1) I do love to think that I value myself over other people, but in daily life I tend to prioritize the groups' well-being over my own. If someone wants to go to restaurant A and I'm the only one who prefers restaurant B, I'll do what others want just for their sake. And it happens all the time - I give in without a fight, not because I like to be walked over, it's that I don't want other people to feel sad and leave the group. Even if I persuaded everyone to go to B place, I wouldn't be happy at all seeing sad faces of my friends. Also I'm always the first one to notice if someone else's mood changed, and I'm always the one to ask 'What happened? How can I help?'.
2) People tend to ask me for advice since whatever I suggest always works. It's especially noticeable in love advice (I like talking about other people's feelings and helping them with their love affairs, whereas I myself am never comfortable talking about my crushes and feelings overall due to insecurities and low self-esteem. I need constant affirmation (???) from society and people around me that I'm pretty/kind/etc., or I'll start burying myself in negative thoughts and self-loathing.) Sometimes I even feel like I don't have any minor preferences at all, I just want everyone in my group to be happy. I will only show emotion if I have a strong preference in something, and that can change everyone else's mind about a topic, but usually I focus on an atmosphere in the group and nothing else really.
When I wrote that I 'don't care about other people' I meant that I have no intention of 'serving' people I have no connections with. Sometimes I even see others as NPC, lol. Sometimes the ones who want to befriend me see that as arrogance, but I don't really want to seem mean, I just don't care about those who are nobody to me!
3) Also I tend to be judgemental of others from the very moment I get to know a person. Somehow unconsciously I sort the particular person as 'good' or 'bad' based on norms. I frequently talk about people behind their back and gossip a lot (I'm not proud of that), but I have no problem telling the person every single thing I think about them to their face. I never stay friends with people I don't like anymore, but I'm never really openly rude and just prefer to be nice to the point.
4) I don't hate confrontation if it's with people I don't care about, on the contrary, it's even exciting when a little cat-fight and drama spice up my routine. But if some quarrels start among my friends or family, I hate it to the core - maintaining peace and seeking out common ground is what I see as my duty in such situations.
5) One more negative trait of mine is that I consider my own opinion the only true one. I don't even take other peoples' opinion into account, if things are not done my way, I'm going to get mad and throw tantrums (not too much, it's usually just an act to persuade everyone I'm right), and if everyone is still opposing me, I'm out.
6) I hate when people try to tell me what to do and when people ctart caring about me too much. Weird, right?
Well, the first one is understandable, I think, but in particular I can't stand when people force their plans and schedules on me. I do like planning, but I kind of do this in my mind and for myself solely. I never tell other people how to live their life and expect the same, but sometimes others just have to force their agenda down my throat...for example, it's a very dumb situation, but today I woke up to my phone ringing and it turned out to be my friend. It was already 10 in the morning, but I'm a night owl type and I really need to sleep as much as I can now, at summer, since I don't work anywhere and I have a lot of free time. During my last high school years I was fighting insomnia and even now I always feel sleepy but can't fall asleep, so I'm really sensitive about it. And when I complained to my friend that she woke me up with her call she recklessly replied 'Ah, it's fine, you should've gotten up already.' I freaking flipped out. I just turned her down and went back to sleep, but inside I was burrrrning with rage. So yeah, I hate it when someone breaks my inner schedules like that.
And for the second one, I hit the roof when adults call me and ask me where I am, who I'm with, what am I doing. It sounds childish and rebellious, but I hate this overprotectiveness! I wish everyone could leave me alone and just let me take care of everything myself.
7) I simply love labeling everything and everyone around me. I love the idea of high school cliques for that reason, it just feels appealing to me - sorting everyone to where they belong. That's why I like all this 'sorting' stuff like Hogwarts Houses for example, and in particular when other people tell me where I belong. It's not like I always take other peoples' opinion about me at face value, but it's always interesting to know how other people see you.
8) I love being outside and enjoying nature or city life equally, but I can't help building connections between what I see now and my previous experiences. I'm quick to build associations with music, images, ideas, atmosphere. People rarely understand me when I see something magnificent and beatiful in a simple scenery, but it's my memory of the past what makes it extremely appealing. I don't really know how to describe it better, but that's what makes me think I'm more of a Si user.
9) I have a vivid imagination, but I'm not an idea machine. I can't just brainstorm brilliant ideas out of nowhere, I need some external events to give me food for thought. That's why all of my dreams and ideas circle around reality and its' events.
10) All of my logical assumptions are always in order and go one after another. I'm not really good at viewing a system from different angles, I'm more forward in that kind of thing. Also I tend to always question the root of the problem rather than everything else, I always want to understand why something works the way it does, I'm never satisfied with a brief description. (That's why teachers at high school hated my questions since they always wanted me to just believe everything they say, and I demanded more in-depth description.)
11) That's a little bit personal, but there's this guy I like since primary school (pitiful, I know) and the way I behave around him might give a clue to my type. I'm overall quite shy around people who strike my fancy and I've never dated anyone, so this is probably hopeless, but throughout years I tried to make him my boyfriend with things I thought I would never do to anyone. This crush made me really caring and willing to do nice things to a guy. For example, in grade 9 I presented him home-made chocolates (that was the first time I cooked myself without any help). I think they turned out horrible, but nevertheless I put them in a cute little packaging and asked my friend to give it to him. I was enormously shy at a time (and not really attractive) so I never told the guy it was me. Then, high school senior year, I decided I must try something out once again and got close to him in a week (that was revolutionary for me) and one day he accidentally ripped his shirt nearly apart. It was clearly visible that the shirt couldn't have been saved, but without second thought I walked up to him and said 'I can sew it back together for you if you want.' I HATE SEWING. I can do it well indeed (my mom's never missed a chance to teach me something like that back in the days) but i truly dislike it with my whole heart and I haven't touched a sewing machine in years already. Whatever happened next is of little importance, but that's what I was driving at - he triggered this weird caring side of mine which I didn't even know existed. And from that point on I started taking care of everyone of value to me, not only him, but all of my friends and family as well.
12) Socializing is my life literally, I even like the word itself, lol. I can't live long without interacting with people and talking to someone face to face, so if I have to stay even a single day at home without going out, I feel depressed.