Talking about Me, fool. Nah I kid. (Its really non offensive, almost ned flandersish) Hey! It said come up with an interesting and descriptive title, why not offer a "your mom" joke.
God, its lame, I know. Try living with it, your mom definitely did. God.
~~WELCOME~~ to another crappy thread about me because I think im so important I need to be typed. Just kidding, people argue that MBTI does the opposite, puts people into boxes. I beg to differ. But thats for later. For now, its time for special snowflake syndrome to go to town. I joke. PLLLEAASE TYPE ME!! Nah I'm kidding, its my 40th attempt, after the 39th you lose interest, i need to stop with the lame jokes.
[READING STARTS HERE- CHAPTER ONE: YOUR DEATH]
Anysways, I don't know if you guys feel this way, but I find literally everything life related boring. No..
But I can't stay in the moment. I struggle badly with issues of concentration. My brain automatically does this thing where it automatically detaches and my mind starts to race with random thoughts like- "what if society was like this...", "zombie apocalypse", "what does i think therefore I am mean?" and "what would it be like to be a skilled con artist or something along those lines". I don't know, I think basically its my minds way of telling me I want a life of adventure, but I don't live in a 5 star book so my mind just retreats to the details of webbing around a good 5 story book...I don't know what I'm talking about. But basically, I'm lost in thought 24/7 and thinking is my only mode of living.
Im not made for a lot of things I find people can function smoothly. I'm not good at making talented first impressions. In fact, a lot of people find me awkward and quite odd. I can't do fast paced jobs and I don't like having to respond to people (not in the literal sense- in the "boss made me do it" sense). I have a very low boredom threshold. Can't stay in the same place or situation for too long. Cant stay with the same people for too long. I don't know what it is. I have this weird thing...
you know when people usually feel more comfortable in an environment after getting to know someone? Yeah, mine seems to work the opposite way. Ive seen it from school experience, work experience. Its almost as though the intial excitement that helps me succeed in the environment in the first place wears off. I don't really like getting intimate with people either, they can tell me their business but when they expect me to tell them mine, it bothers me. Company can start to feel like a responsibility/chore after theres expected socializing.
I don't like intrusive people or needy people. When I say intrusive I mean in the sense of "come on, do this". I am quite self-serving, for example, if a group of people are watching something i won't join in unless I like what theyre watching, even if I know they probably want the company. Even though I know I probably should, I just find it incredibly hard to feel the effort to commit my time to something I don't want to do. But hey were not all perfect.
I find it hard to know what to say to people and for that reason, I'm really quiet. To be honest my thoughts go so fast, its like I'm already having a conversation. I much prefer it if people are talking to me about themselves and I can just hear them out, offering questions or feedback.
SOOO yeah, don't get along well with people. Usually SFJs find me the most repellent. Bad vibes they get from me...
Im constantly trying to find leverage in a situation. Whats the easiest way to do something and do we necessarily have to do it the way the person said to do it. I don't like it when people are so rule adhesive (stuck to the rules, tried to be creative, sue me).
I don't find it easy to know right from wrong and don't feel its an easy judgement to make.
Funnily enough, despite how pessimistic I am about people and the underlying motivations of humanity, in the moment and in interaction with people, I tend to take this stance for granted and people tend to take that for granted. For example, when I see just regular people, part of me just thinks, "why would I be nice to this person? if I were homeless, majority of people I see would just walk past me" , but nice just comes naturally. I hate seeing people on the streets and the chunk of people walking by flinging their dust onto the only thing the homeless don't even really own- their sidewalk perch. Makes me frustrated and question more.
People tend to read my facial expressions really easily. The weird thing is, I'm apparently conveying emotion where its not intended! Its frustrating, people will be like "you seem like you're annoyed with having to do this" and I won't have been even on that line, im thinking about playing video games.
I struggle with spending my time productively and getting my self to do work thats due. Or I'll make plans, just leisurely plans, where I'll be like "I'll learn this/that..." and just never get round to step two. Past three years, learnt language, no, read 50 books, no, and on and on.
Anyways, if you've decided to put in the effort to type me, thanks! I really doubt I'll get more than two responses considering I'm preettty sure people stop typing the same person after 5 times of asking.