I've been struggling to find my type recently. I used to think I was an ENTP, but after talking to a friend about MBTI types I'm not so sure anymore. I also have anxiety, which makes my energy levels very low, and it's harder to figure my dominant function because of that. I would appreciate if you could help me.
So let's start with what I know (or think I know):
I'm pretty sure I'm not an introverted type, especially because I don't identify too much with any of the introverted functions. I am pretty low key for an extrovert, but I believe this is caused by my mental illness. I think I would be engaging much more in things if I wasn't feeling so bad.
I'm also pretty sure I have Ti/Fe in second and third positions. I am a very logical person and tend to go to logic when I need to solve a problem (even my therapist said that, that I put logic over feelings). I also am pretty bad to understand and listen to my own feelings, but I can have a general grasp of what others are feeling and what's the emotional "atmosphere"(?) of a situation. I also care about what others think of me, but not to the point that it stops me from doing what I want to do.
Now, some general information I hope it's useful:
I am an illustrator. I think I have a good grasp of aesthetics and people often compliment me about my choices of clothing, the decoration in my house and my sense of color in art, especially.
I am creative but I don't identify with the "artist" stereotype. I like many things, not just drawing, but I kept with drawing because I thought it was the most fun. It has a lot of variety, you can always choose to try something different, to tell a new story. Even the artistic career itself is not a career with many rules. I think that makes the path interesting, I could not live my whole life doing just one same thing. I like to explore the world, either with my senses (like trying new food, going to new places, etc) or mentally (new stories, points of view, information).
I thought I was Ne because of this interest in new things, but I think it could be Se as well. My friend pointed that in most cases I am actually trying new experiences, which she thought meant more Se (instead of ideias as Ne). I do like to learn things, but lately, like from some years ago, I have been loosing my patience to read or listen to too much theorectical information. I like new ideias, but I don't like talking just for the sake of talking if nothing is going to be done. That is why I started thinking I might be an Se that just happen to live an more intuitive friendly environment.
The cons of me being an Se are that I am not good at observing detail. I have, as I said, a general grasp of the "atmosphere" of a place or a person, but nothing too specific, I think. I am also very bad with knowing where I am in a street or a large building (I got lost inside a bigger house one day). I wasn't very good at sports at school. I don't know if that's related to anxiety as well, since when I am out in public I get nervous. I am not sure really.
Then again I am still prone to jump into things, even when feeling anxious, just to try and get a new exprience, to add to my repertory of tried things in life - and because it's more fun. Doing the same thing many times can make me go crazy.
I do conceptualize things, and make associations and see patterns in a general way, but that may be Ti? I also understand things quickly and usually got high grades at school even without studying too much.
I read about the inferior functions too. I am totally not the type to dwell in the past, and my anxiety does not come from going back to past events, rather it comes from me thinking about how I am today and how my future is going to be. So that's more like inferior Ni?
I'm just very confused, haha. If you have anything to ask me that you think would help figure out my dominant function I will gladly answer.
Thank you so much!