- -- To describe myself, I'm more often than not an extremely quiet person. To be frank, people could easily classify me as asocial in this instance. I've been this way since I was a child, and was even held back in school due to blatant disinterest in communication with other people. In fact, people would often ask me if I could talk at all (or if I was mute). I can say that I'm not without manners socially, but I don't really have anything decent when it comes to tact due to obliviousness, and either way, my lack of personal interaction stifles this anyway. Another contributor is that I tend to get a bit nervous while talking due to the fact that my sentences are very broken and full of pauses. Refer to the video to see what I mean. I have to think out my sentences well before I speak them, otherwise they wind up like what you'll see, and even then, sometimes I still stutter or fumble. Talking is one of my least favorite things to do because of this.
- -- On the playground at school, I was far, far more interested in finding and observing how insects behaved and worked, how plants functioned and grew (when, where, why, what type, etc, etc.), and how many types of rocks I could spot in the playground gravel. I had a very hard time making friends either way due to the fact that I was the kind of kid that would pick up wasps, spiders and snakes in the classroom before the teacher could kill them because I knew what specific kind of creature it was, and whether or not it, or its behavior was actually threatening, sheerly because I was so hellbent on understanding what it was at some point. I was always fascinated by the things people typically feared.
- -- Admittedly, I have some theories in my mind that aren't generally what people deem 'normal'. For instance, I'm utterly amazed by the capabilities of a venus Flytrap, Mimosa, and so on, so forth, in the sense that without any nervous system structure, and without muscular structure at all, they can recognise when something has come into contact with their snares or leaves, reacting with either offensive or defensive motion based on this. This has lead me to believe that scientists have quite honestly not bothered to dig deep enough beyond the scope of function in order to examine that there could quite possibly be other forms of 'conscience' and 'sentience', and just the mutter of 'It's just a plant' irks me like no tomorrow.
I have other theories in mind too, mainly pertaining to blood types, Rhesus factor, and autoimmune disorders.
Of course, most people tend to find the above thoughts rather absurd, so I keep them tucked out of sight until I see someone that brings up something vaguely similar to it, and then I'm off like a train with discussion of the possibilities.
- -- I'm obsessed with taking things apart and learning what makes them work. It's the basis of understanding these things that I find satisfying. Whether it's taking apart an entire PC and observing all the circuits, coils, cards and chips, or exploring the external dynamics that make something otherwise simplistic in construction function, such as a glider, hot air balloon or parachute, understanding what makes it work is a great deal to me. I guess that it could be explained as a desire to perceive the unperceivable, clarify the intangible, and all in all, understand what we do not.
- -- Over all, I suppose I tend to contradict myself a bit in this regard, but I favor organization externally (my files, binders, and many other things are extremely organized), while as long as I can remember, I've had instances where I pick up random objects--little trinkets and nick-naks that remind me of something, so I won't forget it. I suppose there's a slight nostalgic air in this, and often it can clutter my space (the top of my computer desk is one such area).
- -- I am NOT a people person. Never have been, and probably never will be, mainly for many of the reasons I've already given, but another thing is that while I want others to be happy, I don't always know how to go about making that a reality. I get paranoid if I have to act as someone's security blanket unless I trust them. Regardless of this paranoia, I have a tendency to be a bit selfless if someone else is in need, and I will almost always put the needs of others before my own. Sadly, my capabilities to avoid making others feel awkward or weirded out by my behavior meanwhile can make this more than a little difficult.
On a second read through I'm now seeing the Se as well. Your function stack looks to me to be Ti-Se-Ni-Fe I bolded parts that seemed especially enlightening. You are definitely a Ti dominant type with a Fe polr. Problem is, you have introverted intuition not extroverted. You are also clearly very hands on with your learning. Which points to Se. Now... the other option Ni-Fe-Ti-Se, that puts Ti and Se too far down the stack to really fit. An INFJ would have less problem accessing Fe to support Ni. They might be the morbidly curious sort as well, but in a more abstract way.