7. Which habit do you most automatically act on? Rank the following habits from most to least automatic, on a scale of 1 (most) to 3 (least).
3-a.) Work for personal gain with more concern for self than for others.
2-b.) Strive for a sense of tranquility in yourself and the world around you
1-c.) Decide what is right for the betterment of something or someone else.
8. Where does the wandering mind take you? What provokes this?
I sometimes day dream about where I would like to be in the future, things I would like to see, papers I would like to write, problems I would like to solve. Other times, when I receive news that things are not going the way that I want to, I start thinking about contingency plans--alternative solutions to get where I want to go.
9.What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
I feel at my best when I am working toward my goals, achieving progress, helping other people, learning new things, getting everything on my list done.
I feel at my worst when I am depressed, apathetic, or stuck in a rut of negative thinking. This is usually prompted by setbacks. I have not always been the best at dealing with setbacks. I used to internalize my failures and take them very personally.
10. Let's talk about emotions. Explain what might make you feel the following, how they feel to you or how you react to the emotion:
My initial inclination to all three is to hide and to get a better assessment of the situation but I have learned to fight through these feelings to make sure that everything is getting done until I have time to reflect rather than running off to reflect immediately at the expense of what needs to be done. I really learned to snap out of my natural tendency by being in a profession that requires me to put other people's needs ahead of my own.
11. Describe how you respond to the following:
It depends on how much stress. I sometimes shut down under too much stress, other times I rise to the occasion and try to work through it, other times, I have to do yoga and do some breathing exercises to calm down. Most of the time I just want a nap. It seems like the more stressed I am the more caffeine I need to wake up. It is super strange.
b.) negative unexpected change
Not well. Angry and depressed for a little while until I can calm down and adjust.
Depends on the level of conflict and with whom I can conflicting. I try to voice my views as clearly as possible but if the person doesn't respect me enough to listen to what I am saying there is no sense in arguing about it. I will walk away or tell them I no longer want to work with them. If I can avoid it, I will avoid it. If I can't avoid it, I may just shut down and let them power through and run away or privately fix whatever damage they are causing if they are doing such stupid things as would become dangerous.
12. a.) What kind of role are you naturally inclined to take in a group? Why?
It depends on the group but I often feel like I either sit back and let everyone else do their thing and I am just the observer or I become the mediator who makes sure that everyone's voices are being heard and acknowledged.
b.) If put in power, how do you behave? Why?
Even when I am in charge of the group, I am the person making sure everyone else is happy and taken care of. That everything is done and stays on message. The one who makes sure we stay focused and everything gets done and that everyone's voices are being heard and no one's views are being belittled.
c.) Do you tend to struggle with others who have authority over you? Why?
Sometimes I hate it when someone is in charge and they refuse to acknowledge everyone's needs because I know when I am in charge I do so I will get pretty frustrated when someone is charge and only thinks of themselves and their own ego or feeling like the person who is right without evidence indicating they are actually right. I just don't understand the mentality of being in charge to serve yourself. The person in charge is supposed to serve the group and make sure things are done correctly that's the whole point of having someone in charge in the first place.
13. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
I notice their emotions, their potential, their intelligence, their talents, their hopes and fears. Even though I don't always feel like doing it (because I have my own life and a million things to do), it's pretty easy for me to get people to open up, feel welcome and tell me things and I feel very grateful when they do that they trust me enough to share themselves with me. I am really good at noticing when someone is going through something and what they need to get where they want to go. I am super good at giving career and relationship advice to other people. And I have always loved being that person who makes someone a cup of warm tea and sits in the kitchen hearing all about the other person's day/love life/problem. I love that.
14. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I have always been confused by this. People have natures and you can always rely on them to be who they are. Sometimes people change for better or worse in which case, my perception of what I can trust them to do will change as well. The world and the people within it are complicated but they follow patterns. If someone loves you a lot but they show their love with presents rather than being around all the time, you can probably expect them to give you presents but not necessarily show up for important events. It's just their nature. I think it's silly to expect people to do things that are outside of their nature without significant levels of therapy.
15. Briefly: What religious and/or political beliefs do you have? Do you think they influenced your responses in this questionnaire?
I have always believed firmly in the sentiment that everyone has the right to pursue their own happiness as long as it doesn't infringe on other people's happiness and in freedom of speech and religion. I think these beliefs filter into everything that I do as I have a great deal of respect for other people's rights to view the world through their own subjective lens and i am a firm believer in diversity of opinions and perspectives. I suppose this could be seen as a political belief.
As far as religion goes, I have no firm attachment to a particular religion although I do believe in God as well as science. Probably more science though than organized religion.
Optional Question (due to personal nature)
Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
When I was first in college, I experienced some setbacks due to personal events and I really internalized it a lot and took it to be a reflection on me. I decided I would figure out how I needed to change, who I needed to be in order to be the kind of person who could still make a contribution and be of service to the world. I did a lot of odd jobs and figured out that my initial inclination was correct but due to circumstances beyond my control, things did not go according to plan. I have since learned how to accommodate life's ups and downs and come to the conclusion that I have to have certain things (a support network, financial stability, etc.) in order to succeed in my endeavors. In essence, I have learned to balance my idealism with pragmatism to be able to better achieve my goals.
Which of the following temptations do you find yourself acting upon the most? (And briefly state why)
- To constantly push yourself to be “the best”
- To be without needs, well-intentioned
- To replace direct experience with concepts
- To have an extreme sense of personal moral obligation
- To think that fulfillment is somewhere else
- To cyclically become indecisive and seek others for reassurance
- To overuse imagination in searching for yourself
- To avoid conflicts and asserting yourself
- To consider yourself entirely self-sufficient
I do all of the above things at some point or another so it's hard to discern which is the most pivotal.
For example, I definitely find it is difficult to assert myself. I often have to think for a while to even realize that I should voice a complaint. It takes me some time to determine whether someone is threatening to me or not and I definitely try to be without needs and well-intentioned. This is a definite trap in that I have gone without eating so that I could try to tackle world hunger. This is a very annoying part of myself. I definitely see the compulsion to try to be good and do the right thing and always fall short of perfection. I am also guilty of self-medicating away my insecurities in order to be the "best." I could go on with all the other things I do, too, but I don't want to write it and I'm sure you don't want to read it.
What's something you are: a.) thankful you have b.) wish you could have? Why?
I am so thankful that I have friends, books, and opportunities. I have the things that I need and people that support me and I am eternally grateful every day for that.
I wish I had a lot of money because that would be nice. I would take a vacation once and a while.