Hello, I apologize in advance for this lengthy thread, but here we go;
I really need your help in finding my mbti type. I've been dealing with this for quite a while and the more I know, the less sense everything seems to make.
I've taken the mbti test multiple times and for the most part I seem to be between INFP and INTP - but when you take the functions into an account, this doesn't really make sense. The cognitive functions test... i find it too abstract, but mainly i get the INFP order of functions.
I've heard that sometimes two functions working together can mimic one... basically, I'm completely baffled and that's why I'm looking for your opinions.
I'm fairly certain that I'm an introvert, I definitely am more on the shy, quiet, introspective side. I definitely feel drained after spending time with people and I need alone time. I don't like parties because I don't consider them fun (I don't dance, drink, or enjoy small-talk). When I talk with people, I like it to be about things that I like and that are more intellectual in nature.
I love observing people and analyzing them. I often find it hard to express myself even around friends (one-on-one conversation is fine, but the second there are more people around I just resort to listening and occasionally burning with excitement to say something, but I just can't get myself to do it...). With people I really know well and feel confident around (basically just my two cousins) I can be louder, more outgoing, make more jokes...
We're currently working on a musical (just the three of us, my idea, a summer thing for our family to see), and I like being in charge, but I don't want to impose anything on anyone... I don't think any of them would call me rigid or bossy. It's my project, so of course I'm passionate about it and I want it to go well, so I feel that I have to organize our rehearsals, etc., but at the end of the day I still want them to be responsible enough to learn their parts and take care of that.
As for teamwork in general, I hate being in charge (not only because of the responsibility, but because I have to tell people what to do)... I prefer working alone - that way if anything goes wrong, I'm the only one to blame (and yes, I can be severely self critical and perfectionistic). I'm an individualist.
I study English and German, and in general I have quite the ear for languages and grammar. I almost always correct people on that (for the most part in my head, though).
I've always considered myself more on the "emotionally colder side", I don't really express any intense emotions (except when I'm under stress, then I can be either a nightmare to be around, or I get pretty chatty to try and diffuse the tension). I'm pretty sure that's because there isn't much to express. I rarely feel super angry or anything strong and intense. Any displays of affection are also not my forte (the dreaded hugs - not to mention anything more!). Is much as I hate it, I'm not good at consoling people. If someone is sad I have no idea how to deal with them. I often don't know how to deal with myself and I'm not sure what emotion I'm experiencing - BUT there can be another extreme - I get overwhelmed with emotions and feel too many at once, so I can't say "I feel happy today", because I might be feeling happy, sad, anxious, excited, all at once.
I used to think that I was a judger because tbh I'm not that easygoing... or at least I don't like it when things don't go according to plan because that means I'll lose precious time that I wanted to spend doing something else.
if we go on a trip and were supposed to be home by 4pm, but make it back at say 6pm, I'll get anxious because I had planned to do other things instead of losing these two hours.
As far as timetables and planning other activities goes, I'm pretty chill... I'm a college student so I need to be organized to an extent, but even if I try to make a plan for studying I most likely won't follow it. I'm big on procrastinating and I'm not an orderly person (my chaos does make sense to me, and I'm not bothered by it).
I'm one of those "everything is relative" (or at least most things are) people. :P I often make decisions quickly if I feel prompted to, but 99% of the time I go back, pondering on them and possibly changing them. I went vegan for what I consider "selfish" reasons (weight loss :P), and I never really cared much for the other factors that are related to this (environment, animals, compassion, etc.), but I'm glad that it encompasses all of this too.
I tend to have a lot of ideas and my brain is always scattered (jumping from one topic to the next). I usually get really excited about something, but when it's time to put it into action, I lose the interest. I guess that's why I have issues explaining things, like an event - I can't condense it (I can never just get to the point, I have to start at the beginning).
I'm an artist in many ways. I draw, paint, sing (I taught myself how to play the guitar, but I can't say I have the will to do do anything advanced - it's enough for me to be able to play the basic chords so that I can sing along; if I had more time and patience, I'd like to got more proficient though). When it comes to drawing I do portraits and I love working with the details in this case.
I was about to go study last weekend and just this idea of the Newton's cradle crossed my mind - here's the inner monologue that went on in my mind (hope it can be relevant for my typing).
"oh, remember that cool thing, the five balls suspended on the frame... what exactly is that thing called?... [googles it] aaaa... so that's what it is! i want it! but wait... i have to order it and wait for it... let's just make it! it will be fun and so cool if i can make it work! let's see... hmmm... oh, wait, but i should be studying - wait, this is more important! - so i'll get the string..."
to add to that, as far as instructions go, I briefly glanced at a yt video and thought i got it... i didn't... the first version failed, but the 2nd one was a success (as i learned from my own mistakes, no thanks to further investigation into the matter).:P
I can become obsessed with problems and keep thinking about their essence. If I can't find an answer I tend to drop it all and start thinking that nothing really makes sense anymore (nothing is quite as frustrating as coming to a realization that all your assumptions/theories/etc. you've built mean nothing because the base of your thinking crumbles).
I have very little clue of who I actually am. One of my biggest concerns, especially in college, is that we're studying such irrelevant things and living in a bubble (analyzing sentences is really going to help solve world problems). I also don't like dealing with irrelevant details - if they are indeed irrelevant.
This is all that I can think off the top of my head, I applaud you if you've managed to read through my ramble :)
I will greatly appreciate any suggestions of my type, and if you have any more questions that would help you type me, please ask away. :)