Oh alright I understand. I guess you're putting your priorities first which I believe is what everyone should do. After all, you should live your life according to your best interests, right? =P And I don't believe someone can be perfectly pure!
I'm curious though, you say you could be more pleasant but you decide not to be under certain circumstances. Why? And you say you could get snappy at people if they say something you disagree with. Like what? And why does that make you mad? Sorry for all the questions, I hope I'm not overstepping, if so...don't hesitate to tell it, I'll stop.