1. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
I'm yet another stressed student. I've had problems with mental health in the past but currently symptom-free and take no medication. I'm a 30 year old tired woman.
2. Study these two images here and here. Which one do you prefer and why? How would you describe it?
I prefer the first one with ocean and night sky with aurora borealis appearing in the horizon. It has a calming, relaxing atmosphere. Definitely a place I'd want to be at right now. I imagine there are no other human beings nearby ruining the quiet. A wine bottle, good company and a telescope would make it an ideal way to spend a night. I love the shades of jade on the left side.
3. Please describe yourself as a person if you were to introduce yourself to someone else like in a cover letter. What kind of person are you and why?
I'm a nursing student specializing in mental health and drug addictions. I've changed my focus career wise a few times, because I can't seem to settle down with only one, and I'm planning on continue studying further. I want to learn as much as it's humanly possible during my life time and develop myself as a human being. I'm definitely an introverted personality. My interests on spare time revolve around activities in which I can engage by myself: reading books from facts to fiction, watching films, series, documentaries, playing games, painting, exercising girya, going jogging in the woods. I enjoy boxing with a partner or alone. The most important elements in life for me are close people (friends and family), health (exercise, food, sleep), books (knowledge and education), having my own space and time. I often wonder how I could evolve as an individual. I'm more likely staying at home on friday night than going out with friends. I have zero interest in bars, clubs, pubs, opportunism, status seeking, shallow people, open relationship, porn - they're all themes to suggest / discuss with me if one wants me to disappear in an instant.
4. What kind of person would you LIKE to be? Why? What kind of person would you NOT want to be? Why?
I'd like to be extroverted, social, outgoing, full of energy - and I'm none of these traits. People around me seem to bond and meet outside of work, and sometimes I'd like to be included/include myself more actively, but if I start thinking about it further, I doubt I'd enjoy their company, because we have little in common. I'm afraid of growing up bitter, disappointed in world, shallow, never leaving a mark in the world, forgotten as anonymous, as if I never existed, afraid to trust others. Although I easily lean into pessimistic direction, I'm a secret romantic, I wish everything has a meaning and connects eventually, even if I'm unable to see it now.
5. Do you think there are any differences to how you described yourself and how people actually perceive you? How do you think others would describe you? If there are any discrepancies between these two that are you are aware of; do you know why exactly that is?
I'm aware I have a tendency to belittle myself, downplay my achievements, concentrate too much on my negative traits, instead of giving myself credit for what I've accomplished and how much I have grown mentally. I've been told by someone else that I should trust myself more, because I'm brilliant and intelligent, but I have difficulty bringing my ideas into light, probably because of the negative experiences I had in the adoslecence (heavy bullying that lead to severe depression), I'm quite sure they played a part in the development of my self-esteem. Strangers would probably describe me as quiet, calm and chill. My friends have described me as intense, funny, witty. I think I lack fundamental trust in people, thus I act more reserved initially than I am actually, but that's only the mask I wear until I feel comfortable. That is, outside of professional settings. As a nurse, I'm open, positive, I completely concentrate on clients, forgetting myself.
6. What in life do you find to be of importance? Why? If you are unsure you can always take the Value Test and post the results here. Do note that it helps if you narrow it down to 20 or ideally 10 values as suggested at stage 2.
1. Inspiration
2. Imagination
3. Dreaming
4. Curiosity
5. Intelligence
6. Solitude
7. Reflection
8. Connection
9. Uniqueness
10. Vision
I'm at my happiest when I'm inspired by my imagination and dreams, explore the ideas that emerge from within, and apply it somehow, most frequently by painting or writing.
7. How do you react to new situations in your life? Can you describe an event in your life where you were in an unknown situation? How did you deal with it?
New situations in life excite me, because they throw me off my game. It's an opportunity to learn something new about myself that I wasn't aware of. I function the best when I don't know what happens next, thus react naturally. I have a tendency to overthink and wind myself up, get all worried, think of the possibilities what could go wrong. The latest unknown situations was beginning my studies in a new unit, new location, new people, new professors and teachers, new subjects, new everything. The shedule has been hectic and overbooked. Turns out, I thrive in this environment. I'm highly motivated, working on multiple projects simultaneously. In my previous school, we concentrated on one big project for long-term, which made me numb, dull-minded, unmotivated, bored. I was anxious at first, worried for social dynamics, but my fellow students are mostly wonderful people.
8. Please describe yourself when you are in a stressful situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
I get overwhelmed initially internally, but mostly remain calm and clear-minded. Example, handling extremely aggressive patient at the ward afterwards. Other nurses were afraid of the man, discussed in the break room how they're not happy about having to deal with him that morning, because he'd been in a bad, explosive, impulsive, unpredictable mood, taking it out on the staff. I was in a shock initially, but able to return into professional role, in which I approached him calmly, told him I want to help him, asked him how I could help him. Remaining peaceful myself, talking in a soft tone also calmed him down. Afterwards, he expressed shame for his behavior and we were able to decrypt the situation and I gained insight from his perspective. Instead of avoidance, I face challenges, even though scary. Meeting a person and talking to them as a human, instead of treating them as mere patients with diagnoses did the trick. It's not rocket science. Instead of fight or flight, I'm aware the key is to remain calm by yourself before anything else.
9. Please describe yourself when you are in an enjoyable situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
I'm in a forest, completely alone, I've not met anyone while wandering there. No joggers, no cyclists, no people taking out their dogs, just me and the forest. I'm completely relaxed, all of my senses are engaged by the environment itself and all the inhabitats that go unseen, but you know they are there, watching you, from the highest branches above.
10. Describe your relationship to socialization. How do you perceive one-on-one interaction? How do you perceive group interaction?
I prefer one-on-one interaction, because is the most intimate interaction. It's easier for me to focus on one person at a time and our relationship. In a group, there are group dynamics at play, roles change, people are not genuine. I acknowledge the importance of group interaction, but I've learned people don't open up the same way as they would alone. I work fine in a group, although I'm less vocal, more of an observer on the side.
11. Describe your relationship to society. What are the elements of it you hold important or unimportant (e.g. social norms, values, customs, traditions)? How do you see people as a whole?
Society is highly flawed system. In it's current state, it unfairly favors the one who have a better starting point, a more resourceful initial setting. I have very little interest or value for social norms, especially gender roles, customary settings and traditions culturally on a societal level. Forcing people to fit into a mold that is unnatural to them is the modern slavery. We're not free with free-will, we're dependent on the system. I wish I existed detached and independently from current society.
12. Describe your relationship to authority. How do you perceive authority? What does it mean to you, and how do you deal with it?
On bigger scale, I don't have much respect or trust for authority. On the contrary, an authoritarian figure or government is more likely to receive resistence, even hostile attitude from me. On a more narrow, everyday scale, I'll give authority the minimum obedience required to coexist, but not quietly. I consider them to be on the same line as me, not above me.
13. Describe your relationship to order and chaos. What do order and chaos mean to you? How do they manifest in your daily life?
I'd say they're in a good balance in my life specifically. I do enjoy a little chaos. Physical evidence would be my apartment. My notebooks at school tell the same tale. My computer is the only thing in order. Studies have taught me methodic ways to work, which is definitely not my natural way. There are procedures required to perform in specific order, although it's not the most efficient one, but old establishments are against development, it seems.
14. What is it that you fear in life? Why? How does this fear manifest to you both in how you think and how you act?
I fear I lose meaning, because when it happens, all crumbles. I've experienced it before, I'm afraid of losing control. I fear being weak, failure, phoney. I aim for genuinity, constantly re-evaluating if I'm truly being myself. At times, I feel lost, which scares me the most in life. When I lose direction, I lose meaning. Sometimes I procrastinate heavily until the very last moment, because I can't achieve perfectionism. I have high standards for myself and I can't be happy knowing if I less of myself than I could have, were able to. On the other side of the spectrum, I drown myself in a project completely, so that everything else stops existing, perfecting every detail that forms entirety I'm pleased with. I want to understand everything, but it's not humanly possible in a life time and it's something that scares me. You know, you have to choose your books. You simply can't read every book, there's not enough time. How do you make a decision like that? It seems so final, which scares me.
15. What is it that you desire in life? What do you strive to achieve? Why? Where do you think these drives and desires stem from or are inspired by?
I desire to form a deeper connection with another human being that exceeds all others in intimacy. I want intensity. I dream of having a child one day, with a person I truly love and connect with, have a being that is the total sum of both of us. I want depth and knowledge. I'm almost desperate to leave a mark in the world. I'm painting my life, ideas, thoughts, emotions on canvases. I wish to leave anything behind, even then. It excites me to think about this: after I'm gone, someone finds a painting I made, no matter where, it could be a dumping area, they find it and it affects them, in any way. Any response. It would be mark in them and it would carry on it's journey, now as a part of them. Perhaps they wrote about it, someone else read it, they experience an epiphany, now a part of both us passes on to other person. I'm aware I affect people around me every day, it truly motivates me. I'm leaving pieces of myself behind without knowing it in the moment, but it's happening all the time. I want to live for the mere fact this is reality, not just my imagination, it's actually happening in segments tied to moments and passed on indefinitely. Everything connects.
16. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
Painting and writing energizes me. Reading about other people's thoughts and ideas, they inspire me. Wandering alone in the forests. Sometimes a mere heavy, physical exercise energizes me. Socializing drains me. I love talking with people, but it exhausts me. I need to be alone often to balance it out. I feel when I'm interacting with someone, it's intimate. Especially when dealing with people who struggle in life, combined with temporarily extremely fragile minds. Every gesture, every tone, every word I say, they analyze me. They're very talented at picking up my mood. I have to be careful in their presence, yet open and genuine, but also maintain appropriate distance - everything I do has a meaning. I can't afford to miscommunicate. It's truly draining but simultaneously meaningful to me in return.
17. Why do you want to know your type? What type do you think you are? Why this/these type(s)? Is there a type that appeals to you, to your self-perception, that you would like to be? Why? If you know your enneagram, please post this here. If you have done any online function tests such as the Keys2Cognition, it helps if you post these results here as well.
For fun, honestly. I've never been typed successfully, it's all speculations. It'd be interesting to find out my type and at best, learn something new about myself. I type as unknown, because I don't feel like I fit types I've received as results, such as ISTJ. I typed myself ISTJ for a long time, again typed as ISTJ by someone else in my first and previous thread, but also speculated to be INTP and INFP. The more I read about cognitive functions, the more unsure I grow considering my type. ISTJ doesn't appeal to me, but I've thought it must be a solid alternative, since it's popping up. I don't relate to ISTJ descriptions, but evidently that is also typical for ISTJ? It's confusing and doesn't make much sense to me. I suppose I could be trying to achieve some kind of closure so I can move on to other things and leave MBTI on the side for a while after this. Keys2Cognition always results in INTP.
Cognitive Process
extraverted Sensing (Se) *************** (15)
unused
introverted Sensing (Si) ************* (13.4)
unused
extraverted Intuiting (Ne) ********************************************** (46.3)
excellent use
introverted Intuiting (Ni) ****************************************** (42.1)
excellent use
extraverted Thinking (Te) *********************** (23.9)
limited use
introverted Thinking (Ti) ********************************************** (46.3)
excellent use
extraverted Feeling (Fe) ************* (13.6)
unused
introverted Feeling (Fi) *************************************** (40)
excellent use
18. Finally, is there something else you find to be of importance you want to add about yourself you think might be of relevance when helping to type you?
Perhaps I'm untypable, doomed to roam for eternity as unknown in the general chat area. Free my spirit, pls.
I'm yet another stressed student. I've had problems with mental health in the past but currently symptom-free and take no medication. I'm a 30 year old tired woman.
2. Study these two images here and here. Which one do you prefer and why? How would you describe it?
I prefer the first one with ocean and night sky with aurora borealis appearing in the horizon. It has a calming, relaxing atmosphere. Definitely a place I'd want to be at right now. I imagine there are no other human beings nearby ruining the quiet. A wine bottle, good company and a telescope would make it an ideal way to spend a night. I love the shades of jade on the left side.
3. Please describe yourself as a person if you were to introduce yourself to someone else like in a cover letter. What kind of person are you and why?
I'm a nursing student specializing in mental health and drug addictions. I've changed my focus career wise a few times, because I can't seem to settle down with only one, and I'm planning on continue studying further. I want to learn as much as it's humanly possible during my life time and develop myself as a human being. I'm definitely an introverted personality. My interests on spare time revolve around activities in which I can engage by myself: reading books from facts to fiction, watching films, series, documentaries, playing games, painting, exercising girya, going jogging in the woods. I enjoy boxing with a partner or alone. The most important elements in life for me are close people (friends and family), health (exercise, food, sleep), books (knowledge and education), having my own space and time. I often wonder how I could evolve as an individual. I'm more likely staying at home on friday night than going out with friends. I have zero interest in bars, clubs, pubs, opportunism, status seeking, shallow people, open relationship, porn - they're all themes to suggest / discuss with me if one wants me to disappear in an instant.
4. What kind of person would you LIKE to be? Why? What kind of person would you NOT want to be? Why?
I'd like to be extroverted, social, outgoing, full of energy - and I'm none of these traits. People around me seem to bond and meet outside of work, and sometimes I'd like to be included/include myself more actively, but if I start thinking about it further, I doubt I'd enjoy their company, because we have little in common. I'm afraid of growing up bitter, disappointed in world, shallow, never leaving a mark in the world, forgotten as anonymous, as if I never existed, afraid to trust others. Although I easily lean into pessimistic direction, I'm a secret romantic, I wish everything has a meaning and connects eventually, even if I'm unable to see it now.
5. Do you think there are any differences to how you described yourself and how people actually perceive you? How do you think others would describe you? If there are any discrepancies between these two that are you are aware of; do you know why exactly that is?
I'm aware I have a tendency to belittle myself, downplay my achievements, concentrate too much on my negative traits, instead of giving myself credit for what I've accomplished and how much I have grown mentally. I've been told by someone else that I should trust myself more, because I'm brilliant and intelligent, but I have difficulty bringing my ideas into light, probably because of the negative experiences I had in the adoslecence (heavy bullying that lead to severe depression), I'm quite sure they played a part in the development of my self-esteem. Strangers would probably describe me as quiet, calm and chill. My friends have described me as intense, funny, witty. I think I lack fundamental trust in people, thus I act more reserved initially than I am actually, but that's only the mask I wear until I feel comfortable. That is, outside of professional settings. As a nurse, I'm open, positive, I completely concentrate on clients, forgetting myself.
6. What in life do you find to be of importance? Why? If you are unsure you can always take the Value Test and post the results here. Do note that it helps if you narrow it down to 20 or ideally 10 values as suggested at stage 2.
1. Inspiration
2. Imagination
3. Dreaming
4. Curiosity
5. Intelligence
6. Solitude
7. Reflection
8. Connection
9. Uniqueness
10. Vision
I'm at my happiest when I'm inspired by my imagination and dreams, explore the ideas that emerge from within, and apply it somehow, most frequently by painting or writing.
7. How do you react to new situations in your life? Can you describe an event in your life where you were in an unknown situation? How did you deal with it?
New situations in life excite me, because they throw me off my game. It's an opportunity to learn something new about myself that I wasn't aware of. I function the best when I don't know what happens next, thus react naturally. I have a tendency to overthink and wind myself up, get all worried, think of the possibilities what could go wrong. The latest unknown situations was beginning my studies in a new unit, new location, new people, new professors and teachers, new subjects, new everything. The shedule has been hectic and overbooked. Turns out, I thrive in this environment. I'm highly motivated, working on multiple projects simultaneously. In my previous school, we concentrated on one big project for long-term, which made me numb, dull-minded, unmotivated, bored. I was anxious at first, worried for social dynamics, but my fellow students are mostly wonderful people.
8. Please describe yourself when you are in a stressful situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
I get overwhelmed initially internally, but mostly remain calm and clear-minded. Example, handling extremely aggressive patient at the ward afterwards. Other nurses were afraid of the man, discussed in the break room how they're not happy about having to deal with him that morning, because he'd been in a bad, explosive, impulsive, unpredictable mood, taking it out on the staff. I was in a shock initially, but able to return into professional role, in which I approached him calmly, told him I want to help him, asked him how I could help him. Remaining peaceful myself, talking in a soft tone also calmed him down. Afterwards, he expressed shame for his behavior and we were able to decrypt the situation and I gained insight from his perspective. Instead of avoidance, I face challenges, even though scary. Meeting a person and talking to them as a human, instead of treating them as mere patients with diagnoses did the trick. It's not rocket science. Instead of fight or flight, I'm aware the key is to remain calm by yourself before anything else.
9. Please describe yourself when you are in an enjoyable situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
I'm in a forest, completely alone, I've not met anyone while wandering there. No joggers, no cyclists, no people taking out their dogs, just me and the forest. I'm completely relaxed, all of my senses are engaged by the environment itself and all the inhabitats that go unseen, but you know they are there, watching you, from the highest branches above.
10. Describe your relationship to socialization. How do you perceive one-on-one interaction? How do you perceive group interaction?
I prefer one-on-one interaction, because is the most intimate interaction. It's easier for me to focus on one person at a time and our relationship. In a group, there are group dynamics at play, roles change, people are not genuine. I acknowledge the importance of group interaction, but I've learned people don't open up the same way as they would alone. I work fine in a group, although I'm less vocal, more of an observer on the side.
11. Describe your relationship to society. What are the elements of it you hold important or unimportant (e.g. social norms, values, customs, traditions)? How do you see people as a whole?
Society is highly flawed system. In it's current state, it unfairly favors the one who have a better starting point, a more resourceful initial setting. I have very little interest or value for social norms, especially gender roles, customary settings and traditions culturally on a societal level. Forcing people to fit into a mold that is unnatural to them is the modern slavery. We're not free with free-will, we're dependent on the system. I wish I existed detached and independently from current society.
12. Describe your relationship to authority. How do you perceive authority? What does it mean to you, and how do you deal with it?
On bigger scale, I don't have much respect or trust for authority. On the contrary, an authoritarian figure or government is more likely to receive resistence, even hostile attitude from me. On a more narrow, everyday scale, I'll give authority the minimum obedience required to coexist, but not quietly. I consider them to be on the same line as me, not above me.
13. Describe your relationship to order and chaos. What do order and chaos mean to you? How do they manifest in your daily life?
I'd say they're in a good balance in my life specifically. I do enjoy a little chaos. Physical evidence would be my apartment. My notebooks at school tell the same tale. My computer is the only thing in order. Studies have taught me methodic ways to work, which is definitely not my natural way. There are procedures required to perform in specific order, although it's not the most efficient one, but old establishments are against development, it seems.
14. What is it that you fear in life? Why? How does this fear manifest to you both in how you think and how you act?
I fear I lose meaning, because when it happens, all crumbles. I've experienced it before, I'm afraid of losing control. I fear being weak, failure, phoney. I aim for genuinity, constantly re-evaluating if I'm truly being myself. At times, I feel lost, which scares me the most in life. When I lose direction, I lose meaning. Sometimes I procrastinate heavily until the very last moment, because I can't achieve perfectionism. I have high standards for myself and I can't be happy knowing if I less of myself than I could have, were able to. On the other side of the spectrum, I drown myself in a project completely, so that everything else stops existing, perfecting every detail that forms entirety I'm pleased with. I want to understand everything, but it's not humanly possible in a life time and it's something that scares me. You know, you have to choose your books. You simply can't read every book, there's not enough time. How do you make a decision like that? It seems so final, which scares me.
15. What is it that you desire in life? What do you strive to achieve? Why? Where do you think these drives and desires stem from or are inspired by?
I desire to form a deeper connection with another human being that exceeds all others in intimacy. I want intensity. I dream of having a child one day, with a person I truly love and connect with, have a being that is the total sum of both of us. I want depth and knowledge. I'm almost desperate to leave a mark in the world. I'm painting my life, ideas, thoughts, emotions on canvases. I wish to leave anything behind, even then. It excites me to think about this: after I'm gone, someone finds a painting I made, no matter where, it could be a dumping area, they find it and it affects them, in any way. Any response. It would be mark in them and it would carry on it's journey, now as a part of them. Perhaps they wrote about it, someone else read it, they experience an epiphany, now a part of both us passes on to other person. I'm aware I affect people around me every day, it truly motivates me. I'm leaving pieces of myself behind without knowing it in the moment, but it's happening all the time. I want to live for the mere fact this is reality, not just my imagination, it's actually happening in segments tied to moments and passed on indefinitely. Everything connects.
16. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
Painting and writing energizes me. Reading about other people's thoughts and ideas, they inspire me. Wandering alone in the forests. Sometimes a mere heavy, physical exercise energizes me. Socializing drains me. I love talking with people, but it exhausts me. I need to be alone often to balance it out. I feel when I'm interacting with someone, it's intimate. Especially when dealing with people who struggle in life, combined with temporarily extremely fragile minds. Every gesture, every tone, every word I say, they analyze me. They're very talented at picking up my mood. I have to be careful in their presence, yet open and genuine, but also maintain appropriate distance - everything I do has a meaning. I can't afford to miscommunicate. It's truly draining but simultaneously meaningful to me in return.
17. Why do you want to know your type? What type do you think you are? Why this/these type(s)? Is there a type that appeals to you, to your self-perception, that you would like to be? Why? If you know your enneagram, please post this here. If you have done any online function tests such as the Keys2Cognition, it helps if you post these results here as well.
For fun, honestly. I've never been typed successfully, it's all speculations. It'd be interesting to find out my type and at best, learn something new about myself. I type as unknown, because I don't feel like I fit types I've received as results, such as ISTJ. I typed myself ISTJ for a long time, again typed as ISTJ by someone else in my first and previous thread, but also speculated to be INTP and INFP. The more I read about cognitive functions, the more unsure I grow considering my type. ISTJ doesn't appeal to me, but I've thought it must be a solid alternative, since it's popping up. I don't relate to ISTJ descriptions, but evidently that is also typical for ISTJ? It's confusing and doesn't make much sense to me. I suppose I could be trying to achieve some kind of closure so I can move on to other things and leave MBTI on the side for a while after this. Keys2Cognition always results in INTP.
Cognitive Process
extraverted Sensing (Se) *************** (15)
unused
introverted Sensing (Si) ************* (13.4)
unused
extraverted Intuiting (Ne) ********************************************** (46.3)
excellent use
introverted Intuiting (Ni) ****************************************** (42.1)
excellent use
extraverted Thinking (Te) *********************** (23.9)
limited use
introverted Thinking (Ti) ********************************************** (46.3)
excellent use
extraverted Feeling (Fe) ************* (13.6)
unused
introverted Feeling (Fi) *************************************** (40)
excellent use
18. Finally, is there something else you find to be of importance you want to add about yourself you think might be of relevance when helping to type you?
Perhaps I'm untypable, doomed to roam for eternity as unknown in the general chat area. Free my spirit, pls.