EDIT: I think ive found my core type - possibly 6w7. But i would like to check also my tri - type and my variant. Tri - type mostly. For now the option is: 6w7 4w5 9w1 - feel free to comment and give me an insight if you can tell me another option or confirm and agree with this option :)
Ok - i am rather lost and i don't trust my test results. I have difficulties just reading about Enneagram types and deciding so i will do the questions and ask for your opinion. Please give it to me - any help is appreciated. I'm just starting my enneagram quest from the beginning. Try my variant as well if you can see it.
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
My motive is always happiness. Where I sense an opportunity to be happy I go for it. Love is one of my biggest motivations in life. Holding on to what i believe in is most important and building my identity and creating my own personality. Improving myself.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
I hope to have enough. I hope have one person for who i care the mostly deeply for but also develop my fields of interests. It is important to me to have someone i care for but i also like to keep my personal identity with having also things i care for. I desire expression of myself and to find myself within some field in life.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I avoid accepting without knowing why i did it. It's very unidentified for me not now have an attitude towards things and not to know how i feel about it.
Also I wanna avoid being a dreamer but not doer (which im mostly am but i wanna improve it)
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
Loosing someone for who i am wearing a heart on my sleeve and that is probably because i can be skeptical and think many things.
I also am in fear that the things i want won't happen because smth will happen and prevent them. That makes me rather depressed and i stop that thought right away cuz it really affects me. That's why i wanna become more of a doer with a dreamer traits.
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
Im not sure i want other's to see me. I am often very preserving of my self. But in general i want them to be able to rely on me and to know i am a real friend to them and i am ready to prove it. I want others to see me as a fair person. And also i want others to accepting of each other's differences. I also like people to trust me.
Myself? I usually see myself as rather romantic and dreamy person. I see often i want more and often have to stop myself to become unrealistic. I see myself as witty from time to time and i think my trait is mostly expressed that i am a daydreamer and i use humour hell of a lot. But despite the humor i think i take life and things in life rather seriously.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
Best makes me spending time talking with close people, sharing talks with them and having laughs together.
Worst - being misunderstood, taken advantage on, humiliated by other people
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
a) anger - this emotion can be pretty strong in me, i can easily freak out and it makes me feel like im having smth cooking in me and usually i desire revenge
b) shame - well i know i blush, i usually just wanna forget about it and can't stand the feeling
c) anxiety - in general i can get rather anxious but i often have something in back of my mind worrying me and i can't even say it or tell in words what it is, but it's there and in conversation with others as soon as they finish what they said, i have it in my head, it's a fear which stays with me for longer period of time and it's often resulted in lack of concentration
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
a) stress - two ways - i can be very productive if i bite my tongue and give my best shot and say "f*** everything ill do it and hope for the best" or i can give up because i can't handle stress. IT makes me always think "go do smth about it...work" but i feel often press by it so i postpone stuff
b) unexpected change - i always wanna explore it to see what it is - to decide do i like it or not. But changes are cool - im ok with changes.
c)conflict - not good, i panic - i want it to stop - i feel attacked
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
a) authority - i think im not too rebellious about it, but i don't like being told what to do - so i can respond badly. But i had few professors i like cuz they were very decisive and authoritative. I have love and hate relationship with authority.
b)power - i often ask myself can i handle power. I like it in a way -- it would give me opportunities to do many things - but i don't like really telling people what to do. And i often think i wouldn't know what to do with power.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
I usually want people to do their best - i believe we all have choices and i often like to talk people about their problems in order to help them to do the best thing possible.
I can be critical sometimes but i never show it and act considerate but i can have strong standards and i like having them.
And life - i often like unpredictable ways of future couse i know it can surprise me pleasantly. But i also have things i know i want in my future. But with them i will have a lot of surprises and i hope there will good things. I strive for future opportunities, things that will give me an option to improve my personality, my inner self and my life in general.
11. Discuss an event that has impacted your life significantly; more importantly, how you responded to it.
Well i had an eye opening experiences. Some bad experiences with people learned me a great deal and brought me now to few new friends. I can only thank them cuz i finally know how to see things without blindfold.
Also i feel like my life is changing frequently with events - when i started dancing and ended 15 years of swimming i also felt like im going in a few sphere of my life.
Also finding my ways to express myself in writing changed my directions in life.
12. Comment on your relationship with trust.
I usually trust people or better say i act like i trust people. But when i show i trust them it's also my way to see will they prove themselves as trustful as well. But i always seems to give people chances and i think i am often easy to convince they have good motives. I like to doubt to protect myself but i wanna trust people cuz doubt in a relationship can kill and relationship without relaxed trust doesn't worth a lot. It's tense to be skeptical.
13. List some of the traits you: a) like; b) dislike most about yourself.
like: i can be alone for a long time, i like to create my own opinions, i can laugh a lot, i can have a good sense of humor, i like the way i can daydream and imagine a lot of things
dislike: i don't like i am hurt easily, i take criticism badly and i would like to be able to lead more constructive conversations, i don't like how i often talk a lot but do a little and i wanna work on that
14. What do you see or notice in others that most people don't?
Ermm... i often noticed people come with conclusions about themselves and i sometimes think "you thought of this now??? that was obvious"
i think im good at creating and having a feeling what kind of a person someone is from the vibe i get. And i think im good at supposing what would someone be good ata dn encourage them to take action.
15. If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
I don't know how to take compliment or insult well. Compliment - i don't know what to say, i start feeling or lost and just say smth funny on it. Criticism - i keep it to myself but i feel very bad, i would probably cry if i don't stop myself. I usually think "well this was really low? why would you do this? yerk, do you think people like being treated this way?" but i would never say it cause i would be petrified probably and all over my head with emotions. But i can hide it well in public so it's not noticeable, i hope. But the feeling doesn't leave me for a long time and if it was smth really insulting i will remember it for a long time.
16. What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
thankful i have - well close friends mostly, someone to talk to when down, support is smth i always desire to have. but if im alone im thankful also that i have ability to solve things with myself and concentrate and bring my self back around.
Wish - i can wish for a lot of things - but i mostly always wish for even more closer friends and even more someone who can understand me even better. One close person who can do it is all i need.